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Well here we go again. Now I have 2 things going on. Well lets see, now there is this girl I really like and just as she tells me she likes me to, her ex boyfriend who she hasnt talked to in forever out of nowwhere calls her and she still loves him and I think they are gonna get back together. But whatever makes her happy makes me happy. But it still sucks. For the second part of my curse is this group of friends I found I think are starting to get sick of me being around. So yeah I think I should just have to get used to this curse for the rest of my life. And now I wont be on here for at least 2 days maybe 3 because I have to go to jail. So I will see what happens in my absence.





MaggotKidd

2/26/2007

So yeah I have figured out that I am spiritly connected to the weather. If the weather is gloomy and rainy I tend to be sad and depressed. If the weather is stormy and wild, I tend to get angry and pissed off. If the weather is cold and snowy I tend to be nestalgic. But if the weather is nice I am always happy and relaxed. Well that is all for now.



2/22/2007

MaggotKidd

yeah so lately things around my new group of friends. Over the last month both couples have managed to break up for a week and than get back together. It was really odd and I will tell you one thing, I am glad its over they have both gotten back together, and the most recent being last night. Now things are finally starting to mellow out and go back to normal. But for some reason I have a wierd felling that the wierdness is just begining. You see I have always had this curse, it sounds like and I have this wierd ability to carry bad luck almost every group of friends I get in it seems like something really goes wrong and I think it is my fault. I will give you some examples. Lets start with when I started hanging out with my little cousin vanessa. Well first I crashed her car, then the worst thing happened two of her close friends died. Then I got in this other group of friends where I rebuilt the friendship with my first friend in this town. Then my first friend in this town got in a car accident.



2/21/2007

MaggotKidd

well yesterday I made my confession to my friends about me getting high. I was really worried about it, I thought I would lose these friends I had worked so hard to keep. I think these friends are much different than any friends I have ever had. My other friends I have had a real hard time trusting and to be completly honest they were kind of bad influences on me. But with these new friends I just feel like I can trust them and that is hard for me. I have been stabbed in the back so many times by people I thought were my friends, but it seems that these friends are very loyal and trust worthy so yeah I think I have finally found the group of friends I belong in. So until next time.



MaggotKidd



2/15/2007

well I am 21 now and still havent really done anything with my life but thats ok I still got time but I am currently looking for a better job. I still have the best friends I have ever had in my life but I am really struggling with the whole pot issue. but thats all for now I guess.



MaggotKidd



2/14/2007

lately I have been thinking of my ex-girlfriend and getting really depressed again. It seems that everytime I seem to start to feel better the pain comes back to rip my heart out again. I know that I will eventually get over her but until I do I have to deal with this pain, and quite frankly it just fucking sux. Some days I just wish I could erase her from my memories, but other days I want her back and I just dont know what to do. It is getting so unbearable that I have been thinking of cutting again. Now before I would have just gotten high and forgotten about it, but now that I can't smoke pot anymore, it is going to be much harder than before. I just hope that my new found friends will be able to help like no one has been able to before.

Well I have just realized I will never be able smoke pot again if I wanna keep these really close friends I have made, but it isnt all bad I havent had friends this close in my life. these people genuinely care about me and if I needed them they would drop whatever it is that they are doing to come talk to me t means alot so if it comes between choosing pot or true friends.... I choose the friends.

Well I have been clean from any drugs, and to be completely honest it really sux sometimes, but it is for the best I have some really close friends that I really don't wanna lose. They really don't approve of drugs but I do but I see where they are coming from. I am really new to this website and it is like a maze to me right now but I am sure I will get the hang of it eventually. Well thats it for today I guess.





MaggotKidd