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wow what can i say about this weekend apart from



ohmygodhowawesome



think that pretty much sums it up, i went to london for the VR meet and had an absolute scream, the guys i met up with were just brand new and we had a great weekend, i leveled up and i was invited into lux :)



My spirit is absolutely bouncinga round the walls so much energy



downsides:



left my new t-shirts and artwork on the train :( still will hopefully get them back....



Heim

(Seen in Kats journal)



This is about going with your instincts... This is freaky as anything...DO NOT CHEAT (You'll kick yourself later) I was a little skeptical trying this, but if you follow the instructions to the "t" you'll be surprised!!!! All of my answers were accurate. We'll see tomorrow if the wish comes true. I'll let you know. Take 3 minutes and try this...it will freak you out! The person who sent it to me said her wish came true 10 minutes after they read the mail. BUT NO CHEATING! This game has a funny/spooky outcome. Don't read ahead...just do it in order! It takes about three minutes...it's worth a try :)



First..get a pen and paper. When you actually choose names, make sure it's people you actually know and go with your first instinct. Scroll down one line at a time...and don't read ahead or you'll ruin it!



1. First, write the numbers 1 through 11 in a column.



2. Then, beside numbers 1 and 2, write down any two numbers you want.



3. Beside the 3 and 7, write down the names of members of the opposite sex. NO LOOKING AHEAD...OR IT WON'T TURN OUT RIGHT!



4. Write anyone's name (like friends or family....) in the 4th, 5th,and 6th spots.



5. Write down four song titles in 8,9,10, and 11. GO WITH YOUR INSTINCT PEOPLE!!!!



6. Finally, make a wish. And now the key for the game.....









1. You must tell (the number in space 2 minus the number in space 1) people about this foolishness.



2. The person in space 3 is the one that you love.



3. The person in 7 is one you like but can't work out.



4. You care most about the person you put in 4.



5. The person you name in number 5 is the one who knows you very well.



6. The person you name in 6 is your lucky rising star.



7. The song in 8 is the song that matches with the person in number 3.



8. The title in 9 is the song for the person in 7.



9. The tenth space is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.



10. and 11 is the song telling you how you feel about life NOW





Post this bulletin (dont reply) within the hour... IF you do, your wish will come true... If you don't it will become the opposite--you must post this in another place within 3 hours!!!! GOOD LUCK

COPY THIS AND PASS IT ON



She was only five

This is what happened

When she was alive...



Her dad was a drunk

Her mom was an addict

Her parents kept her

Locked in an attic



Her only friend

was a little toy bear

It was old and worn out

And had patches of hair



She always talked to it

When no one's around

She lays there and hugs it

Not a peep of sound



Until her parents

unlock the door

Some more and more pain

She'll have to endore



A bruise on her leg

A scar on her face

Why would she be

In such a horrible place?



But she grabs her bear

And softly crys

She loves her parents

But they want her to die



She sits in the corner

Quiet but thinking,

"Please God, why is

My life always sinking? "



Such a bad life

For a sad little kid

She'd get beaten and beaten

For anything she did



Then one night

Her mom came home high

And the poor child was beaten

As hours went by



Then her mom suddenly

Grabbed for a blade

It was sharp and pointy

One that she made



She thrusted the blade

Right in her chest,

"You deserve to die

You worthless pest!"



The mom walked out

Leaving the girl slowly dieing

She grabbed her bear

And again started crying



Police showed up

At the small little house

Then quickly barged in

Everything quiet as a mouse



One officer slowly

Opened a door

To find the little girl

Lieing on the floor



It must have been bad

To go through so much harm

But at least she died

With her best friend in her arms



A child dies every day from child abuse. And if you have an ounce of pity in you for little Auroura and you hate child abuse with a passion you will repost this and help out those abused children and let them know that someone cared for them. It doesn't take that long only about 10 seconds so please just do it



COPIED FROM Sabres journal

ORIGINALLY SEEN IN lifeeverafter's JOURNAL.

Shade, finally feels like i been a phantom for ages, glad to have gone up at alst, also have picked up a second stalker *waves*

Been a good day today apart from the ritualistic torture at the hands of my physiotherapist i went for lunch in the park, bought some books and a movie and generally had a chilled day in York, Beautiful city

Just been sent this quiz

Your Famous Last Words Will Be:

"What we know is not much. What we don't know is enormous."

Its days like this one that remind me why i go out to work, ITS PAYDAY



and for once its a happy payday, got home opened my mail



Dear Mr Anderson



You paid too much tax here have a rebate



and then opened my pay slip to find an extra 200 in that one, and my expenses for moving house and last months travel have come thru....



Anyways long story short, have a good night im off to the pub.

i've been snowboard and excersice grounded for the next 5 weeks at least



Went to the doctors on Friday and was sent to see physio therapist



(have decided that the physio therpay proffession is a throwback to the Spanish inquisition, although no proof to back this up they were well thrown out for curelty)



Anyways i have "Minor damage to my cruiciat ligament" laymens terms "its warm and tingly and dont touch cause i scream"

Saw this and quite liked the quiz, been a good day today was out with an old friend, few drinks and a long chat she knows im down just now and is hoping i bounce back soon



"Wheres my Steve gone? bring him back"

What Dark Word Represents You? [anime pics]

Your word is: Hate. Your heart has been turned to black since you haven't experienced love, or maybe you felt love but got none in return. So if no one else is willing to like you, then why like them? You are now a very bitter soul, trying to find a place and perhaps someone who can co-exist with you. That can be a problem since you tend to keep away from most people and be rude, but maybe someday you will be okay again.Take this quiz!













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Todays been a good day, my mind has a clarity to it i have never felt, office was bouncing with the holiday spirit today, going home tommorow cant wait...



Not gonna get all down and depressed here today. I LOVE LIFE i love it.



Had a weird dream last night think i wrote it down, not sure and cant be bothered to hunt for it, but it somehow spawned this thread that thanks the top quality job the mods and cancer do for us at this site.

Had a weird dream last night, got suspended from VR for a silly comment on the forums, its what generated the thanks to the moderators post. It was done genuinly i dont moan and whine if i ever get caught breaking the rules.

"For every action there is an opposite or equal reaction"



Really confused by the dream so will watch what i post and what i respond to, feeling good so far today but its only 10am... still feeling calm from meditation last night and chilled from a good sleep, office is bouncing today with it being holiday Friday Monday.

Have noticed i've been a bit awell all over the place in the last few days, never mind its been fun.



Not long back from a walk in a thunderstorm can still smell the fresh rain and i love it, the energy is flowing and i feel alive, even managed to meditate for a bit when i got back, so am feeling a negative emotion or too lighter



i have decided i need to meditate more often, right now i feel clear minded and relaxed, no dark thoughts just well clarity adn stillness of mind.



god i must sound weird.



*Waves* hi guys

Been a good day today nothing extraordinary



Hav started to notice my sleeping pattern is changing, i am getting tired later in the night and am awake alot later. Its not good because i have to ake at same time to go to work, today was no different even someone commented you look tired today...



Walked to work this morning felt good to get 10 mins excercise. Had some inspiration for a bit of writing but have forgotten went along these lines:



"The darkness has a hold of my ankles, and is occasionally tugging me downwards, reminding me of whats below and where i have come from"



If i remember the rest will post it, also i hit ghoul today, decided its not such a cool level as caitiff, so am gonna see about getting to next one, wonder what that is.



Boss psyco analysed me at work today was quite accurate for the most part, picked up i am guarded about my emotions and seem far too calm, emotionally am all over the place, but dont show it and it makes things interesting also pointed out i hold back my personality alot, completely missed the fact i have been suicidally depressed for seven years but no ones perfect so gave him a nine.



Heim

levels, Stalkers and Stories



Wow just noticed that in between playing unsuccesfully with updating my profile, i have hit the level of Caitiff, also did some writing tonight have advanced thunder a bit wonder how long till i get bored of it?



And on another note i have a stalker *waves*



Been feeling a bit playfull tonight *sighs* the joys of being lonely

Sitting last night and i am meditating cause i cant sleep (happens sometimes)



I am sitting in my meditative position with my hands slightly cupped resting on my knees so i begin meditating and channeling the energy to my hands, they begin to tingle and it feels like someone has palced a small ball of clay in my palms, warm to the touch and maleable but not unpleasant, i concentrate on them for a few moments and then flex my hands and they are gone.



Most strange, wonder what was going on? will need to find out.



Today has been a same old same old day went to work worked had lunch came home, my copy of the psy vamp codex has appeared so am going to read it tonight, looks like a good book.



Heim

Just read this and its so true of my life! Its from the psy vamp codex



"Change is terrible. It tears away what we've grown comfortable with. It destroys what we find familiar, stable, and simple, leaving uncertainty in its wake. But to face uncertainty and to thrive is to become stronger. Everything must change or die. We are active participants in this universal mystery."

Last nights writing with IShi and Mace, has left me exausted i woke this morning at 9am (only got to bed at 3) wtf?! (sat and read what i posted in prose section, it was deep and i feel i may have let too much darkness out.) Ishi said she was struggling to work with the negativitiy at times and it was a full blown fight to keep it positive.



It felt good to get some of my deepest angers into the light but i am not ready to let go of my hatred, is it so bad that i use this as fuel?! everytime i catch a glimpse of one of the numerous scars the fire warms...



My head feels very light today and i feel a bit well weird, its been raining here today but even this has not helped with the feeling of being drained.

Seventh Level of Hell



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Guarded by the Minotaur, who snarls in fury, and encircled within the river Phlegethon, filled with boiling blood, is the Seventh Level of Hell. The violent, the assasins, the tyrants, and the war-mongers lament their pitiless mischiefs in the river, while centaurs armed with bows and arrows shoot those who try to escape their punishment. The stench here is overpowering. This level is also home to the wood of the suicides- stunted and gnarled trees with twisting branches and poisoned fruit. At the time of final judgement, their bodies will hang from their branches. In those branches the Harpies, foul birdlike creatures with human faces, make their nests. Beyond the wood is scorching sand where those who committed violence against God and nature are showered with flakes of fire that rain down against their naked bodies. Blasphemers and sodomites writhe in pain, their tongues more loosed to lamentation, and out of their eyes gushes forth their woe. Usurers, who followed neither nature nor art, also share company in the Seventh Level.





The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Hit level 3 a while ago bugger me its gone fast only signed up a few days ago, think im gonna create a portfolio, so many great images on the site and so many great profiles, am gonna spend some time collating my favs



Wonder if anyone will notice?



Heim

My mind is ticklish just now



I struggle to concentrate on things i could od for hours at one point WOW an example hav struggled with a few hours 2nite, am drawn all the time to VR, and for once i love it.



My guardian has been here tonight and we have talked for hours, my spirit is worried for me (again) i asked him why it had been a year since he was last here, it seems my guardian is only around when needed and for some reason he is needed now when i ask why he is vague as always when detail is involved dangers with my awakening?! i dont understand and the conversation drains my energy... anyone shed some light on this?



Good day today office was bouncing with the Friday vibe so my spirit has been high as a kite today people commented that yesterday and today were worlds apart, wonder what tomorow will bring, i feel rain in my bones (god i hope so i love fresh rain)



Heim

Left my mask at the door this morning, why did i wear one at all, just to fit in like every other person in the world, well fuck it im not like everyone else i am an individual i am an Empath and i am a Psi Vamp! Coming to terms with a few things had made a huge difference to my life



People noticed a subtle difference today even Cas saw me in a different light, although comments of why the drive and whats happening on the horizon are still floating about it felt good.



1 year since last suicide attempt might celebrate tonight :) might just write and find cool poems instead, chat with old and new friends on AIM and MSN, TS too.

Hes here again



He hides in the shadows and whispers words of comfort to me, we have long conversations in the night while i medidate, apparently everyhting will be fine soon, i will find that which i seek?



What is it that i seek? Why the urgency?



people comment i seem driven just now and at times so distant they cant keep up

I'm constantly tired just now and i dont like it, my dreams scare me just now have written one of my recurring dreams in stories maybe having it here will help me to understand what im scared of.



Boss commented that i had seemed distant today and my comments of "Its all good" were a lie.



think my mask is cracked will need to look into that later!

Well that was fun, went swimming yesterday and whack! full blown slap across the face someone i never even met



Apparently i

"should be ashamed of myself for defiling this skin?!"



i point out to her its my life and if i chose to cut myself in the past then i chose to cut myself but in no way shape or form was it her right to accost me in the pool.



"God loves you son and i will pray for you"



words to make my blood boil, "Does go really love me?"



Usual happens thrown out of the pool and bingo another ban third one this month manager says sympathetically...



this whole thing has made me tired and i dont mean a slight yawn i feel physically and mentally exhausted from it, people keep reminding me of what i've done and it hurts, because when they do there pain radiates from them. i feel their pain and it hits me like a punch in the gut.

Night is a great time, my favorite time of night is early morning around midnight 1am.



Step outside at this time of night what do you hear, i would hope not a lot i dont, the whisper of the wind in the trees no cars, buses no hustle and bustle just peace in the air i love it.



Meditation at this time of day helps keep me sane, maybe when i have learned sheilding i wont be so tired all the time...

Got home tonight and started searching never heard the term before but someone called me an empath today, told her about my dreams that feel so like de ja vu yet they havent happened and never do untill the next day or a few days later.



Told her about feeling low when around some people and at other times like i am stoned out of my mind. She told me to check it out

an empath and a psycic feeder she called me, so here i am