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It's funny and rather poignant to sit at times and reflect on the last 6 years, as I've learned just don't stare backwards too long or you will miss the sunrise of tomorrow and all she promises she brings.



6 years of VR has taught me a great many lessons, it's taught me humility, kindness, self appreciation (one of the more important things I've learned. I'm not a bad person, I'm ME)



It's also taught me the world is a tough cookie to crack, there are trials. There are set backs on the path. There are tears, blood & sweat you just have to proverbially man or woman up take the punch and figure out how to beat the next tough thing.



2011 was the hardest year I've ever faced on so many fronts at the same time, but it came with many unexpected bonuses. I've listed both the W.T.F happened and the OMG i never thought that would be good until now.



1) i lost my job... (the W.T.F oh god I'm not getting any money in, the economy and job market are terrible, and they were i spent 9 months not working which had a spiral effect on the next few things) (The OMG that was a good thing... i hated my job, i wasn't a shiny happy motivated member of the workforce, i didn't enjoy the line i worked in. I felt my ass growing everyday i worked in an office, and i was depressed)



2) because i lost my job and was depressed i was demotivated to find another job, as a result i had to give up my flat and move into my parents, i wasn't well, motivated etc and as such my relationship with them broke down, my dad and i started fighting tooth and nail and nearly came to blows on several occasions so... (I lied this one didn't have an upside)



3) i was made homeless, the proper here's the number of a hostel, you will live there for as long as you need to (i still didn't have a job) i was surrounded by junkies (drug addicted men who would do anything to secure their next fix) and ex cons.



(W.T.F i was a degree educated person used to a lot of home comforts cable TV, cable internet, safety and no fear of what was next door to me or who was walking along the hall at night)



(The O.M.G that wasn't too bad, i survived, i learned to get tougher, the people i met were not all bad, some were unfortunate victims of domestic abuse or circumstances, and i learned a few real truths about life.



It made me emotionally stronger, and it directly impacted on my relationship with my parents. They respected me for manning up and taking control, i found a new job through the kindness of a friend and became physically fitter, stronger and generally more healthy ( i dropped from 16.5 stone in weight to just under 13 in a little under 3 months)



see life's not all bad. It has it up's it has it's downs and sometimes those downs might feel like the lowest of the low points, simply dust off, reevaluate your surroundings and the tools you have at your disposal look at the people around you MAKE CHANGES and move onwards, that sunrise tomorrow is real bright (yes i know it's raining, shut your eyes and imagine)



TOMORROW IS ANOTHER Day, and ITS NEVER GOING TO BE AS BAD AS YESTERDAY.



in retrospect it's been a good 6 years.