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O-M-G! I am so being frigin emo right now. Woe woe pity me -.-



Ok not really.



I don't want sympathy or god damn attention.



I am sick of having to face each day. It's too hard. I ain't a quiter yet I still seem to be giving up.



Omg I can't even see as I'm typing this. My eyes are closed because they hurt too much. Wow I can type without looking. Yay!



Anyways it was a very bad day. Bad is an understatement.



Ok I need my glasses.



Great. My eyesight is deteriorating but I really can't be bothered to shove hard contact lens into my eyes to bend my eyes back into shape. It hurts too much.



Hmmm...



So. One of my enemies (if you can call him that) threatened to kill me and tried to attack me. I mean great. You fucking rape one of my best friends, fuck another over, fuck my life around then try and attack me. Seriously you are pathetic. Especially how you hit girls. I hope you die. I will fucking pray that you get AIDS. Seriously. If anyone deserves it, it's you.



ARGH! Why the fuck do people care about my weight? Yeah so the fuck what. I'm FAT! Big deal. Oh it is a big deal right. I can't be perfect, I can't fit in. I'm so so sorry if I like food. Should I start vomiting now? Or eat a carrot? No. I don't think so. I'd rather a big mac, a quarter pounder and a mcflurry thanks.



Omg my skin is fucking breaking out cause I'm fucking so stressed.



Why do I feel like this? I don't want to feel like this. I hate feeling like I'm pathetic, like I'm shit beneath someone's shoes. Like... like it would all go away if I picked up the razor. No. I haven't cut since October and I intend to keep it that way for as long as possible.



People don't even realise how much they destroy me.



When a 16 year old girl drinks vodka at 9 in the morning thats a warning sign I think.



Argh. I'm going to bed.