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Tuesday, August 03, 2010





as i was working on the task at hand..

my thoughts would play back the days of high school,

funny how life can change..

for some it changes for the better..

others, it changes for the worse...

and for many it remains unchanging.

for me i would like to think that it keeps getting better,

even with lifes set backs.. its still a good life.

but then, there are times that when and if life changes..

how well one can accept these.. or adapt with it.

it often seems as if things hold you back from what you want

the most in life.. but somehow, fate twists and brings you to

where you are to be.. where your destiny at that moment is

meant to stay.

funny how certain moments of experience, keep the spark or

douse it.

i had lots of dreams as a kid growing up...

i wanted to be a dancer.. a model.. a singer or actress..

but then the wrong decisions and then... nothing.

just a life of solitude and quiet pain, the down side of the

roller coaster ride. then good old fate gives a little twist and BLAM!!

it hits.. and your no longer alone, but you then realize that suddenly

you've found what your looking for.

me... i got two of the most awesome kids god could have blessed me with.

a man that loves me as i am... however flawed and imperfect.

even with our disagreements, big or small, he still makes me happy.

the upside of that roller coaster ride i was talking about...i love that part.

my thoughts always swing back to people i knew back then and i can see

just how they are fairing in life. some, good.. some bad...(i will explain this one

further in the next blog... its funny)

but in the end we all get what we get, the paths that we walk lead us somewhere

but, yet, its just hard to see or tell where we will end up.

*ponders*

no one really knows what life has in store for each of us... all we can do is hope its

right where we need to be.