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why is it easy to hate and hard to forgive? why do we blame what we cant see for what we cant have or what has done wrong? behind every title, company or thing is a person. what is it that we are looking for? Why do we hide behind a mask instead of what we really are? is it really eaier to hate or hide rather then forgive? why is it that we sit at home and yet feel home sick? what do we really need rather than what do u want? if we lost things we didnt need, would u be able to survive? what is it that we are looking for? why do we blame everything instead of the person where the fault lies? are our situations a tree to hide behind? what is a family? who is the one you love? sit down and think bout what is around. no, better yet, think abut what you surround yourself with and what is in you. or do you even know how to?

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biteingpheonix
09:30 Aug 11 2009

please comment and tell me what you think

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evilsandwich
09:41 Aug 11 2009

its not always easy to just come up with an answer

sometimes you can only think

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I really dont understand why i am feeling like i am. i dont know why what was so wrong could cause me to feel this way. you are finally gone, and things were made right but now i feel diffrent inside. i am begging to miss all that was wrong. all that was draggin me down and all that wasnt makeing me strong. i dont know why your thought wants to stay at my side but i dont want it to. what am i to do? i have seen this before, a deja vu. i cant seem to figure out why, but these tears have become frozen inside. i am trying to let go, but my hands wot release. help me, i think im dreaming. wake me up before this nightmare becomes a reality. but its to late. its not just a dream. im liven thru my mistakes, the real thing. let me go, set me free. run away and get away from me. if you read this, you know its for you. not any of my friends, but something i did that i didnt need to do. set me free, father above. let my heart live again full of love. numb is what i am. u let me fall and become numb again. go away my nightmare and my friends will bring me my dreams. this is a little bit about what 1 mistake did to me

i hate when people, mainly my uncles ex, act jealous and wanna start problems. the fact that he dont wanna be with you doesnt mean you have to be runnin your mouth towards me. i didnt do anything wrong so stop trying to get in between a place you dont belong.

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evilsandwich
09:56 Aug 11 2009

i know i hate when people do that

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what do you do when all you have the stregnth to do is to stand in defeat? how should you feel when all that is around you makes you cold and numb? as i stand here and ponder what is around i feel the devils cold eyes stealin my life before me. this is my time to dance with the devil. i dare to look him dead in the eyes as i dance with the devil tonite. as i dare to take a stand. as he reminds me of all the years of being used and abused. i did not create myself. he and the elders created who i am. he and the elders and ancients chose my fate and holds my destiny in their hands. how can i take it back whem they are the ones that old it and control. i did not chose this life or path. it was handed to ,e before birth. why didnt i get a chance like everyone else to make myself into something? but there is nothing i can do. i stand and fight these chains of icey fire all around me binding me down and slowly takin over me as my anger drives me to this trecherous end. as i am betrayed and stuck in these ways. there is nothing i can do but stand here fighting for the light when what is within me is nothing but darkness. i cant fight these feelings that tare me aprt and drive me insane. so i stand here knowing my defeat and that its time to dance with the devil.

there is so much surrounding me and i am slowly suficating. i feel i have no control but control is just an illusion of the mind to help keep balance.

what is balance? who truely know. these thoughts in my mind wont let me go. these thoughts wont let me win. they slowly tare me down as i fight to breath. slowly drowning me in my mistakes. im not perfect. no one is. and yet these things persist on judging me makin me feel small, weak and insignificant. you wont leave my mind. you invade my thoughts and dreams and insist that i let you go and you never wanted me. then why wont you leave? you claim to be my stregnth. my protection. then why are you the one slowly killing me as i strive to live? hold on to my mind no longer. hold on to my soul, you cant. i live with no heart and no soul. i lose everything repeatedly and for what? nothing is what. our minds try to keep us at peace but can only hold on for so long. so i am not gonna fight any longer. i will win by losing. i have no choice but to.

we all know that each day brings something. we dont know what it is before we recieve it. all we can do is wait for it to bring itself. if it is a day of happiness or a day of great sorrow or just a day of relaxation and quiet or a headache and pain, it never fails to bring alittle something to remind that you have no pure control of it. only a sense of control over yourself.

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evilsandwich
10:04 Aug 11 2009

yup so true

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