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ill drown to death in this tunnel under
the water presses ever closer
i awake with air in my lungs
it appears that we never
these drowning lessons never stick
will i always be this sick?

my dreams are not dreams
i bleed through realities
when the body sleeps

i keep falling
and falling
and falling
and falling
"you would have burned if this were a real fire"
and falling
and falling
and falling
"you would have burned if this were a real fire"

“hey!” a fragile voice screams

the lady in white begs me to follow
“just go to the woods, darling
i’ll take care of you, i promise
you can put your trust in me”

a blurry mass of words suffocates

her hand outstretched as i shiver
“come on, sweetie
just lie down in the river
and lie down slowly please”

a world of silence and white precedes this delusion
panic spilling through and paralyzing
there’s no way in hell this’s an illusion
i just need to get up get out get out

a man appears above my bed
asks if i’m aware i’m dead
(are you aware you’re dead?)
he reaches for my face and stabs
his talons through my skull

“hey!” i think she wants to help

“please tell me who you are” i beg
“are you here to save me? do you care?”
i cannot see, her voice was grey
a silent pause "are you still there?"

they grow louder, unsure and contradicting
“go to the river! it won’t hurt”
“you’ll drown, my love, don’t listen please”

figures of white
cross out my eyes
the shadow weeps
he cannot reach me

i sit up
then watch as i lie motionless
get up get up get up
i want to scream
no sound escapes my throat
burning piercing writhing pain
white hot and numbing
sharper than young claws
duller than the thud of a half-beating heart

sometimes when i think about my death
i think about the pain that it could cause
who would weep
who would scream
who would move on with ease
i think about the tragedy of losing someone so close to you
and wonder whether or not i could do that to the ones i love
and i realize that i may not be around to watch the unraveling
because there's no guarantee
that ill be a ghost
a spirit
a whisper in their dreams