Not Emotionless.
Emotions burn my mind, plague my heart, ruin my soul. Keep them on lock down. Don't let anyone see. Thats the route to pain. Cover it up with a smile, don't let him see. He will break you. He will cut the already tenuous strings holding you to this life. Hate him. Let him see that. Cover it up with a scowl. Bury it deep inside. Never let it out. Never let your guard down. Keep hidden behind the mask. You know what will happen. You see it everyday. He will break you apart. He doesn't care. You're just a girl. Just one single girl. No chance. The odds are against you. Keep the barriers up. I'll hint at it like droplets of water seeping through, pushed by the torrent of the vast dam of emotions. No. Hate him. Let nothing show. He will break you. Don't let him know. Ignore him. He'll break you. You're nothing to him. Its a game. Don't put yourself through it. Let him give up. Let him leave. Good.
Emotions plague my mind, ruin my heart, burn my soul. The dam give way. The tears stream. My heart pounds in my chest. I sweat. I shake. I'm weak. I'm Stupid. I failed. I'm frozen. I love you. I die.
Precious gifts
Endless cycle
The living rot
Drink to death
let the children watch
Selfish Bastard
Lazy twat
Fucking Asshole
Black Lungs
Grey Matter
Deaf and Blind
Liver
Cancerous
Treacherous
Give one more day to the dying
Lying cold
Like ice
Blue green
Black purple
Heroes become weak
How did this happen
No one stopped it
Never spoke up
You're letting us down
Breaking our hearts
Breaking our lives
And still no one say stop. Enough
STOP!
Haunted by the dead
Terrorised by the dying
Hurry up and
Leave so i can
Have my life back
So i can live without
Tears without pain
Without harsh words
Without a Father
You're following the herd
An outift rebel
Proceeding to swallow up every last word
You're under that spell
Daddy never loved you
Mommy doesn't care
You don't know it but you're another face in the crowd
You're Unimportant
Stuck under your clothes
Trapped in a job
chained by your gender
wrapped in your race
clouded by your religion
controlled by your hate
Screaming so loud
tearing through people
Negative comments
You know best
That way is wrong
Hate me now
Follow me always
outward savage
hiding a crying child
SHUT YOUR MOUTH
WE'VE HEARD IT ALL BEFORE
YOUR SILLY LITTLE RANT
Is there a heaven?
Will i see my mom again
How long until Dads body starts to shut down?
What happens when Dad dies?
Will i be able to care for the kids?
Arrange the funeral?
What happens if the kids are taken away?
What will i do?
Fight?
Who gives me these thoughts?
Who makes me feel this way?
Why do i feel like this?
Is there someone out there for me?
Will i get married?
Will i have kids of my own?
Am i gay?
When will i die?
Where will i go?
Would it be painful?
Are you aware when you're dead and buried?
Is there an afterlife?
Will i be reincarnated?
Have i already been reincarnated?
Who was i in my past lives?
Will i see my Mom again?
Is there a Heaven?
will i go to Hell?
come away with me, into the shadows of this world, let us run away and never return to the lives we once lived
i shall run away with you fleeing memories and past sins in hope that in the darkness we might find a longing and a hope that was denied us in our past lives.
and upon wings of ravens black as sin we shall fly away into the twilight, the sky shall be ours darkling, never again shall we feel pain or longing for anything other than eachother. Let us leave behind these blood stained fields of hearthache, let our pale skin reflect the full moon.
And as we gaze up into her velvet mist watch as the star with their promise of eternity bless us with the light so that we may cast down our burdens and engulf ourselves in the primal passions of a world once shunned and forgotten and that now burns within our hearts engulfing encompassing, like a catacylismic shockwave.
and in my black embrace i shall hold thee, and as reality engulfs us as a raging inferno, i shall protect thee, i will be thy armour. And as we are plunged into the abyss of a world broken and forgoten, i shall fold my dark arms above you love. I can see the fire beneath your skin, your burning passion, as we are lost within the mists of time.
And as you hold me close protecting my body guarding my soul i will stand by you and cling to your heat as i look up into your eyes i see the fear of the unknown see the reality, there is no hope for us here, what binds us now is our never failing trust and raptured hearts as we drown as we fall through the murky depths through the gloom of this our reality one thing we need to do, get out of this life.
Rachael
• Ricky
• Lee
• Ped
Gareth
• Matthew
• Robert
• Craig
• Peter
Leanne
Angie
Some girl from Fugs
Guy in the car
Samantha
Jenny
Michelle
Stacey
• Tom
• Michael
He sits in the room, no light, no water, no warmth.
He lies on the mattress, damp and dirty.
He looks across the floor, newspapers, plastic bags, tin cans, syringes.
His gaze wanders up along the faded and falling wallpaper, the crumbling paintwork and cobwebs.
Upto the window, crack and broken.
Clouded skies, no stars shine, no moon to chase away the darkness.
Glancing at the shattered clock he watches it as the minute hand moves up to the hour, midnight.
He picks up the telephone, dials the number, the call connects.
He says in a timid hushed and broken voice
"Its my birthday today. I'm 12"
He listens for a reply, for some human contact.
"At the tone the time will be 0 hours and 37 seconds"
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