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Aparently I am Paranoid....
10:49 Sep 23 2005
Times Read: 499



Paranoid You are continually suspicious
without cause, constantly suspecting that
others are decieving or exploiting you. In
conversation you take offense where none is
intended, when someone is whispering with
another person you belive it is about you.
Always you read threatening or insulting
meanings from what would be normal words and
actions. Because of this you do not confide in
other people as you are sure they will let you
down. You can be emotionally cut off from other
people and reluctant to form attachments with
them. Characteristics include being
mistrustful, cold, defensive and
hypersensitive.



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Vampiric Auras Essay
10:22 Sep 06 2005
Times Read: 502

Do Vampires Exist? Of course Vampires exist. Are you yourself not a vampire? Do you not drain the "Vital Force" from the food you eat, from the sunlight or from your enviroment While you sleep? It this way, every living thing participates in a form of Vampirism. Though, if we were to listen to Eliphas Lévi he warns us against a type of person, fearless and cold-blooded, who seems to have the power to cast a sudden chill, merely by entering the room, upon the gayest party ever assembled. They shake one's resolution, kill one's enthusiasm, devitalize one's faith and courage. Thus, there are actually people running about all over the place, who actually possess, and exercise, faculties similar to those mentioned by Lévi, but in much greater intensity, even of a kind far more formidable, and directed by malignant will. The doctrine of "Vital Force" & "Subtle Energies" has been so brought back into the public limelight and so I hardly need to bring credability to it's existence as it's now accepted as certainly fact. These energies have recently been coined as 'protoplasm' by modern science. Science has recently discovered what Magick has known for centuries --that every piece of physical matter is simply this protoplasm vibrating at a frequency our physical senses can perceive.

The "Vampiric Aura" is a subtle energy field, directed by the mind, which have been given a negative polarity. Just like a magnet, opposites attract and a negatively polarized aura will attact and consume positive energy. This is the basic premise upon which this technique opperates. This field is of the protoplasmic variety and typically will not slow vibration enough to be seen with the physical senses -- though with the astral senses may appear quite obvious. Metaphysically, this technique can be perfected as to leech multiple octaves of active, positive energies from the enviroment. For example, a 'typical' negative person can off-set the mood and raise the tension of an entire room upon entering. Though a practioner of the Forbidden Arts, and in this case of Vampirism, will have a much greater effect on his enviroment upon enerting a room. The positive currents which run through the wires if electronics are present may be slowed, and lights dimmed. Active, warm air may be slowed to a chilling calm. Small animals may flee to save their own vital force and subtle energies from the devistating Vampiric Aura. To develop your own Vampiric Aura, you must first develop a unquinchable thurst for the subtle energies. You must begin visualizing, at multiple times throughout everyday, that you are a miniature 'black hole', a powerful magnet sucking in and comsuming all the living energies around you. Let "more," become your moto. Create a powerful Visualization, an ideal, of the effects your Vampiric Aura will have. By focusing your mind upon these things, you'll begin to manifest them into the marble real. We become what we focus on. This is law.





Vampiric Aura technique described my Aleister Crowley:

1) Visualize your aura, black in color, spanning 1-2 feet from your body in all sides, dense with negative, leeching enegies.

2) Visualize your aura as having a mind of it's own. It has the spirit of a tamed beast, leashed to your mind.

3) Visualize your aura bubbling with hungry energy, 'feeding time' approaches. The black-aura awaits your command...

4) Spotting with your eye viable 'targets' within your midst, expand your protoplasmic creation to consume and devour the subtle energies, doubling, trippling in size, to expand over 6-8' feet around you in every direction. 5) Mentally recite the mantra, "More, more, more," as the aura feeds.

5) Visualize your black-aura being one with you, depositing subtle energies into your Vital Force currents which run through the nerveous system of your body.

6) End by mentally contracting your protoplasmic aura into it's typical 1-2 foot radius around your body. Affirm that subtle energies have just been captured by your Vampiric Aura and deposited into your Vital Force for later use.

Your imagination has a dramatic effect on your subtle energins and Chakra system, this is what makes this technique potentially very powerful. Obviously, after practicing this once you won't be able to walk in a room and dim the lights with your aura -- though through practice this ability has become an reality for many.

Guided meditation
10:19 Sep 06 2005
Times Read: 503

Make sure you are as comfortable as possible, and then gently close your eyes.

Begin by taking a couple of deep, full, breaths and let the out breath be a real "letting go" kind of breath.

As you begin breathing slowly, comfortably and easily, invite your body to relax and to let go of any unnecessary tension.

Take the time to bring your attention to each part of your body, and invite it to release and relax, letting go, easily, comfortably.

You can feel the muscles in your face relaxing.

Your shoulders are relaxing.

The muscles of your back are relaxing.

Your legs are relaxing.

Your hands and feet are relaxing.

You’re letting all the tensions go.

And your whole body is becoming more and more relaxed.

Just let it happen, releasing, letting go, relaxing even more, now feeling a warm wave of pure relaxation rolling down your body, from the top of your head, to the tips of your toes.

To deepen this relaxation, imagine yourself now on a path leading alongside an alpine meadow. Towering behind you are the snowcapped peaks of the surrounding mountains. The air is clean and fresh. It is late afternoon on a sunny summer’s day. The sky is a beautiful light blue with a few tall fluffy white clouds moving majestically from the horizon.

The pine trees stand tall and stately to your right, and you pick up on the strong scent of the evergreens.

To your left you can hear the rustle of an aspen grove.

Your eye catches the shimmering of the leaves in the soft breeze.

The path slopes downward. It has recently been cleared, the pine needles are brushed to the side. You feel sure-footed and secure as you walk the path leading in the direction of a meadow ahead.

As you reach the edge of the line of trees, you see a comfortable looking bench beside the path between two big pine trees. You sit down and lean back. The bench is made of rough wood, but you find it very comfortable and relaxing to sit on.

As you look around, you can see the meadow below you with its carpet of wild flowers spread out..., blue, red, white, yellow, coral, splashes of green, sunlit, bees humming, a dragonfly flits by.

You look up through the canopy of trees and see the blue sky with the tall white clouds going by.

It is serene, beautiful, peaceful.

You are conscious for just a moment of inhaling the energy, the life force, that's in the fresh mountain air, and you’re exhaling all your tensions, all your worries and concerns are flowing away.

There is just the air, the rustling leaves, the drifting clouds, the scent of pine, the rough texture of the bench all bringing a special calm, a sense of peace, a sense of inner nourishment.

An owl flies up and lights on a branch above you. It doesn’t frighten you. Rather you feel a sense of curiosity. You continue to study the owl, as it looks back at you. It ruffles its feathers before settling comfortably on the branch.

Something passes between you, some unspoken communication. You have a feeling of oneness with everything around you.. Your feeling of relaxation is even deeper. Allow yourself the time now to relax for a few moments, drawing on the beauty of the scene as you envision it, taking in the energy to re-energize and revitalize yourself.

Let this be a time of renewal for your inner spirit as you listen to the music.

The owl flies away now. You watch the clouds drifting in larger and darker formations, pushing one another more rapidly than before.

The soft touch of the moist air is on your cheeks. You know it’s going to rain, in fact, you can already hear the first drops falling on the leaves nearby.

You leave the comfortable bench and start walking up the mountain path, in the direction you came from. As you leave, you know that this is a place that you can come back to whenever you wish..., to sit, to relax, to heal, to just watch the clouds roll by.

It is a place where rest and peace and inner healing take place.

You go up the path and with the next five steps, you become more and more awake and aware of your surroundings.

One, going up the path.

Two, feeling better than before, coming awake now, bringing back with you a sense of relaxation and inner healing.

Three, feeling refreshed, as though you had just had a nice invigorating nap.

Four, energizing, eyes opening now.

Five, your eyes fully open now, you are alert and wide awake, now stretch, and smile, because you feel terrific.

Samhain Ritual
16:29 Sep 03 2005
Times Read: 505

This year we are writing a new ritual for Samhain. Its coming along beautifully. I am so pleased with everyone at this point that it doesnt even bother me that we havent gotten together as a group for about 5 weeks. I was supposed to go gloaming last night with marc and cris but as per usual... excuses arose.



Should I just give up? Can I be at the members beck and call all the time? It is supposed to be every other Saturday 6:30 PM. Well that isnt working out so well. Not to mention my High Priest has gone MIA.



I think I will let it go... aparently we made a mistake, and those members should have never been alowed to partake in something so sacred.



As much as I hate solitary I think it might be best for me for a little while.

The Mirror
10:20 Sep 01 2005
Times Read: 509

My phone rang last night around 9:30 or so. I hadn't slept in days, but I had just laid down about an hour before. I must have been dozing off because when the phone rang it scared me. When I answered all I heard was "Thank you, for being a woman"



HUH? Who was this? Then he said he had spoken to Cristil, and if I ever needed to vent I could always call him.



Well thanks Kev. Thats really nice of you, but I hardly know you.



So he asked me... "You are always here to fix everyone else's problems but who do you go to to fix yours?"



THE MIRROR. I LOOK AT THE MIRROR AND FIX MY OWN PROBLEMS. I AM THE ONLY PERSON WHO CAN.