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I did have an excellent report from Dr. Lang today.

My white and red blood cells are within normal rang limits, he remarked i was really looking good, more color in my face, and my vital signs are great. one thing that came back was my liver function, last blood work I had right before i went to the smokies they said my liver was fine, this was from my former doctor. Dr. Lang said he does not think this has anything to do with the cancer or chemo. but he was really pleased with the results of the chemo working and i am so happy. thanks to all for your love and support. ive done a happy dance today...and its all because of you all.



love, cindy

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MyFate
03:03 Dec 29 2012

Best wishes Cindy. I miss talking to you.

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I finish my fourth round of Chemo tomorrow. And I have a doctor's visit with Dr. Lang, who is my oncologist. I am a little nervous about this. I do feel great and all. He will most likely order the MRI and Cat scan and x ray to see how things are progressing. Good news is everything is ok. my weight and vital signs are good. the numbers on the white blood cells and red blood cells are still low but close enough to the normal range. At least thats what they tell me. And I have not been sick or in any kind of pain. So thats good news right?



then why am I a nervous wreck? I realize the longer this goes on there will be more visits like this and I accept that. I just hope it goes into remission and then i hope to go into the office for a monthly maintainance program. I am keeping positive thoughts and trying to stay strong.



Everyone has been so kind in sending me good vibes and prayers. I thank you all so much for this. It really does lift my spirits. i am spending a little more time at my house. which i think this gives my mother a break. but she thinks i cant take care of myself or eat right. so i think i will go back to her house this weekend.



Hope to share some good news tomorrow. heres hoping all the gods have heard my prayers and everyone else's. Ive said it before, I am not ready to leave this world. I refuse to give up.

Hope all my extended family here and everywhere around the world. wishing you joy and happiness this Christmas and a Happy New Year..





Love you all



Cindy

As I sit back and take everything in. I sit and wonder how many times one can cheat death and wonder how many miracles are given out.



If I examine my life, which I have backwards and forwards. I have made mistakes and I have paid for them. Makes me human, but not perfect.



When I was born, My mother was six months into her pregnancy with twins when she went into labor, both of us were breach and weighed three pounds each. By rights, we should have not survived. Sandy survived but with Cerebral palsy. I wasnt born with it.



But yet we are still here



I caught a deadly viral infection that went into my bloodstream, it killed my grandmother I was living with. How I caught it from her, is not known. If I had waited one more day, I was told I would have died.



yet I am still here.





I was hit by a car four years ago. Could have went either way, death or being paralyzed. i didnt exactly walk away from it. more like crawled and whimpered.



but yet I am still here.





Now I have lung cancer. All I know is, I aint giving up and I refuse to go out this way. The lord and Lady do not want me right now. Well, thats what Im telling all the gods at this moment.



I just wonder, how many miracles can a person ask for. and is it deserved?



My oldest daughter was scheduled for ankle surgery, but they found a pea size nodule on her lung and in the ankle bone.



turns out the cancer in the ankle bone is a rare childhood cancer that is treatable. yesterday they took out her lymph nodes behind her knee, the biopsy on the nodule came back and its not cancer. scar tissue left over from having the cold or pnuemonia. she gets to come home today. but reconstruction on her ankle bone will be in feburary. then they will take out the ankle bone and either replace it with a cadaver bone or reconstruct it with tissue and fat from her body. then six weeks of five minute bursts of radiation to make sure the cancer doesnt come back.



somehow, she is going through more than I am at the moment. Its so unfair. shes only 36. i go to chemo and just get hooked up to an iv for four hours. but my vital signs are good and my wieght is good. I dont feel sick. But she and I said if we both survive this (And we will)



we are going to get matching tattoes that say, we are a survivor. How many miracles can any one ask for? or does anyone know?



I have too many things I want to do. too many people to aggravate, I am not done living. I am more angry than scared. I have always said that about myself. does that make me strong? I dont know about all that. But I do know this



I have lots of blessings. my family. my extended family on Vr and FB. You all are fantastic. I love you all. I nevver get tired of saying it.



you guys rock.

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LadyChordewa
23:46 Dec 07 2012

But if you get a tattoo you might jinx it. You might get hepatitis from the needle and die lol.



Love ya sis. You are tough and always a survivor!

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I have decided to write in my journal about what I am going through. On November 7th, I was diagnosed with stage four small cell lung cancer. And also on that date, My oldest daughter, Amanda was having her ankle looked at. as she needed to have surgery once again. At that time, she was also diagnosed with childhood cancer know as scarnoma, in the ankle.



Since then, I have already went through five rounds of chemo. I went to the doctor friday, and the news was good. my blood platelets and white blood cells were great. Dr. Lang was very pleased with it. Only bad thing i can say is I am losing my hair. to all those that have seen my pic on my port or know me, I had long, thick hair.



now its very short and thin. so its just a matter of time before its all gone. But its only hair and it will grow back. hey, hair is over rated.



So far, I havent gotten ill, which Dr. Lang said some do and some dont get sick. just depends on the person. Starting on the third, I start my next round of chemo. I have a port that they put in just under my collar bone. not quite the piece of jewlery i wanted but if it helps im all for it.



I feel very good. actually havent felt this good in a long time. my appetite is still good. so for the moment I and Amanda are doing great. we both decided that after we beat this, we are getting a tattoo that says. I am a survivor.



trust me guys, i am not going out like this. I will do whatever it takes. I have too much I wanna do. places to see. and aggravate as many people as i can along the way. lol



I want to thank all my family and friends here at vr for their love and support and the articles and websites links about this type of cancer and what therapies are out there.





Just need some good thoughts and thinking positive!