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I was dropped out of my coven,and the pain. I love my coven family.I have cried a million tears. and yet the pain does does not ease. I am in so much pain, I wish I could die. I only tell them of the love I feel; never to show the pain I know. have they forgotten how it feels; to be thrown to the road side left to die. I have lost my mom at a early age of three, now even though I am almost 40, I am still not wanted.wanted dead or a live! that is my life.I still cry yet they do not know the pain I am feeling or have they forgotten the pain. for they are so wrapped in the love; I have lost when they tossed me aside. like the day I asked for there love. I hate to see the day they see the light in which they threw me away. as I smile and turned away, I just knew I ruled the day that they threw me away..ohhh the pain of these many of days.may they learn the love they lost the day they threw me away. what is family....is it just a word we say to be loved, or is it what we dream? I can not tell from the pain I feel.... for all I want is to DIE... for I was left all alone. this is the end.