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well i guess i'm not going to graduate andif i am not walking across that stage if i am not going to graduating. my teacher is saying that i have my question paper and i do not have it. why would i ask for it from her if i had it? I am not stupid just pist that i might fail cause my teacher had lost my paper that will save me. this senior project is going to bring me down. i am going to be pist if i walk across that stage and i don't even graduate. one more year in this school is hell on earth for me.

the pian is now mostly gone. I am going to my follow-up on may 25 at 8 in the morning. i am a liitle scared on what is the answer they will come to. Justin was taking it easy about the whole thing about children because i might lose my left ovary. he is hiding the emotions that he feels about me losing my ability to have kids. i just hope that all i have to do is take the medication to get rid of this problem. i want to start to live again. I hate all this pain that i am going through. I know justin blames himself because he is use to it but really he isn't to blame. i blame myself for making him so tired and he has been looking an little run down from what i am making him go through. I feel so bad for him. he wanted a girlfriend but i am such an energysucker. he is in such a hell right now between jen's bullcrap and my special needs right now.

justin had a rough day. he must of missed his time for his depression medicane because he was losing it. He was so normal when i arrived at his house but after awhile he started to distance himself from everyone. He wouldn't talk to me really that much. I felt for him because i was once was on what he is taking but he has a stronger dose then i did. i was understanding him and what he was going through. ever since i been with him he has been giving me tests and i have passed everyone of them. i was thinking how he would always be nice to me, so i'll be nice to him. he cannot handle being yelled at in his condition he was going through. i would not wanted to be yelled at if i was going through what he went through. he doesn't understand that i went the samething for two years.

my older sister Shaun had moved out yesterday because her and my mother had a huge fight over our temps and a driving car. I couldn't believe that my sister had actually moved out before me and had the courage to do it too. i am envious of her. she ahd the courage to move out and i'm still stuck at home with my mom. i wish i had a car and some common sense so i can figure out a plan to support myself.