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Well third mystery of you was seriously weird in vision I am not prepared to show that with the world

however the fourth mysetery of invoking your power is animal totems. If you ware indian you have 9 if not you have 5.

Totem my latest list is abit weird but it changes with seasons and the main ones do normally stay the same.

Bat for intuition and insight

Bear strength , introspection, healing , self knowledge.

Dog loyality and companionship

Eagle potency, healing power, illumination

Firefly communication and illumination

Frog cleansing peace emotional balance

Owl wisdom vision insight

Snake power life force, sexual potency

Squirrel(snarffles as I call them) trust thrift

Turtle love protection healing knowledge



normally it is my main ones



cat

dog

wolf

turtle

eagle

swan

very interesting from the ones that have come into play..



Fifth mystery of invoking your power (reincarnation)

simply put many lifetimes of past





being a slave in egypt however somehow it got better with time for I save one of the pharohs lives



saw being a warroir in Japan fighting for peace before guns where invented



viking boat wore one piece of jewelry and it was a bracelet of green and blue stones. Was a guy but the stones never came off me. As given to me for peace and empowerment They were squared off and smoothed out.



Ireland fighting within the trees if that makes sense. Not robin hood like but more like we protected the forest from strangers and many would not come to our forest because of this reason. I was good with a bow and arrow and was female then

at one point had to wear a dress and felt weird about it for never wore one until the night of some fire festival. Was told I could not fight anymore and that I had to be who I was a lady of the woods.



Again in Ireland but belfast before it was such a name. Fought in a war that started something in Britaina died young



was in 1920's a singer at some local place in america I want to say chicago if that makes sense

died in a gun shot fight. Not sure why but I did not die alone there was a man who held me as I died.



1960 vietnam die protecting my country died in a firing hole and helped others move through the tunnel before americans could get us.



1971 american and a mutt of sorts have four blood lines that fade into a parable about the melting pot. Me today.



Did intake the cool air and it was refreshing at 300am walking Leo also did the flash flood of light with the universal flow and fell sleep once again covering my whole apartment in reiki symbols.





Six th mystery of invoking your power

chakras. Did guided tour via illumination of the chakras I love the dvd abit too much it is just like a guided tour of it and when done

Removed all the negativity in chakras with my healer's stone . Love that darn crystal best crystal I ever invested in. took it right out and was uplifted with a quickness. Love that. I wish they had the stone in a small one so I could literally wear it where ever I go.



Seventh mystery is personal empowerment

anyone who has hurt you let it go , habits, ill health, general negativity



ill health

pcos

cancer of the ovaries

back pain

seboric skin disease



workaholic



people in past that burnt me and have to let go of unforgiveness



James roommate stole stuff from me and then blamed his accident of his hand being cut off by the saw he got through work comp and lives on it. Claims I harmed him and did that too him however he took a dragon ring from an old friend who did black magic and wore that ring that day. It was a ring of protection for me and well not for him and his life went to shit. Owed me at least 2500.00 and nev

er got a job but found a girlfirend and such so he can seriously sit and spin on his shit.



Heidi an ex roommate Heidi hurt my cat with burning his skin and then claims she did not do that at all.

The black candle was there and the candle looked like that it was poured and I did get a second person to validate it and all. So I was not even interested in I packed her shit and said leave. Her boyfriend was there and she got to move in with him.



Emily lied to me and on top of it stole my identity as far as using my name to get a phone and she over used it to the point the bill was huge. 800 she never made good on nor paid me the money she owed for rent and such.



Lost my house because of it . So no longer have roomamtes because of that for I have a forclosure on my credit for four years which will be rolling off soon for I moved out of it four years ago.



Jonathan lied to me and said he was going to visit and he moved in instead and could not get a job he was hooking up with people and I was taking care of him and my animals . I wanted him out and by jan 1st of this year I kicked him out and gave him a ticket to go to his nearest woman. He was bad in bedave and more so he annoyed me to no avail and he was luckly he left peacefully and with all that is said in done I was poorer and not happy and lost a lot in the process with new debt.





Through the guidance of the lord and lady , I banish all things from my life that are not spiritually good for me.



Burning a pink candle for love filling out the ick and healing it. I let it all go to say the tlord and lady and ask to help me forgive these people and let it all go.

With my healing the same I hand it up to you to heal it and make me whole again

any other areas that I do not see please let me go with this and whatever else I donot have in my heart that I am not seeing help me find it and release it too.

Thank you!





Eight mystery in empowering myself



knowing the cycles and learning to develop yourself in the ways of the holidays or moon phases.



Good thing to work with is affriming out what is needed in understanding or being one with those season. I will be in more harmony with the seasons and life cycles.



Never miss the holidays or seasons for they are good tools for structure and making holidays feel apart of your path and not against it



Which seasons and or cycles mean to me



candlemas- a refreshment to me and do spring cleaning

spring equinox- rejuvenation of self

baltaine – celebrating earth and her mothering ways



summer solistice- I normally let go of past and reflecting on what my goals are that year



lammas – healing self and making was for the new

autumn equinox – letting go of garbage I donot need in my life and throw it away

hollow's eve- communicate with my ancestors



winter yule – reflection of self and being one with the god and goddess that day and night





ninth mystery of empowering myself

my attitude towards others



I try to maintain a balance work cowrokers are just that

friends are treated like family and family the same



without hurting myself in the process is hard to do for when I trust someone and they take advantage of it then it is taken away in my eyes. I forgive but I dont forget you get three trys and you are out.

I think sometimes people take advantage of my nature and this is where I help them and well no longer for I have to help me first. Not be selfish but everytime I help others I get the short end of the stick and people have screwed me over for I was willing to help them out and willing to go the extra mile for them. But when I need help, they are no where to be found. I will be honest with you many have taken my money and ran with it or people have stolen from me roommate wise.



My newest one would be cisco he was to help little jason and jason. I went to a person who Marilyn and I trusted and well I paid this man about 2500.00 to do rites and rituals for healing and such for Jason and little Jason for them both. Little one made it out okay however, Jason had been in the main hospital for 6 months and literally should have died but I changed thought patterns and saw this man to be unbalanced as a ifa priest and so I could have used that money for other things but I straved myself in the process and the bills got bigger. Marilyn had issues I would give it to her and she would work it off instead of pay me back. She had not helped me out like she was supposed to this time around when I gave her two hundred dollars instead of working it off with cabbing me all over the place I needed money for food and rent and had the rent did not have food for myself and so I had my animals covered but not me. I am was supposed to see the money twice something else came up and well she never gave it to me and she said this time she would pay me back and I got 40.00 back . She is not dependable and this is why it was a work it off as you go thing normally which was helpful in the long run for me for I could not pay her all the time back . However she knows I am struggling and she seems to think I have my shit together where she can give money to this or that and I am in a hole eating rice for the rest of the week. Things like that.



So I give up on people in a sense in believing in them for all I can do is rely on myself in the end. So instead of being a doormat the rest of the year I am going to be a person who can be stable and kind in the sense of listening to your problems but I am not the answer to your problems money wise. I am seriously not a happy camper when I say this habit is a bad habit to helping others. Not going to be a helping people in that way anyways.



Affirmatuon

I have to be willing to help people and will strive to help people but to alimit without harming myself in the process



empowering enough I must say.





The tenth mystery of invoking your power



putting yourself in an alpha state

mediative state of mind used candle flame . Always have when I get to that realm.

Choose a need in your life and see it come to you.

I did mine for money for I so need to attract this and not feel the poverity end anymore. To save my money and not touch it as well. Started last week before I looked at the book about getting another account so I can save 50.00 a paycheck and not touch it at all. Also did tax exempt for december so I can work on the pay checks I have coming to me and developing on that more so. For one I would like to move out of florida and two I know I need to get my stuff straight in a year so next january I wont be here in florida where I will let god and goddess decide. I cannot remain stuck here and not be in a rut anymore . I also noticed with the money I do get I normally do save it but a lot of pressing needds happened this year and I know it was worth while but this year I have to remain focus and do it that way. I also have been boxing slowly books I have not used in awhile so I can work on seeing myself move and be fine with moving with no problems. My block mentally was I grew up poor and I did not notice it until this ritual book. Very cool concept of learning what the problem is to my self .

I no longer want to struggle and well I see this now. :) Have to do this for seven days so I can see working this with my normal way of spiritual.

Very cool thought pattern on healing the issue.

Questions to ask myself



am I happy now?eh hell no

am I perfect?

Yes in god's eyes I am

have you met your goals?

One write a book and publish it on my own for did not want it all out there.

Two went to florida

three got back into mary kay

four I am a reiki master

five I graduated alpha school of massage two years and did it well..

being a mother and having a husband just not in the cards I guess

I an in a good relationship?

Lol what relationship?

Are you proud of your accomplishments yes I am





The journey of me

the mysteries of self empowerment

did invoking your power.

Did the magical minutes of reikiing the whole apartemnt and body and animals. I am connected with the universe this I know.

Did the ten candles and they were purple one blue and one green

I felt peaceful and fell asleep wondering who my mother spiritually was. I had a dream of going to school . There was rain bad all over the area and my bathroom had its own waterfall luckily to the bathtub not against the other way so I was okay for the most part and thouht I was lucky a lot of cars and houses got off worse then I did. I went to a museum and it was something I had never seen before and inspired me on levels of imagination I had not seen before. The ceiling had a picture of egyptain glyphs of the different gods and then mary was under it. I was like so this is my mother and my path is definitely correct in the finding my mother. I smiled in acknowledging that. Roger and I were walking out of the museum together and a man named ttt walked a dog and a lion and the lion was well fed but not brushed and I was annoyed at that. He was trying to intimdate everyone with the lion and having could do such a pet he would growl at everything. I did not like the treatment and said ttt yo.u need to realize something about your pet.and he looked at me. One day he shall harm you as you have done others.

He was shakened by what I was saying and I smiled and he is already stalking his next prey which was a shop of where hair was done and he looked at his mane and then looked at the women not getting it done but in the store. TTT looked at me and said what you want my pet. Do you think you think you can do better? I smiled and said yes. And he will look a lot better too. He let me have the lion an dthe lion looked at me and I smiled and said let's get you brushed and clean beautiful. I asked ttt what the lion's name was. I looked at the lion and the lion loved me a lot more then him. TTT said lion. I looked at the man and then pet the lion that is not a good name for a lion. I smiled let us get some cleaning done and get you a new name beauitful... He walked with me at my side and ttt was amazed I did not have to surpress him from walking and such he listen to me with out a leash and with a great deal of purring. We got him cleaned up and brushed and a new collar and his nails were done and paws cleared of glass shards and I was horrifed.I made the lion feel loved and healed all at once and he was amazed that I took the time to clean him look at his paws and get his claws taken care of and he was well loved from that point on. He listened to everything I said and was a very good lion. He still liked to scare people but he would not growl at them and such he would just do the I am lion hear me roar look. The lion saw ttt and pounced him and was scared he was going to eat him. I smiled and said go ahead precious baby. He licked ttt and got up and I said see he has mannors it is just you never told him how to be the lion he is. Ttt almost peed himself for he was that fearful. So I looked at him and said see he can be controled but lovable. He saw that the lion was treated well and that he was behaved until he put the rap music on and the lion went after him rather then after me.I walked ahead of the lion and did not bother to watch what he did to ttt. I snapped my fingers and leashed him and he had an arm in his mouth as a trophy. Ttt could not believe it how he was well be haved and beautiful again and his dying breathe was like that was my lion. I smiled and said good baby boy show him who is boss. I was calm and quite quiet and we just wanlked home togher like he was a dog. He was elegant and knew it and well cared for as was leo and moshe and he never touched either for they were his kitty clauder. I was highly happy and felt so blessed to have the lion in my life.

I woke up from it thinking wow that is weird for the lion never got a name. Two moshe was on my side and did not move and leo was at his side of the bed.



I walked Leo and everything this morning which comes up to my next magical minutes with looking at the stars and breathing clean air. And so I felt the oneness with the universe and yes it was delightful and I have to say the experience was neat watching the stars. I think I even saw a falling start which was amazing.

Why did I by to light a sacred flame? For I saw it in a dream and felt the need to read it though.

.I cannot stand silverraven wolf . I feel she is not real in her books but this one so far is a side I have never seen and I am glad I went with my gut and got it.

.IIWhat are my goals that I would like to accomplish?

A one week goal?

Remain positive no matter how badly the food is I am okay and donot have anything to worry about..food or puppy pads and such.

And to find an affirmation for work and life in general whenever I get mad to claim something new and improve and change the anger to a moment not a whole day of being upset.

III one month to get more active in Mary kay stuff and get a show case going.and to get my bills in order for I need to pay the jea and credit card bills. And still some how get food.

IV one month goal clean up the boxes in the room and get organize

V six months goal. Save money and get the heck out of Jacksonville. Pack my stuff and go to where you want me god for I am clueless and I know I have to get the heck out of Jacksonville.

VI one year goal get my red jacket and get teammates and become a director and really feel good about wokring my Mary Kay business. Loving where I am at in mary kay..getting out of My current job and finding the right spot for me to live.

VII five years (that would make me 42) healthier than I have ever been, happy, and content with life. Write a book that can inspire others and really touch people without having to go all over the country side but actually get inspired and be inspired.

Live in a place that helps me grow and allows me to be me.

Be healthy

I enjoy writing my books and making people feel good about themselves.

Being a Mary Kay director and being a millionaire!!!!!!!!

Being loved and feeling loved by another person if not Jason someone who loves me for me and really can see me for me. And love me for me and be himself at all times and is open minded to spiritual things and is okay with my path what ever my path maybe.



what do you feel constitutes your mission in life?

My mission in life?

Missed that one totally and have to get back to that one. So I am going to get a yellow candle and do that spell. Later today. For I am tired and want to go back to bed for now.

Did yellow candle for my life's mission and did it in honor of bridgit so I brought out my st bridgit pendant out. I had been wearing tree however, I am in need of wisdom and this is what I seek...



My mission in life

I am a lingeaged hermetic gnostic. I am proud of my choice in religion. Everyday I enjoy spending time with God and Goddess for they are my spiritual parents and they are with me at all times. I am thankful and blessed throught out my life for with them I have done great things. I have a wonderful dog named Leopold and an adorable new comer Moshe. We share all our time together physically and astrally. I discovered my strength in my faith to do great things and have. I have touched many lives and many souls through out the journey and brought them closer to their faith and religion.I have learned my skills and talents.

I am open minded in my faith for I know in all religions you can learn something and therefore bring it into my faith and develop me more deeply with mother and father. I live life fully and freely in the sense I am passionate about life and experience it for all that its worth. I am a reiki master for 10 years of study and seen great healing through this journey because of it.

I have learned strength because of my past and do not regret any of it. For I would not be who I am today with out it. I walk with light and love in my heart and love the delciousness of life for everyday is a pleasure in a new way.

I am protected, loved, cared for and blessed in victory and favor by my gods. I walk in faith and their presence everyday knowing my life has purpose and meaning. I enjoy this life with them for I am apart of them and they are apart of me. I am, they are, we are one.





Do you trust your gods?



The sceond mystery of invoking your power. (trusting in your gods)



Trusting mother and father has been a journey on its own for I have felt unworthy of their love. I felt dirty as a child for I was raped by my own father and cast aside by my own mother. Through all of this you have gotten me through it all and I know it was you. It took one baby step at a time for me and you saw it. Your love showed me not to be afraid of what I feel and not to punish myself in which I have found your love to be perfectly set for me. You healed me and still heal me and I know this. I love you both with all my heart no matter how I celebrate life. The seasons and more. You cleansed me of the hate, the pain, and hurt and filled it with love. Henceforth why I can love again and again as though it is the first time. I know from your love that it is endless and surpasses human understanding. I understand why I perfer to be alone rather than try to explain to someone of my life. For it is in you that I find harmony and balance and peace of mind. It is wonderful day and night. I See things others donot see, I hear things that others do not hear, I know that I am growing daily in your love for I see a whole new world with you in it.

The universe ,the endless stars, donot shed light on what I say but I know one day someone will understand what I say and love it fully as much as I do and dance together in life itself. I enjoy it to the fullest and thank you and honor daily with the candles and or incense or offerings that I do give. For it is not about me living life. It is about feeling it and living it daily and I love that feeling knowing that I am who I am and adored by you as a whole.

I trust in you and I know in my heart that with out you I would not be walking, without you I would not get through the drama I go through and most of all at the end of the day when all is said and done. I know it was you who lifted me up from the ick of everyday life. So the question that was ask is do I trust you? Yes with all my heart and no one can see or feel it like I for I am unique as they are.



provokes the question do you challenge yourself?



Moon

A new light

A new joy

A new illumination

Walking the road with Jesus

He raised us up

We are tabernacles of god

And angels surround us daily

Walking in joy, peace, and new light

Mary reveal what you want to me to do

From this day on

Holy spirit guide me

Thank you father god to healing me, bringing me peace, bring me peace and prosperity and the joy of the lord.

Thank you for al your promises

And bringing that heaven with us on earth

Bless me bless me with provision

Thank you for your presence

Glory walk in it everyday

Thank you for walking in glory favor and your love daily!



The heir of all things we are joint heirs with Jesus.

We are all apart of the blessing. Prospering in God is part of the blessing..

Hebrews 1:1-3

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ladySnowStrixx
00:27 Nov 06 2009

very nice , even if I am pagan

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Red candle

dragon's blood oil brown piece of paper

write what you need help with on the paper and place underneath the candle holder

annoint the red candle with draon's blood oil

say

dragon of air jinx removing

my life is always improving

dragon of earth powerful protection from enemy forces

my life is fille with abundant resources

dragon of water powerful uncrossing and hex

bring forth divine love and great sex

dragon of fire breaker of all harmful forces and deeds

a circle of protection around me and all that may bleed

thank you dragons for dancing with me

as your will so mote it be