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To find someone who could listen to her,she is alone as she can not explain to the ones she loves what is going on all around her.she feels trapped,confused,lonly unable to find someone like her to speak her inner demons with.





The demons that's been following her since the day she turned 18,no longer can she be protected,she is weak and vunerable.Her friend's has left her as she feels cold,sad,alone,unable to fight the thing's that has been going on for centeries,she try's to find who she really is but lost faith in herself as she gives up,a day where evil is ridden to rise up against her when



the time is right to get her,but screaming crying wolf and not believing her,her life will end in tragic as she waits for them to come to her,to turn her from good to dark as she gives up hope to the darkness as she forgets her duty to the lord.



Her soul wonder's aimlessly around the world without being unprotected,she gives in way ato easly

In my heart i know it's breaking,



Unable to breath i slowly suffer,



knowing that you're close to death,



I can't believe its truly happening,



You held this seacreate in for so long,



You hid it so we'll but told other's,



i feel like such an ass for leaving you when you finaly told me the truth,



I didn't want to believe at first when i first saw ur status,



I didn't want to believe it that you were....dying



I try to be mean and cruel to you but i couldn't,



I wanted to hit you for lying to me that you were dying,



I wanted to cry out of anger and hate that you were dying,



On the day of my birthday you bring me such news,



it was suppose to be a happy day to for me as i held it in,



I had loved you as you broke my heart and found somebody knew,



I can't comfort you or hold you to tell you it will be ok,



knowing she is in your arms,breaks my heart to see you in another's one arms,



I cry almost every night due to that fact that your dying and how selfish i was of hatting you all these times in your time of need,i can feel u suffering pain, wishing we could be together again as my heart is hurtting i cry and wait for you....





I had loved you as you had loved me,but what to do now i do not know.all i know is i had loved you and that you are dying......

It's been a month since we've spoken...

it's been a month that i haven't heard from you....

knowing that we can't speak to each other is killing me,in some what way's,i feel you around me,holding me letting me know you'r here,but...it's not the same without you.It's not the same as we once were together,i try and try to forget you,but ail miserably as i watch myself still suffer as i hide everything in.it's not the same without you around,my heart still feel's broken as you once promised me you 'll never leave me...and in the end,we were torn apart...once more i wish to speak to you,,hold you,see you'r face...people do so much damagned to us i wonder how you are,how you'r feeling with out me by your side,as i can not move on with out you,i'am drowning in self pity as i remember the time's we've used to spent together,how there coming back and taninging me,making me cry,making me wanting you again.I can't believe this has finaly happend,how we can never speak to one another,i can't imanged life without you







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She sit's on her couch,her right leg proped up her other laying on the couch.she sighs deeply as she remember's being loved once,she had loved once,she hope once,after learning what happend to her true love,her only love whom's been there or here throu the year,she learn's to never love again,as it is seacreate and forbidden to tell and explain without word's of wisdom of being hurt from others,she keep's it all in side of her.One day,due in time,she will explode with thought's of him and only him,a wish to a wish of being near him,holding him,kissing him,she is forever alone in the world.Never ending pain of saddness as she holds it in,tear's run dry as she crys from in side,hoping,praying,a sighn,of him returning to her is wishful thinking.her heart break's from day to day as she suffer's from thinking of him as she trys' to slowly stops to remember him,but unable too.No matter what she try's,he is alway's in the back of her mind.

It was destin for us to be together,but,the day's has past an still no answer from him.My heart is still broken as he would had promise he'd never leave me.Still from this day,i still think of him.My heart,my soul,my mind,body,i will alway's be there for him to let him know that i'am still here,still loving him everyday as i did when we first met.Being hidding in the darkness,crying in tears almost every night,i hope one day we'll find each other again,being without him being on internet and no other means of way of contact,i'am lost with him

I have sat an waited,waited for the time when this world will come's to its end,beggin for me to help save them all.As i watch my children play,I smile with sadness on my lips.A world of protecting an not enough time.not enough time to complelte my path.all i ever wanted for my children was to grow up normal,not excatly the perfect family.A child who is physic,another still finding out who she is.Hoping an praying my second born is a normal child.I sit an wonder,till the day that it comes,wondering for answer's that held for me,to find out the truth and soul meaning of my job,my life,my real purpose of living.The reason why iam here,for all the reason's I've been chased by demon's and all such as evil and darkness,a man name kyro,kyro who's been taunting me in my dreams,who beat's me senceless for being with other men in the real world,i've delt with so many crule thing's that such a person who shouldn't be dealing with this,so,i ask for answer's,anyone that could be of any help,i be apreshitive of it so very much.Growing up as a normal child,till the day i was 18,i found magic and magic found me,ive studie wiccan for about 7yrs,trying to find out what i've belong to,a better understanding how i got myself into this mess,a mess i wish i did not want to be in,i seek for help as i watch my friend's slowly disapear from there true forms,as they all go back to being mortals an leaving me behind to find and protect thyself an thy children,but when this world will end.....I will be the one who's not the one to save....