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We still are not back at our place and it has been a month now since it flooded. We are still living with my parents and siblings. I am still finding it really hard, but have learned to just suck it up. We talked to our landlord the other day and she said it will be another 5 weeks until our place will be fixed. I think it may take longer than 5 weeks seeing as how she told us last time it would only be 3 weeks.

It took two weeks just for the insurance company to figure all of their shit out so.. We will see how long it takes.

My appearance has been getting the best of me lately. I have been feeling very insecure when it comes to my appearance and it is beginning to depress me. I feel so fat, my hair is ridiculously short and I want it to be long, and I cannot stand to look at my face without having makeup on.

I don't know why I am so vain or why I care so much about my outer appearance. I hate it. I wish I could just love myself for the way I am and just live my life happily.

Im starting to game a lot on Steam and im looking for some gaming buddies who would like to game with me when I have the time to.

Comment on here or send me a PM!

I like to play Counter strike, Half Life 2 DM, and Team fortress.

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CryingMist
22:42 Jan 12 2017

I play on steam a few games, like Don't starve and don't starve together and a few others :) my steam is Jakyna

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Well, I just finished transferring everything from my old computer to my new computer. I don't know why but I am feeling sad about how im not going to be using my laptop anymore. I am giving it to my mother so she can have a computer to use. As dumb as this may sound, I feel like a piece of me is missing. I just need to remind myself that it is only a laptop, not a living thing. It shouldn't matter this much to me.

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xxSEXYxx
03:03 Jan 12 2017

Just keeping thinking about the stuff you like about your new laptop and I'm sure that will help :)

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I finally have a new desktop computer. I've been wanting a new computer for many years now. I can finally game again like I did so many years ago. I can't remember the last time I was able to play computer games. I've really missed it.

I hate this world, it depresses me nonstop.



I just want to go somewhere without such ignorance and closed mindedness. It's disgusting to look around and see such chaos over the stupidest of things.



Why can't we all learn to live with one another. I'm not asking for us to love or even like one another, simply to tolerate each other and move on with our short pathetic existence.



We are all parasites.

I saw something that really bothered me today. I went to see the new Underworld movie with my sister and dad. While there we noticed in the front row of the theatre there was two children under the age of 10. One had to have been 3 or younger. This bothered me so much. I was angry, it was taking all my strength not to march down there and ask what the hell are the parents thinking. I bit my tongue and tried to enjoy the movie.

In my opinion, Parents are supposed to protect their children's innocence for as long as they possibly can, not taking them to 18A movies where there are people being ripped in two. They do not need to be subjected to such horror at such a young age. They should be going to see Disney movies and cartoons, not adult movies that will scare them to their core.

I was near tears in that theatre from how angry and saddened I was. What the hell is wrong with society today?!

I have found that my greatest strength has also become my greatest weakness, I care too much. I let people walk all over me because I care about them and their well being too much. I hate seeing people sad, depressed, disappointed, or in pain. I am so empathetic that when I see someone suffering in anyway, I will become depressed for them and I will even begin to cry. I hate how much I care, I hate how I will do anything for those who are less fortunate than me. I end up causing harm to myself emotionally when I give my all to everyone else and have nothing left for myself.

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xRobin3x
02:54 Jan 06 2017

Got the same problem as you. We care too much. and in turn causes much pain in our lives.

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For me right now, happiness is spending time with my daughter and seeing her laugh and smile. I love my little princess so very much. I don't know what I'd do without her in my life. Also, happiness is hugging my boyfriend in the morning and asking him how he slept. Right now we sleep in separate bed because that is all that my parents have for us, and I am totally okay with that. I am so grateful to have a place for all of us to live for the mean time of our apartment being fixed.

It has been an interesting few weeks living with my parents again. I definitely miss living on my own. It is hard to go from living along, to living back with your parents in my opinion.

I'm sure I am not alone in this, I ate way too much food this holiday season. I feel so fat and disgusting. I need to stop eating so much and start working out again. I have managed to gain a little over 10 pounds in the past couple months. That's not good at all!

I need to start working out, eating less and staying motivated! I would like to be my goal weight of 150 pounds by the end of 2017.

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Voelk
00:46 Jan 06 2017

I know how you feel, I gained 3 lbs but it feels like 100

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Today was a much better day. I got to relax and do absolutely nothing, which was awesome. I watched some Harry Potter and the chamber of secrets with my mom, which was nice.

My boyfriend and I went shopping for food for dinner, we visited with my grandfather and my step grandmother, and now I am relaxing in the TV room watching Youtube videos and posting here on Vampire Rave.

I am feeling tired, but not feeling so much on edge or grumpy anymore which is awesome.

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GatsunoKisu
10:55 Jan 05 2017

I am happy for you. I hope today is even better.

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Well, because of our house flooding we have been staying at my parents house for the past week. Our daughter has been very sick with a cold as well, which is making life even more stressful than it really needs to be. Our daughter wakes up multiple times a night screaming at the top of her lungs because of her cold. my mother is driving me fucking crazy. I really do not like living with her because she lacks basic intelligence. I know it is harsh to say, but she is a very simple minded and closed minded woman. She makes me want to hurt people because she is so dumb. I love her, but she needs to widen her understanding of how shit really works in the world we live in today.

I really fucking hope my house gets fixed here soon. I cannot live here for much longer.