I leave on May the 12th.13:45 May 02 2008
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Yeah school ends that day.
I will be gone 3 & 1/2 months, Rest of May, June, July, and Beginning of August.
I wrote a really long explanation but my computer sent me back a page somehow and I lost it, so again I will write it.. . . V.V'
Anyways, here's the deal; I'm the oldest in my family and also the head of my family, you should all know I'm Hispanic, origin Mexican, Mexican Indian and Italian, and now American. (I was born in Florida)
Anyways in the Spanish culture it is strange for a female to be the head of the family, almost shameful.
(This is not true for all families depending on their geographical area)
I am the head of the family because my dad is the richest out of his brothers/sisters and my grandparents have giving him more land, I was born first so I have been suggested to be the head of the family, my younger brother was also suggested even if he was born second, but he really has not shown the family how he can be 'a man'. So it turns out I have more balls in me than my brother so I should be the head of the family blah blah blah.
Everyone on my dads side hates me here are some reasons why:
1. My mom is Spanish but looks white.
2. I was born first.
3. I was born a girl.
4. I was not married by 15yrs.
5. I went to school and graduated HS.
6. I'm still a virgin.
7. I'm going to college.
8. I have applied to universities.
9. I know how to drive.
10. I know how to defend myself (fight).
11. I'm not easy.
12. I speak 2 languages.
13. I speak my mind
. .. . . .. .I think you get the idea, women are treated like shit in Mexico (depending on the area) and I was born into the hell hole of a family.
But I still get everything my dad owns in the end.
. . So since I am the head of the family I have grown up almost the second in command in our family business which is produce, exotic or local, shipping and packing, retail and wholesale, growing and trading ect,. all that agriculture stuff.
And I go to work every after noon, some mornings, all my breaks, all vacations, when ever I am not in school.
And thats the problem I will not be here all summer, I will be working; I will be going to fields, checking on workers, paying, dealing, negotiating.. .driving shiploads, unloading semi trailers, talking to truckers, not sleeping, watching, always watching and hearing. Staying in competitions and yeah I think you kinda get if not ask me I'll tell you more.
I will not be online, and I will not be able to get online.
Last time I left,. . .Winter Break I was blinded then kicked out of my first coven since then I have been in 2 other covens and am now in a Great House.
I really hope I will not be kicked out of this one because I know inside that I really belong with them.
if you do just know you have broken my heart as everyone else has before.
I'm here for friends and I treat everyone how I would IRL.
I know this is used a lot but, Please understand that :
you do not know what I am feeling, you do not know the cultural differences, or the problems I face every day or how I really am and that is the wrong in online communications you can never really see me as me.
I work to feed my family, I work to go to school, I work for family I don't even know in other countries, I work and work and work and no one can stop me because I will never stop
some might think that I would want to but I really don't i will show everyone who doubts my ability to lead, I will prove myself as honorable
I didn't have to write this, I didn't have to say anything.
But I did because I love you guys and I want you all to know that I will miss you these almost 4 months of 'no internet'.
If you want to talk to me more just message me ok.
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