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I am feeling elated of late...i am seeing the goal at the end of my wait.

i have been lost in feelings from my past..threatening to make me second guess my feelings now...but that is silly..and i pushed that out..i have many who love and care for me..and i have no need to worrie. i am me!..what more can i be....lol..a poet who didnt know it hey.

soon my travels shall bring me to my love and we shall see the fruits of our labors come to life.

then we shall both have the confirmation of our depths in which we are bond.

"noi staremo insieme sempre nele ombre,

stringimi forte fra le tue braccia, baciami e dimmi che mi ami..."

soon i feel i shall feel the truth on the flesh of those i love.....taste the sincerity on their lips.

oh the sinful pleasure i know are in store.

*giggles darkly*.....i beleive i have been truely blessed by the dark lord.

BUON GIORNO= good morning.



AUNCHE TU= thanks you too.



FAMMI GODERE DI PIU'= enjoy me more.



SI= yes.



DI= no.



BENE= good.



GRAZIE= thankyou.



TROPPISSIMO= very much.(slang)



COME TI VA= how are you.



TI AMO= i love you.



MIO AMORE= my love



SEL MOLTO DOLCE= you are very sweet.



ANCHLO= me too.



DI NULLA= no problem.



A DOMANI= tomorow.



A PIU' TARDI= later on.



i will place more entries of italian..as well as german and greek..be sure to stop by RAVENAS journal she's got japanese.

lately i have be feeling lost...those around me seem to have drifted a bit...i feel alone at times..the darkness eating at my new found emotions...though i know that other things occupie the time of my loved ones, they seem distant. the feelings are of being mislead..or maybe of being forgotten...i am after all just another shadow int he darkness. so many others may feel this way and i sympathize with them...to have someone you care for so deeply be so distant..so far away from your touch, your kiss. i only hope that i do not find my feelings are usurped and abused by others. the feelings of my past call out to use my old tactics to peel away the pain. sighs* is there no one out there that knows the pain that i feel?..does this only reside in my head..do i only mislead myself?

so much has come to mind of late...and i think of feelings i do not wish to rehash. this is a sadened time for me...i feel emotional so dont truely take my rambleings to heart as i just rant...vent..release my emotions in conventional ways other then to return to the past releife of pain.

while stalking our prey me and my companion ravenas senced someone there befor us watching...i knew this man..he was my love come to watch his new family kill. such darkness he holds. watching as we rip our kill apart shredding his entrails allover the walls of the darkend allyway. the sounds of bone breaking and flesh tearing awoke a near by street bum...he saw the mess we had made and attempted to run...i pounced ontop of him and dispite his rank aroma...i bite a large chunk from his neck. causeing gushes of his blood to flood out of the wounds. he tried to run again but i had his shoulder in my grip..i squeezed and heard his colar bone ..snap. he sreamed out and in less then a split second ravenas was ontop of him devouring his heart..which she snached from his chest. as i returned to my first kill..mr.d was standing over him...smileing at me..he reached down and tore the heart from the dead mans chest and held it out for me.

i smiled and bite into it and savored the taste it made. then he leaned in and grabed a handful of my hair and pulled me to him...and kissed my bloodied mouth..then tore the shirt off my body.

" such raw emotion you still have". he said in my ear. he reached out and caressed my exposed chest. this sent me into a rage of lust...right there as ravenas watched and feed...we coupled amid the entrails and blood...the lust and sensual pleasures fullfilled us. this has become a common occurance durring our feedings now and to my great pleasure and ravenas's he is quite skilled in this art.

well i am not so well this evening...i was very emo earlier and was rude to someone i cared for.

then this damn technallogical world screws me again by dumping my damn call! i swear i at times the sorrow that fills me is enough to end it all! i know this sounds drastic but i have many issues. the most recent loving someone so deeply and yet not being near him. i want to hold him so bad to share my mind and flesh.

i am now very depressed thinking i may have messed up what i held so dear...with out even trying..i only hope that my actions have led me in his direction for a reason. inside my heart aches and when i reached out no one was there.

no one to stop me from suffering..no one to hug me in my time of need. is this what life has in store for me pain heart ache and anticipation?

i only hope my plan of late go as i had hoped as this was to be the one ..my other...=(

today i am not myself..i am missing something it feels like..i feel depressed and unwanted...though i know i am . i try and mask my suffering with smiles but that only lasts so long....dam i need a hug from the ones i love so bad...yet they are so far. the darkness holds me and wants to pull me back into its shadows...cant any one save me from my suffering?

I am broken with out my love beside me. yes we are there so close and yet so far. i am here to pledge my soul and heart to you and you alone...none other shall ever replace you!

STRINGIMI FORTE FRA LE TUE BRACCIA, BACIAMI E DIMMI CHE MI AMI...

TI AMO MIO AMORE SEL MOLTO DOLCE , E VOGLIO TENERTI PER SEMPRE.

If you wish to know what this means.....then come stop by and chat or figure it out your self!

My love runs as deep as my blood and none other suits as you do. The pain is deep knowing we are apart..and although to some they may not understand, i feel at times like cutting the pain from my chest so as the ache will stop.

though i know his heart is mine the body craves as well. soon we will consecrate our union and be bonded in life and mind. Each hour we spend together i treasure...and you are forever in my dreams. such pleasures we know yet have yet to complete. MR.D I AM YOURS ETERNALY!

Oh my love to have found you at last in the shadows brings me such pleasure. You were there all along i think...only searching for me without knowing it. I have sworn my love and soul to him now as we are together in the shadow and we shall reign together over the love that we share. Soon we shall be joined by the bonds we grow together, you fill me with many feelings long forgotten and leave me wanting more each time we converse. Is this eternal?...i think so. i have spent much time in the pain of being alone now i have hope there is more...you give me hope! and soon we shall consecrate our love with the confines of the sinful lust we share.

Well am here to write down the events that have come about of late.

while searching the darkness for the redemtion i sought...i heard a voice calling out to me.

i have beenin the darkness for many a year and not found another like myself. after years of pain and suffering, of loneliness, i hear a voice in the void. He and i were both lost thinking the worst for our kind then...in the abyss of the shadows..i found him! His image was not new to me for it has haunted my mind for ages. and his voice sinks deep into my soul and gives me pleasures i though long forgotten. dispite my loss of love in the past, my heart is leading me to him..."my love, my midnight flower, at last i have found you". his words whisper in my ear.

shivers go through my entire body, each time he touches my skin....soon my love we shall be together bonding in the shadows.