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SO FUCKING STRESSED
03:41 May 29 2005
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..........................Hi.................................................

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................................................... So.......... Yeah,

alright. I just got over my crying for tonight. It

was just me being stupid, pathetic, and weak,

so I guess I should learn how to control my

damn emotions. It would be so much easier if I

wasn't so emotionally instable. I swear I have

some kind of problem, I mean SHIT..... Maybe

I'm bipolar. I have friends that are, and I'm

more instable than them, so maybe I have

something beyond that and I'm not sure there's

a name for it so yeah............ MOther FUcking

SHit ASs CRack WHore BItch. I WANt BLOoD, I

FEeL LIkE KIlLiNG. I FEel REalLy StRanGE. LiKe

I'M NoT MYseLF. If anyone has bothered to

read this.... Thank you for your time, and I'm

sorry. You probably think I'm crazy. For all I

know I am..... I feel like I'm crazy at the

moment. I think I've SNAPPED....... But please

don't judge me negatively for what I write in my

journal. I use it to vent out emotions so I won't

go off doing something I might regret later.......

So bear with me please............. Ah.... FUCCK

IT....... I'll end this before you people think I've

COMPLETELY LOST IT,,...............THat Is iF you

don't THink I havE yEt......................... Dark

Regards......................................................... I

mean.... scratch that......... Best

Regards............................................. I'll end

this with a quote I like.......... 'The truth is... you

could slit my throat and I'd apologise for

bleeding on your shirt...'

Me Ranting, Raving, and Rambling. (Very stressed out...)
06:06 May 01 2005
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This was a messege I sent to one of my close friends Friday. Just thought I might share...







I think I really am going crazy because I've started hearing this odd voice in my head....Maybe it's just stress and I'm talking to myself without realizing it. I've been working so hard these past few days. I had Drum Major tryouts today, and for some reason, it meant so much to me that if I don't make it, I at least make assistant. There were three of us. One of the others, Sarah, made Drum Major. I was so happy for her. All I wanted now was assistant. But it turns out that me and the other guy trying out both get assistant because our band director thinks we're both really good. I guess I should be happy that I'm considered assistant. But I wanted it all to myself. I guess the main reason it's bugging me is because I've been working extremely hard, I wanted this SO BAD...I needed this to feel good about myself. Especially because of all the things he was saying. Like 'I'm gonna beat you just because I'm a guy' and 'I don't really care if I make it or not.' He didn't even hardly practice at all and I worked my ass off. It meant so much to me and it meant NOTHING to him. And now I'm just stuck here feeling helpless and lost, sick at my stomach, feeling like I'm not good enough, and I suddenly feel numb, like nothing else matters, and I'm just an broken light bulb that has been drained of it's spark of light... Am I wrong to feel this way? I feel like I'm such a bad person right now for hating him... I'm really sorry for spilling all of this on you, it's just that the person I usually talk to about my emotional instability is gone right now, and I needed to rant and rave and ramble on and on...I'm really sorry if I'd made you uncomfortable. I hope you understand.

Just a few of my fave quizzes...
06:01 May 01 2005
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The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!

Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

LevelScore

Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Extreme
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very High
Level 7 (Violent)	Extreme
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Extreme
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very High

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test



Who are you inside????? (LOTS OF RESULTS)girls only
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You are a cat woman. You are independant and very

self-rigious. You have a mind of your own and

are not afraid to show it. You tend to hide

your true feelings and get frustrated (easy).





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I'll bet you expected this answer. You already knew

you were a DARK ANGELIC, didn't you? You

are similar to a demon but slightly different

in that you don't revel in evil...you revel in

pleasure. Your wings resemble an angel's but if

that's so then you are a Fallen Angel - your

love of sin caused you to be cast from the

Heavens. They are black as raven wings and are

nearly as dark as your desires. You are

faithless and love it - you believe there is no

Judgement Day to fear and so you can do what

you want! You have a refined concept of what is

sexy and a slightly chaotic sense of 'fun.' In

fact, you love chaos and view much of what you

do as a game. You are typically attracted to

those that will challenge your mind, power, and

wit...and are 'dangerous' people like you. It's

not unlikely that you are bisexual or at least

open to the concept, because you seek

excitement and passion everywhere and in

everyone. Chances are you have a special talent

for magick - you're a powerful being and you

know what you want. Like a Serpent of Eden you

like to try your powers of seduction and

manipulation, though your intent is rarely to

cause harm. You have a deep, dark sense of art

and/or poetry, because your mind is a deep,

dark place. While typically smirking, amused,

and sarcastic, you are capable of severe

revenge and a passion and intensity unrivaled

by any other. In your eyes life is for

enjoyment and pleasure - nothing else. If

you're not having fun in your own twisted way,

you're not happy. You are easily bored with the

vast majority of people. You are most likely

drawn towards the Gothic subculture and

probably adore Goth music, art, and style. Many

people look down on your seemingly careless

lifestyle and may even consider you 'slutty'.

Not true. You just know you're sexy and you're

damn proud of it. Dark Angels have an outlook

most like Satanists - loving sin and looking to

none but themselves for power. Congratulations!

You're my kindred spirit. As far as I'm

concerned - you know what life is REALLY about.

Have fun...Muahaha.



Trying to find source, will be posted ASAP.





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Your half- angel. Not exactly human, but not quite

angel, you walk on earth freely. Half-Angels

have no wings, but tend to show some signs.

Some ways to notice these are that the girl

never menstrates, she cannot bleed, and her

touch seems to give of a glow. No one really

knows how half-angels are born. Some say that

when a child is born, one of the angels blesses

her with her gifts. Others say that they are

cursed creatures, because half-angels cannot

die, while their familly and friends around

them do. Hlaf-Angels are very beautiful and

Kind, and have the power to speak to animals,

but at the same time, sad that they are this

way. Some Half-Angels love being human. Being

able to see, smell, hear, taste,and feel are

all miracles to them. They crave to be more

human-all the time.





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You are a autum. You are a quiet person. You

really dont' have much to say about anything

unless you are spoken to. You are like the

season spring in your mellow ways. You really

don't get mad really easily. You are very laid

back and a mystery to most. Most men like it.

;)





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you represent the dreams in life. you are laid back

and also dream alot.





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you represent the begining of life. you are bright

and cheerful and love being who you are!





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You like the ones that understand you.





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You are a violin. You are very held back and

quiet. You do what you want and that usually

means something quiet like reading or writing.

You are calm and perhaps considered dark to

some. But you rarly talk to anyone besides

your close friend or family.





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You are a flute. You are social and like to take

your chances. You like to spread your wings and

expirience new things. You are high in spirit.

You also like to talk to many people about your

views.





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