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The rain is whispering through the sky like so many tears shed, in a silent display of sadness. I find it refreshing yet it pulls at my emotions, unsettles my happiness and centre of being. Again I am thinking of escape from this place and a return to the places I relate to safety, security and friendship. I sometimes wonder why?



Then it passes and I go back to the rut, sinking below the surface of clutter I fill the void with. Internet friends and games, convincing myself I am happy with life. When I sit and evaluate things in the darkness. The glow of a cigarette occasionally beating back the shadows, it hits me and I realise. Happiness is a roundabout it comes and it goes, for the moment it is gone, but it will return shortly.

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dazzlingsoul
02:15 Jan 18 2008

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It floods into my mind, drowning my creativity under waves of negativity and doubt,

I pick up a pen and piece of paper, the images and words that would flow onto the paper don’t spill out.

Trying to force them doesn’t work, writers block is here for a while,

It scares me, my creativity disconnected like a lamp from the plug socket.

Doubt fills my mind, will it return? Do I need it? Did I deserve creativity in the first place?



I lay the pen down the ashtray is emptied and the paper lies blank, turning round and leaving the room. I switch out the light. I will see you soon my friend, but for now goodbye.