SOMEWHERE  OVER THE RAINBOW
WAY UP HIGH
THERE'S A LAND THAT I HEARD OF 
ONCE IN A LULLABY
SOMEWHERE  OVER THE RAINBOW
SKIES ARE  BLUE
AND THE DREAMS THAT YOU  DARE TO DREAM
REALLY DO COME TRUE.
SOME DAY I'LL WISH UPON A STAR
AND WAKE UP -
WHERE THE CLOUDS
ARE  FAR BEHIND ME.
WHERE TROUBLES MELT
LIKE LEMON DROPS
AWAY ABOVE  THE CHIMMEY TOPS.
THATS WHERE YOU'LL FIND ME.........
SOMEWHERE  OVER THE RAINBOW
SOMEDAY I'LL WISH UPON A STAR
AND WAKEUP WHERE THE CLOUDS
ARE FAR BEHIND ME 
WHERE TROUBLES MELT
LIKE LEMON DROPS 
AWAY ABOVE THE CHIMMEY TOP 
THATS WHERE YOU'LL FIND ME
SOMEWHERE  OVER THE RAINBOW
BLUEBIRDS  FLY
BIRDS  FLY OVER THE RAINBOW 
WHY THEN OH WHY CANT I?
IF  HAPPY LITTLE  BLUEBIRDS  FLY 
BEYOND THE RAINBOW
WHY  OH  WHY  CANT I?
I SUNG THIS  SONG TO MY SON SEAN WHEN HE  WAS JUST BORN AND CLINGING  TO LIFE IN THE INTENSIVE CAR UNIT  ADN SINCE THEN IT HAS  BEN  HIS FAVOURITE LULLYABY OF CHOICE.
TUESDAY 16 SEPT 2008
DARLING  SEAN 
I JUST THOUGHT THAT I WOULD REMIND YOU JUST WHAT AN INCREDIBL PERSON YOU ARE.
SEAN YOU HAVE SO MUCH TO BE PROUD OF - YOU HAE SHOWN SO MUCH COURAGE IN ALL THE  MANY HELATH BATTELS YOU HAVE HADTHUS  FAR - LIKE WHEN THAT WOMAN HURT YOU S OBAD YOU NEARLY DIED WHEN YOU WRE BARELY A YEAR OLD . YOUR PERMATURE BRITH WHEN  YOU BORN SOVERY SICK - YOUR BATTLE WITHTHE GULLIAN BARRER 2YRS AG OTHAT NEARLY CLAIMED YOUR LIFE  ADN NOW YOUR SERIOUS BLOOD CLOTTING DISORDER. I AM SO  VERY VERY VERY PROUD OF YOU ADN AL LTHAT YOU HAVE ACHIEVEDIN YOUR SEVEN YEARS HERE THUS FAR. I REMEMBERWHE NYOU WERE AROUND 3YRS  U DRAGGED MY DOONA OF MY BED ADNTRIED TO COVER ME UP WHENI WASIL THE PEANUT BUTTER   JAM ADNVEGEMITE SANDWICH YOU MADE ME FOR BREAKFAST ON E MOTHERS DAY............ YOU HAVE SHOWN INCREDIBLE STRENGTH COURAGE  ADN WISDOM. I MEA NI ERMMEBER SAYINGTO ONE OF MY FREINDS ONTHEPHONE HOW MUCH I HATED TH MUSLIMS BECAUSE OF THE CRUE LTERRORSIT ACT THEY DDIIN AMERICA ON SET11 ADNU TURNED ROUND  AD NTOLD  ME MAMATHAT WAS WRONG ADNMEAN THAT IS WHY WARS  ADNBAD THINGS HAPPEN ITIS NOT THE GROUP MAMA IT IS THE PERSONS WHO MAKE THECHOICES WE  AL LHAVE GOOD ADN BADIN OURSELVES IT IS HOW WE  COHOOSE TO BEHAVE THAT MAKES US GOOD OR BAD...........MY SON TAUHGT ME  SUCH A HUMBLIGN LESSON THAT DAY. 
SEAN THANKYOUFOR THE UNCONDTIONA LLOVE THAT YOUSHOW MAM ADNFR AL LTHE SPECIAL PICTURES ADNSPECIAL THIGNS LIKE THE BRACLET YOU MADE ME THAT I WEAR ONMY ARM EVERSINCE YOUGAVE IT TO ME ONMOTHERS DAY THE LAST YEAR AT KINDER. I WANT TO  TELL YOU KNOW  THAT YOU ARE LOVED AND THATTHIS WORLD ESPICALLY MY WORLD IS  SO MUCH BETTER BECAUSE YOU EXIST.
I M  A MUCH BETTER AND NICER PERSON BECAUSE YOU AR MY SON. SO DONT LET NEGATIVE PEOPLE LIKE YOUR HORRID TEACHR ADNTHE HORRID BULLIES GET YOU DOWN - IT IS THEY WHO ARE THE LOSERS NOT YOU . I WSIH I COULD WAYA WAND ANDMAKE YOUR MINE  AND EVERYONE ELSES WORLD PERFECT  BUT I CANT DO THAT UNFOTUNALTY. 
JUST KNOW THAT YOU MAKEN INCREIBLE DIFFERANCE FOR GOOD INTHIS WORLD. AND THAT YOU WERE AND THAT YOUARE  SO VERY VERY LOVED.  
SO MY PRECIOUS BOY  YOU SHOULD BE  DO VERY VERYPROUD OF WHO YOUARE SEAN 
LOVE ETERNALY MAMA
TUESDAY 16THSEPT 2008
DEAR SEAN
IM SO SORRY THAT YOU WERE  BULLIED AGAIN.
MAMA IS GONNA DO AL LTHAT SHE CAN DO TO ENSURE THAT THE TEACHER IS DEALT WITH AS WELL FOR BULLYING  AND THREATING YOU . JUST KNOW THAT YOU D OHAVE LOTS OF PEOPLE HERE THAT LOVE YOU ADN THAT YOU  HAVE BEE N INVITEDTO PIPPINS TO PLAY AFTER  SCHOOL AND THAT YOU HAVE  BEEN INVITED TO 2 BIRTHDAY PARTIES -SO YOU DO HAVE PEOPLE WHO CAER ABOUT YOU INCLUDING  MAMAS FRIENDS FROM HER  COVAN AND  HERE AT VAMPIRE RAVE AS WELL. MAMA CRIED TONGHIT ABOUT AL OF THIS  ADN MAMA IS SAD THAT YOU WISH THAT YOUWERE DEAD .THE TEACHER  HAD NO RIGHT TO AY THOSE HORRIBLE THINGS TO YOU.............DONT OWRRY SEAN KARMA WIL PAY HER  BACK AS  WIL LTHE CURSE I PUT  ON HER  FOR CONTINUING TO HURT AND TEASE YOU . YOU ARE LOVED SO VERYVERY MUCH  ADN IT IS A SAD FACT THAT AL LTHROUHGTOUT OUR LIVESWE MEET  HORRID PEOPLE . BUT ALS OSEAN ALL THRU YOU LIFE YOU WILL MEET SOME AMAZING WONDERFUL PEOPLE  LIKE MAMA HAS  MET HERE . THEPEOPLE HER SEAN REALLY REALLY CARE FOR EACH OTHER SO BE ENCOURGAED NOT AL LPEOPLE AER LIKE YOUR HORRID BITCH OF A TEACHER  BARB ............ONE DAY MY DEAR SHE WIL LSTAND ACCOUNTABLE FOR AL LSHE HAS  DONE GOOD  AND BAD  JUST LIKE MAMA ADN EVERYONE INTHE WORLD WIL LGIVE ACCOUNT OF HOW ADNWHY THEY DID THE BAD AND GOOD THINGS THEY DID.  SHE WIL STAND ACCOUNTABLE TO THE ELDERS INSPIRIT FOR HOW CRUELLY SHE TREATED YOU. I AM SO PROUD OF YOU SEAN ADN I LVOE YOU SO VFERY MUCH.
THIS  SONG  WAS  HOW  WE  CHOSE MY SON'S NAME FOR HIM  THE SONE IS ACUALLY CALLED BEAUTIFUL DARLING  SEAN 
HENCE HIS NAME  IT IS A REALLY BEAUTIFUL SONG FOR A TRULY AMAZING ADN VERY BEAUTIFUL AND  PRECIOUS CHILD  MY SON  SEAN.......
CLOSE YOUR EYES 
AND HAVE NO FEAR
THE MONSTEER'S GONE 
HE'S ON THE RUN
AND YOUR MOMMY'S HERE
BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL  BOY
BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL BOY.
BEFORE YOU GO TO SLEEP
SAY A LITTLE  PRAYER
EVERY DAY IN EVERY WAY 
IT 'S GETTING BETTER AND BETTER
BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL BOY
BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL 
BOY.
OUT  ON THE OCEAN
SAILING AWAY
I CAN HARDLY WAIT
TO SEE YOU COME OF AGE
BUT I GUESS WE 'LL JUST BOTH 
HAVE TO BE PATIENT
COS IT'S A LONG  WAY TO GO
A HARD ROAD TO HOE
ITS A LONG ROAD TO GO
BUT IN THE MEANTIME.....
BEFORE YOU CROSS THE THE STREET 
TAKE MY HAND
LIFE IS WHAT'S HAPPENING TO YOU 
WHILE YOU ARE BUSY MAKING OTHER PLANS
BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL BOY
BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL BOY
BEFORE YOU GO TO SLEEP 
SAY A LITTLE  PRAYER
EVERYDAY IN EVERY WAY ITS GETTING 
BETTER AND BETTER
BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL BOY
DARLING  DARLING  DARLING DARLING SEAN.
GOODNIGHT SEAN 
SEEYOU IN THE MORNING
I LOVE YOU.
DARLING SEAN THIS IS HOW MAMA AND DADDY CHOSE YOUR NAME ...........HOWEVER I CHANGED JUST ONE WORD IN THE DSONG WHREIT SAYS MOMMY IT IS BEACUS ORIGINALLY IT SAID DADDY BUT SINCE HE IS NO LONGER INYOUR LIFE  BY HIS CHOICE  ITHOUGHT IT WOULD BE MORE APPROPIATE TO PUT MOMMY THER  COS MAMA  HAS BEE N THER  AL LTHEDAYS OFYOUR LIFE  AND WILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOUUNTIL MAMA IS CALLED BACK TO SPIRIT.
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU WIL EVERKNOW OR REALISE  BUT SEAN YOU WERE AND ARE THE MOST PRECIOUS GIFT A MOM COULD EVER GET..........ESPECIALY AS YOU COHSE ME TO BE YOUR MAMA WHEN YOU COULD HAVE  HAD ANY OTHER MOMINTHEWORLD  THANKYOU FOR ALL THE HAPPIENESS  JOY ANDWONDER THATYOUHAVE BROUGHT INOT MY LIFE .....I AM A MUCH BETTER PERSON ADN MOM BECAUSE OF YOU MY DARLING BOY
DEAR TAMMY JUST A LITTLE SOMETHING  FROM 
MYSELF AND MY SON SEAN TO SHOW JUST HOW SPECIAL A FRIEND THAT YOU ARE  TO US.
WISHING YOU A ABSOLUTLEY FANTASTIC BIRTHDAY FORM BOTH OF US
HUGS N KISSES HANNAHROSE  AND SEAN




MAY THIS PENTAGRAM PROTECT YOU ALWAYS


LOTS OF KISSES FROM SEAN AND ME ON THIS YOUR SPECIAL DAY

MAY YOUR ALWAYS BE  LIKE A BUTTERFLY SOARING FREE THRU THE UNIVERSE

MAY THE UNIVERSE GRANT YOU A  VERY LONG  JOYFUL AND HAPPY HEALTHY AND PROPEROUS LIFE...


SEAN ALSO TOLD ME THAT OUR CATS ALSO WISH 
A HAPPY BIRTHDAY


DONT FORGET TO BLOW YOUR CANDLES OUT AND MAKE A WISH !

A ROSE FROM SEAN

AND LASTLY  THANKYOU SO VERY MUCH FOR ALL YOUR WISDOM SUPPORT COMPASSION  AND FOR BEIN SUCH  VERY SPECIAL FRIEND TO BOTH OF US!
HOPE THAT YOUR BIRTHDAY WILL BE THE VERY BEST AND HAPPIEST BIRTHDAY EVER!
BEST WISHES YOUR FREINDS HANNAHROSE  AND  SEAN....
LAY DOWN YOUR SWEET AND WEARY HEAD
NIGHT IS FALLING 
YOU HAVE COME TO JOURNEY'S END
SLEEP NOW AND DREAM OF THE ONES
WHO CAME BEFORE
THEY ARE CALLING 
FROM ACROSS THE DISTANT SHORE.
WHY DO YOU WEEP
WHAT ARE THE TEARS UPON YOUR FACE
SOON YOU WILL SEE  ALL
YOUR FEARS WILL PASS AWAY
SAFE IN MY ARMS
YOUR ONLY SLEEPING
WHAT CAN YOU SEE ON THE HORIZON
WHY  DO THE  WHITE GULLS CALL?
ACROSS THE SEA 
A PALE MOON RISES
THE SHIPS HAVE COME
TO CARRY YOU HOME....
AND ALL WILL TURN TO SLIVER GLASS
A LIGHT ON THE WATERS 
ALL SOULS PASS 
INTO THE WEST.
HOPE FADES INTO 
INTO THE WORLD OF NGIHT
THROUGH SHADOWS FALLING
OUT OF MEMORY AND TIME
DONT SAY
WE  HAVE COME NOW TO THE END
WHITE SHORES ARE CALLING 
YOU AND I WILL MEET AGAIN.
AND YOU'LL BE  HERE 
IN MY ARMS
JUST SLEEPING
WHAT CAN YOU SEE ON THE HORIZON
WHY DO THE WHITE GULLS CALL..........
ACROSS THE SEA
A PALE MOON RISES
THE  SHIPS HAVE  COME TO CARRY YOU HOME..
AND ALL WILL TURN TO SILVER GLASS
THE LIGHTS  ON THE WATER
GREY SHIPS  PASS INTO THE WEST.
WHEN I AM DOWN 
AND OH MY SOUL SO WEARY
WHEN TROUBLES COME
AND MY HEART BURDEN ME
THEN I AM STILL AND WAIT HERE IN THE SILENCE
UNTIL YOU COME AND  SIT AWHILE WITH ME.
YOU RAISE ME UP 
SO I CAN STAND ON MOUNTAINS
YOU RAISE ME UP 
TO WALK ON STORMY SEAS
I AM STRONG WHEN I AM ON YOUR SHOULDERS
YOU RAISE ME UP TO MORE THAN I CAN BE.
YOU RAISE ME UP 
SO I CAN STAND ON MOUNTAINS
YOU RAISE ME UP 
TO WALK ON STORMY SEAS
I AM STRONG  WHEN I AM ON YOUR SHOULDERS
YOU RAISE ME UP TO MORE THAN I CAN BE.
YOU RAISE ME UP SO I CAN STAND ON MOUNTAINS
YOU RAISE ME UP 
TO WALK ON STORMY SEAS
I AM STRONG WHEN I AM ON YOUR SHOULDERS
YOU RAISE ME UP 
SO I CAN STANDON MOUNTAINS
YOU RAISE ME UP 
TO WALK ON STORMY SEAS
I AM STRONG WHEN I AM ON YOUR SHOULDERS
YOU RAISE ME UP TO MORE THAN I CAN BE.
YOU RAISE ME UP TO MORE 
THAN I CAN BE.
THIS SONG WAS TAKEN FROM THE ABOVE SHOW -IT REALLY SPOKE 2 ME EVEN THOUGH I AM NOT A CHRISTIAN  AS I AM A VAMPIRE THRU AND THRU ......IT REALLY TOUCHED ME CAUSE THE DAY I SAW IT  WAS THE DAY I LEAREND THAT MY LITTLE BOY WOULD LIVE AND NOT DIE AS IT WAS THOUGHT THAT BECAUSE HE SUDDENLY WAS PARAYLSED THAT HE HAD A BRAIN TUMOR OR A SPINAL CORD TUMOR AND  INSTEAD HAD GUILIAN BARRE  WHICH CAN STILL BE  FATAL  AND CAN LEAVE U CRIPPLED FOR LIFE  ......MY SON WAS  SO LUCKY .......THIS SONG REMINDS ME THAT WE SHOULD BE GRATEFUL FOR THE LOVE WE HAVE 4 EACH OTHER  AND THAT AT THE END OF UR LIFE  ALL U TAKE WITH U IS THE LOVE U GAVE RECIVED AND SHARED  WITH OTHERS
PSALM 151
ALL THE COLOURS OF THE RAINBOW
ALL THE VOICES OFTHE WIND
EVERY DREAM THAT REACHES OUT
REACHES OUT TO FIND WHERE LOVE BEGAN.....
EVERY WORD OF EVERY STORY
EVERY STAR IN EVERY SKY
EVERY CORNER OF CREATION
LIVES TO TESTIFY........
FOR AS I SHALL LIVE
I SHALL TESTIFY TO LOVE
BE A WITNESS N THE SILENCE
WHEN WORDS ARE NOT ENOUGH...........
WITH EVERY BREATH I TAKE
ILL GIVE THANKS TO GOD ABOVE
FOR AS LONG AS I SHAL LIVE
I SHALL TESTIFY TO LOVE.
FROM THE MOUNTAINS TO THE VALLEYS
FROM THE RIVERS TO THE SEAS
EVERY HAND THAT REACHES OUT
EVERY HAND THAT REACHES  OUT  TO OFFER  PEACE
EVERY SIMPLE ACT OF MERCY
EVERY STEP TO KINGDOM COME-
ALL THE HOPE  OF EVERY HEART
SPEAK OF WHAT LOVE HAS DONE
FOR AS LONG AS I SHALL LIVE 
I SHALL TESTIFY TO LOVE
BE A WITNESS IN THE SILENCES  
WHEN WORDS ARE NOT ENOUGH
WITH EVERY BREATH I TAKE 
WILL GIVE THANKS TO GOD ABOVE
FOR AS  LONG AS I SHALL LIVE
I WIL LTESTIFY TO LOVE
BE A WITNESS IN THE SILENCES 
WHEN WORDS ARE NOT ENOUGH
WITH EVERY BREATH I TAKE 
ILL GIVE THANSK TO GOD ABOVE
FOR AS LONG AS I SHALL LIVE 
I SHALL TESTIFY TO LOVE 
EVEN THOUGH THIS SHOW IS MAINLY A CHRISITAN SHOW THIS SONG  WAS A REAL ENCOURAGEMENT TO ME  DNMY SON WHOEVER WROTE THIS SONG IS DEFINTLY A  GREAT WRITER
THE SHOW IS CALLED TOUCHED BY  AN ANGEL
THIS PAGE IS DEDICATED TO MY LITTLE BOY WHO CONTINUES TO AMAZE ME WITH HIS LOVE COURAGE  AND DETERMINATION.....
MY SON SEAN IS NEARLY 8YRS OF AGE  AND AS WELL AS HAVING TO LIVE WITH 2 LIFE THREATEING ILLNESS -GUILLIAN BARRE AND VON WILLINBRANS DIESEASE IS SO AMAZINGLY PATIENT  LOVING  AND HAPPY........... THE 1ST ILL NESS GUILLIAN BARRE IS AN AUTO IMMUNE ILLNESS WHERE THE BODY ATTACKS ITSELF THRU THE NERVES RESULTING IN PARALYIS AND CAN LEAD 2 DEATH AT WORST AND EVEN WHEN U GO INTO REMISSION U CAN RELAPSE THE OTHER ILLNESS VON WILLBRANS IS WHEN U ARE MISSING CLOTTING FACTORS AND MY SON IS MISSING 2 OUT OF 3 . HE  IS  OFTEN ILL  BUT AMAZES ME WITH HIS COURAGE  AND HAPPIENESS AS DO THE PEOPLE HERE 
ESPECIALY  MY COVAN MASTER  AND MY COVAN  AND CERTAIN OTHERS  HERE  WHO HAVE  LENT THEIR LOVE  PRAYERS  AND WORDS OF STRENGTH LOVE  AND COURAGE...... THIS PLACE  VAMPIRE RAVE  HAS HELPED ME AND MY CHILD  SO MUCH..............I AM A BETTER MOM COS OF ALL OF THE LOVE  AND SUPPORT AND MOST OF ALL MY PRECIOUS BOY WHO HAS BATTLED ILLNESS  ALL HIS LIFE  WHO HAS TAUGHT ME 2 LOVE  TO LAUGH TO CRY  AND MOST OF ALL SEES ME FOR WHO I REALLY AM  AND STILL CHOOSES TO LOVE  ME EVEN WHEN I HAVE MADE MISTAKES ..........HE HAS TAUGHT ME THAT YOU ARE NOT POOR IF SOME ONE REALLY REALLY LOVES YOU. REMEMBER 1 TIME WHEN I WAS ILL HE DRAGGED HIS DOONA OF HIS BED AND TRIED TO COVER ME UP WITH IT  ANDTHE NHE MADE ME A SANDWICH OF JAM PEANUT BUTTER  AND VEGEMITE1 NOT BAD FOR A LITTLE BOY WHO WAS ONLY 4YR AT TH TIME. I RMEMBER 2 ANOTHER SPECIAL MEMORY WHEN HE WAS AT KINDER I WENT TO PICK HIM UP TO BE TOLD HE  HAD BEEN CRYING ALL MORNING. I ASKED HIM WHY  AND HE TOLD ME ALLHE HAD 2 GIVE ME WAS  A DUMB OLD BRACLET THAT HE HAD MADE WITH THE TEACHERS  HELP AND HE WAS ANGRY AT HIMSELF  COS HE HAD NO MONEY TO BUY ME CHOCLATES  AND FLOWERS  AND 1 OF HIS FRIENSD WAS ABLE TO GIVE HISMOM FLOWERS  AND  CHOCLATE......I TOLD HIMTHAT THE WODDEN GREEN BRACLET WAS THE BEST GIFT I EVR GOT GIVEN COS EACH BEAD WAS  PUT ON WITH LOVE FROM HIM  SO I TOLD HIM EVEN THE JEWELERS IN aMERICA WHO LENDS  JEWLES TO THE ACTORS ADN THEACTERSSES TO WHER TO THE OSCARS  IF HE OFFERED ME ALL HIS JEWELS ON CONDITON I THREW HIS BRACLET AWAY I WOULD ONLY WANT MY SONS BRACLET AND WHEN HE ASKED WH Y I TOLD HIM COS IT WAS
MADE JUST 4 ME BY YOU MY SON SO IT IS PRICLESS IN MY EYES AND THAT CHEERED HIM UP. 
IHAVE REALISED  THATI HAVE THE MOST SPECIAL AND IMPORTANT JOB THER IS ANDTHAT IS TO BE A MOM AND IT IS BY FAR THE BEST JOB I HAVE EVER HAD..
THANKYOU SEAN FOR BEING THE MOST LOVING  WONDERFUL MIRACLE  GIFTTHAT A MOM COULD EVER GET . THANKYOU FOR GIVING ME ANOTHER CHANCE AT BEING YOUR MOM AND MOST OF ALL FOR CHOOSING ME AS UR MOM .......... I LOVE MY SON AND RMEMBER THIS THAT I AM AND HAVE ALWAYS BEEN PROUD OF U .

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