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damn dead languages...
04:55 Jan 20 2010
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I am going to leave my mark...

Vereor non nex , nex est a bona foedus ut nunquam res

For better or worse I am going to leave my mark on this world... I don't understand how people can fear dying... Death is inevitable, it will find us at some point. We cant hide from it, cant really delay it, certainly cant stop it... So why fear it??? Instead, be afraid of being inconsequential, be afraid of not mattering.

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So far I have made a very small impact. Mostly it has been with people that are close to my heart, to people that I can say with full confidence that I have loved, regardless of how short or long I have acknowledged those feelings... So here is a brief run down of what I KNOW I have done.....

Nicole--- Nicole was my first love... Nicole had a hard time with commitment. She wasnt afraid of love, I am not sure if she actually believed in love. While we ended things roughly and kinda baddly, she finally did believe in love, and she is happier now. We still talk from time to time...

Brandi--- Brandi, well Brandi had emotional scars that severly hurt any relationship that she had. She had a perverse idea of her role in a relationship. By the time that we ended things, it seemed that she had a real idea of what was expected of her in a relationship. And when the prick that was dating her after me hit her, she actually left his ass that night and pressed charges... So she is doing good for the most part...

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Tiff asked me a question tonight about something specific... And honestly I do not know the answer.... And I doubt that I ever will... But it has got me thinking about the past, not just this life but in others too. They have always been the same...

"Better that ten guilty persons escape than that one innocent suffer," ~William Blackstone

So where do I stand with all the pain and suffering that I have caused... Am I excusable for all the pain that I have caused for the little good that I have done... I have no fucking clue...

I am beginning to wonder if this should be my last turn at the wheel... For I understand fully that I will never go to Summerland (heaven), instead I will sever every connection that I have, then I will never be reborn, it will be like I have never existed. No more pain, nothing...

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so ther e is no mis-understanding...
14:33 Jan 18 2010
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mine and Fangs conversation before he blocked me:

She was taking care of our daughter at the time and went to reply you when she got back on... When she went to send the message, she found that she was blocked. She wasn't ignoring anyone.

I'm sure she would be willing to work with you on something.

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the status doesn't bother me and as i said in my profile had anybody bothered to read it i have no time to contribute to a clan on this site... i'm simply here to relax... two messeges were sent and two messeges were ignored, thats a complete lack of leadership abilty in my eyes and could have been avoided with a simple yes or no to my question

On 01:13:42 Jan 17 2010 (-0 GMT) fyre wrote:

You know that in doing what you are doing, you are just hurting your status.... I know EVERYONE in the coven of the Darkened Forest... They are ALL GREAT people. DireConsequences WOULD have worked with you and had you to wherever you wanted to be.... Now you have to swallow your pride and appoligize and then she may help you....

Then he blocked me... When I was fed up and I tried to send this:

Ummm, no.... DireConsequences is my fiancee... We are sharing a computer right now as I need to get her a wireless card for her desktop. You might want to learn about what you are talking about before you go spouting off at the mouth. I am no where near as nice as she is. I have been on this site her a few years now. All the admin know that we are 2 separate people...

I am done with you.... If you want to be traded, then message her... She has already gotten an offer for you but will not trade any individual without having a CONVERSATION with said person...

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Sabrefang
14:01 Jan 18 2010
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lead

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1. to go before or with to show the way; conduct or escort: to lead a group on a cross-country hike.

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–noun

1. a person or thing that leads.

2. a guiding or directing head, as of an army, movement, or political group.

"Vampire Rave members are inducted into societies. You do not have a choice as to whether or not you want to be in a specific society. Once you hit level 20 you're free game. Any society Master can induct you. Forced induction is a core component of Vampire Rave. You're on a vampire site after all."

"'ve been forcebly inducted into a coven twice on this site and the first time it happened I requested that I be released, without hesitation the young lady in question (shelian from The Coven of Orbis Angui) released me and was very nice about doing so, she understood I was here to relax and didn't really have time to contribute to her family whom i'm sure are all as hard working and as friendly as she was, her attitude was a credit to her and shows she is worthy to Sire.

HOWEVER AFTER BEING IGNORED TWICE IN MY REQUEST TO BE RELEASED FROM A FORCED INDUCTION INTO THE COVEN OF DARKENED FOREST BY DIRECONSEQUENCES I WILL NO LONGER ACCEPT FORCED INDUCTIONS AND WILL BLOCK NOT ONLY THE COVEN MASTER BUT ALSO EVERY MEMBER OF SAID COVEN, THIS SO CALLED MENTOR IS NOT WORTHY TO SIRE ANYBODY.

AS A CLAN LEADER MYSELF ON ANOTHER SYSTEM WITH FAR MORE MEMBERS I RECOGNISE LEADERSHIP, TO BE BLATENTLY IGNORED TWICE BY A LIEGE IS UNFORGIVABLE, HER SPOILED CHILD ATTITUDE, HER ATTEMPTS TO HAVE OTHERS THREATEN TO WRECK MY PROFILE STATUS (newsflash numbnuts I don't care about the status... I'm here to relax) AND HER MAKING ALTERNATE ACCOUNTS TO WHINE AND CAUSE DRAMA HAVE DULLED MY VIEWS OF THIS SITE."

Part of being a leader is following the rules. ALL the rules, not just the ones that suit you. DC IS one of the best masters that I have seen. You have a problem being forceably inducted into a society, too bad... Quit bitching and insulting. As for her having other threaten you... You are a bloody fucking moron. Its not her style, you might want to learn a little more about your target before you go and attack them... And to accuse me of being an alternative account... Idiocy.... I was FyreStrike on here, and MANY can attest to the fact that I am indeed someone completely different... It is againt the rules to have multiple accounts without having premium memberships on both accounts.... As you can plainly tell, you bloody fucking moron, I am a free member....

As for you being so high and mighty on SecondLife... BIG fucking deal, My stepmother is a DJ on SecondLife. Its nothing more then another virtual world to me... Its got alot of lonely guys with their hands wrapped around their cocks, (aot of lonely girls doing something similar) pretending to be all high and mighty...

GET a LIFE in the REAL WORLD!!! You know, that is why Dire wasnt able to respond to your messages immediately, she has a real life...

Go ahead and leave me blocked you fucking moron, I dont care... Rate me a 1, my profile sucks anyways, it deserves the 1.....

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CarnelianMyst
17:51 Jan 18 2010

He's good at making friends, isn't he? He's blocking people left and right now. And the bit about "I will no longer accept forced inductions".....LOL!!!

fyre
03:53 Jan 20 2010

I know right... Why does he think that he is better then everyone else... Where does he think that he has the authority to refuse a forced induction....Like he has a choice.... Come on, that is one of the main things that Cancer is adiminate(sp) about?!?!?!