The Ultimate Vampire Resource and Directory

I'm sipping on a narcotic beverage going through hell, finally learning that religion and human spiritual things like human magic don't clique with vampires. It's been hard what are you supposed to do when you have a long term crisis. I guess you do what I'm doing now. I don't know who I am anymore. I haven't been able to feed I tried whiskey and sugar water I've used some alchemy formulas I have no desire I hope whatever is wrong with me ceases and I'm well for the first time in decades.