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yeah. well i was stressed. good news: my bf n i settled our...disagreements. granted i almost broke up with him....changed my mind...thank athiesm. well, we're together and we're happier. one down...lots to go.

i have a week off of school. after having the previous, basically, two weeks before off...yeah...1 n 1/2 down...still lots to go. i still have a lot of classes to make up, a lot of homework to make up...i'm shure a lot of tests to make up. that's some of what i might be doing this week. i also will, hopefully, be catching up on needed sleep.

i mended things up with my mom. yes, we got in a fight...not major one..just a very irrotating one...which is saying something..cuz i can tolerate a hell of a lot. but yeah. i bought her ice cream and coca cola. she's kinda happy about that...considering i havent stolen nething from her lately.

robert is kind of pissed off at me. probably because i was a bitch ( sorry rob, i deserve to put up w/ ur anger!)...

i lost my $40 this morning or yesturday night. i was PISSED!so i wasnt really going to get the stuff i wanted to get...like new, MATCHING earrings or studs...but i did ask my mom for money to go buy nail glue. so i actually have nails now.

i might be going to arizona soon. if my sis has her kid early...which isnt a good thing. not onli for the kid. her having the kid early means that she could die. i'm not willing to cope with that. but heh. i dont kno wat will happen. i guess all my other sisters and brothers will feel guilty along with me for treating her like shit all her life. i kno i will.

well i think i'm going to wrap this one up. talk to y'all later



~-krista belle-~

i give up. i really and truely do. i dont kno whether it's my obsession to please everybody and my failing in that department or if it's just the people not wanting me around.

roger is fucking with my mind all the time. i dont kno wat i'm doing wrong anymore. i try to comfort him, it doesnt always work because he zones out or he hangs up or he has to do one thing or another. he just doesnt want to listen to me.

i dont think he can care for me anymore. he likes this other chick. i dont kno. i might like her too, but i have a feeling i'm going to end up hating her. not onli for jealousy reasons either. i dont kno.

he tells me that he loves me more than anything. granted long-distance relationships are really fucking hard. i'm the one to kno. but, it still fucking pisses me off.

i just hope that people dont try to be like me. and i can onli "pray," for lack of better word, that people will never be like me again. dont be stupid like me. when you see the signs...believe them. do not ignore them. do not believe in anything other than them. if you resist...you will be hurt ten times as much as it would if u just let the shoe drop rather than trying to string a new lace through the holes.

everything is fucking with my mind at the wrong time. all the past homework...the classes i have to make up, the detentions i'm going to recieve. thats just some of the achedemics.

then there are my friends. they have a lot of shit going on and i dont nessisarrily have the best mind right now to give them the advice they need.

there is my bf. he's askin me if he can have another fucking gf. i told him it was ok...as long as it doesnt mean anything. we are still going to be going together... but why do i feel like i'm going to get played again? shure it's just an online relationship and to some ( give or take, most) people out there, it doesnt even really count.

i'm not asking for anybody's fucking opinion, so dont give it. i've had enough of this bull shit. even my english teacher fucking told me "to please becareful of people i associate with online" it fucking pissed me off. i love mrs. o right now, but god damn! its called personal space.....WHY CANT I HAVE SOME?!?!?!

my fucking " flu" aint doing shit for me either. just making me look stoned and it also made me look like i was going to fucking fall on the floor and die at any given moment.

.... i'm kinda wishing i did.

~-krista belle-~

is going to be celebrated one way or another. it fucking sux. i hate my birthday. i told everybody that i didnt want a party. and that if u must give me anything that resembles a present, make it something that i can use to improve my life...like a car n permit, the working papers signed, money. i dont want anything that has to do with food, clothes, pictures, objects or even an aknowledgement of the day that i was born. well...i have to go so that rob can call his gurl. i might be back later.



-krista belle-

THIS IS FUCKING BULLSHIT! today was not the best day for me. i fucking hated it. all of it sucked.morning=bad, noon=worse, night=hell. fucking A. i had detention because i supposedly threatened a teacher. i was bitched out in english. Art didnt help much at all for me, which it usually does. CAD sucked even more because i have to make up a couple classes because i was sick, i was bitched out for that one too. i came home. mom was getting on the computer, shure call me a computer freak with no life...but i was defensive about that too. i was not having a good day. roger never called me. still hasn't. i dont kno wat exactly that means...i'm a lil worried. anyways. then mom saw that i had a zero on the english mid term. i dont kno how the fuck that happened, but it did.so i was bitched out for that too. and i'm seriously slacking in all my classes. except for english. which i'm surprized i'm even passing. gahhhhh this is not cool.