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my soul to you endures...for eternity..(my baby..)
02:33 Apr 17 2007
Times Read: 530




As i watch you lay there in that hospital bed, i think of how fragile and small you look to me, how i remember you so tough but sweet. Hoping that you are the greatest and toughest of them all, and you prove yourself worthy by pulling it out of this surgery. You tell me not to worry as you will be fine but i worry anyway because the heart you own is mine. There are no words to explain how i feel, this pain is killing me that makes me wait the time till you stand again. Forgetting everything that is not you i remember all that i love about you, and in my heart and yours you'll always know that i love you.



You will always be my hero, for if you were to die my soul would go with you, as my heart for we can never be apart... my love is true and it only stands for you. My hero that is what i call you, but i will never forgive myself for what happened to you is that of my faulty lack of interests. Don't be afraid for this is no suicide letter it is simply my expression of love for you. I promise that your eyes which are so blue will look into mine and say i told you i could do it.



To the One. The Only. My Love. My Soul



Love always and forever eternity



your Baby Gurl

Feeling the emptiness...
02:31 Apr 17 2007
Times Read: 531




If I am everything you want and I am everything you need and you are everything inside of me that I wish I could be then why do I still feel empty??



Why do things happen the way they do?



The pains that many people endure of many why does it always seem so unbearable?



Because maybe this is, the way things are supposed to be…



The way things are meant to be…



Because the world and the people in it need to feel pain at some point and time in order



For this world to a normal, place…



What would JESUS do? Hmmm I wonder why many people ask that one question??



Dying without all the answers left given, leaving without the love that was found when



Once never given or received…



Hearing a man who was always strong cry and draw tears as if they've never fallen



Breaking silence with secrets never told, dreams never said, and stars never touched…



Falling into the never-ending sea of sadness, forgetting. What it felt like to be held…



Hating myself comes so easily, and people wonder why loving myself comes so guiltily.



Feeling the pain of emptiness and pain endured, becoming at a loss for life…



Why these teachers show us the way of trigonometry and algebra and not the art of criticism and voluptuous dreams of pain… hating the strong and talented is easy because they are so perfect… to be hated or loved is what most people choose… I choose Hate!!!

True Loves Final Kiss.... (the memory of a dead girl..)
02:29 Apr 17 2007
Times Read: 532




In a simple twist of fate,

true love's first kiss

comes a pace too late..

No one knows how she felt,

when the last drop,

drained from herself,,

she wanted just one thing...

to experience what the words

true love could bring.

Now the dead silence falls,

revealing the cruelty of the veil

that both shock and appauls.

The eyes of those who scream,

atlast forget the notes and words

of what it was to sing..

to burn the scene..

The final tear shed,

the end of the crimson stain bled.

She lies motionlessly...

wishing she could have lived vigorously.

now she's dead.

Her heart beats cold,

full of shivering ice,

zero thoughts in the head

wandering the memories so old,

and she had.. just one wish...

.. one FINAL KISS.....

My Eternal Promise
02:28 Apr 17 2007
Times Read: 534

True is true,

as through and through

your love burns me

like desire

as if a bloodlust rain..

a searing red fire.

To hear the words

of your heart dance with me

and hold tight

saying im yours

but not just for tonight,

declare we'll never set part

yell to the underworld

how much you miss me

and hold tight

explain to my dreams

you'll be alright..

explain the toxicity..

look into your eyes

remembering, seeking

no lies

keep me in your soul

keep me in your heart

don't ever let my love grow cold..

For you i shall wait

even every now,

then it is my soul

that i wish to take.

But i shall stay true

because my heart,

beats only for you..

so i will wait

for fate to take

let us hope it doesn't

come a heart beat

too late....

Beating for love..?
02:26 Apr 17 2007
Times Read: 535




This is just a game,

You hurt me just for fun,

You take pleasure in seeing

Me in pain…

Because of you..

You enjoy it all

Beating me,

Breaking me,

Piece by piece as you please

As much as you desire

You burn for it, to hear me scream

In vain you burn the blood red fire..

You love it,

You taste for it..

You crave the crimson blood

Of mine everytime

You lust for my tears

You love to see the fears

That you bring to my eyes..

Everytime you slip

You regret it..

And then you start again..

This time I stand

And you beat me down,

But not for long

I kick back,

And you get pissed..

And start to hit

And bruise..

And down I go from

My rein of power..

Crashing like towers..

Cowering away..

And barely living to

See another day..

How can you do this again..

I barely manage to utter..

.. to me?

You scoff and lie

.. because I love you

that's why…

and with that I die

from all the searing pain

inside..

but one last time you kick me..

and I kick back

down YOU go..

and now you are nothing.

Just like me..

I broke you inside..

Now you will die..

And I can finally sleep..

Peacefully…

Goodnight

The other story ( a tragedy love)
02:26 Apr 17 2007
Times Read: 536




Mightier than the sword

We spoke

Swifter than the bullet..

Yet we sit and think

What now?

We are to be together,

Destined forever

But we wonder what

Our lives hold for us,

What they wish to grant us..

Maybe it us that did not deserve

The gift of eternity..

The everlasting love between us?

We could never seem to

Understand the lives

Of each other

And so here we stand bewildered

Lost but dangerous..

Evil but innocent..?

So tell me my dear

How can that be

If the love we share

,means nothing to our eternity?

How can we share something

That to us means nothing at all?

Well my dear I believe

Only time will show us

What is in store..

Or maybe I will take mine life..

By the next sunrise..

Strange and true..

Because my dear lestat,

I do not love you…

Loving You Differently..
02:23 Apr 17 2007
Times Read: 537

wow today feels empty.. like this world is something i need to know.. i wanna know what t is that changes everything inside and out once you lose it.. it comes back in a teafing manner.. but still returns what then? there are many things i wish i could say but can't seem to pull myself to say them.. so i won't life is ok for now.. might be getting a job soon still practicing the guitar.. life hasn't got much different since then.. oh well... here's a poem..



Loving You Differently



Hard Like Rain,

Evil Like Fire,

Cruel Like Wind,

But As Cold As You Can Be

Just Remember That I Loved You

And That You Will Never Be Replaced..

Even Though I Know At Times

When You're With Me

You Feel Disgraced

And Used

Beaten And Bruised

But What Can I Say?

When You Turn Away So Quickly

I Could Have Loved You

But Would The Feeling Have

Been True?

Wouldn't It Have Been Better If

I Just Stayed..?

If i Had found you..
02:22 Apr 17 2007
Times Read: 538






If i had found you..



that's where i would've gone

if i went running after you..

that;s would've been my home

if i hadn't tried to find the truth

i would've lied with you beside you



on the dust and the dirt

in the cold hard ground

where everything stops

where everything..ends

where love ends..



i heard about your death

and cried myself to sleep

wishing that i could be with you

again .. following me

in my dreams

that's where i would have been

but they found you.. lying in the water

cold and heartless

dead with emptiness

that's where you went

and i cried because i wanted to go too.

i wanted so much to be with you..

but i stayed behind and

was left to wonder why

i couldn't for nothing in my life lie..with you



on the dust and the dirt

in the cold hard ground..

where nothing is to hurt

and nothing is ever found

where everything stops

where everything ends

where love ends..



I waited for you..

i waited to tell myself the truth

that i couldn't love you

because i hated the fact

that i couldn't be yours

i was no longer yours the one

the one you lied with

the one you dreamt dreams of hell

your endless nights.. you knew so well

and i hated myself because

i knew i couldn't do it...

i was unfaithful to love's endurance

that i could alone with you lie

but i tried to take my life and commit

this ultimate suicide

and here i sit..



on the dust and the dirt

not in the cold hard ground

where everything is to hurt

and everything is to be found.. i sit

here on this dark ground..

where nothing stops

where nothing ends..

between two worlds apart

where love is never to start..

written for a friend called A Question in Mind
20:29 Apr 15 2007
Times Read: 541

hmm what what what what to fill this blank box

with such emotion

that anyone who reads this

cries at the end..

that anyone willing waiting to commit suicide

rethinks it because they know we all

have skeletons to hide

what to think

what to say

to make others live another day

what to think

what to say

hmmm i don't know anymore

love has burned

and it has nourished

now what..?

what to think

what to say..

hmm guess that'll

have to wait another day...