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Kontradiction
02:54 May 27 2008

*shivers in fear and tries to hold bladder*

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I know may things that happen in my married life, and some of those things hurt me. I will not say names I will not talk shit. Quite the opsite in fact. I have recently realized that I love someone so much that I know day after day were their heart really lies. I sit here and let myslef be hurt everytime I look in their eyes. I know that when our relationship ends that there will be nothing left of me but a shell of what I once was and that even then that too will wither away, for I love this person so much that when they are gone I'll just die. First with my heart then my passion and finaly m soul; during which my body wastes away. For I would not have the will to go on. Some how this individual compleatly captured me mind body and soul, I love them more than I have ever loved my self, I love myself more through them. Never did I ever think that one day one person would be the death of me, never did I imagine that I'd let it happen, and not fight for my survival. Yet I know my love will be the death of me.

So in the times past I have gotten married. I found out later that I was to lose alot of my support from many diffrent people. Many people have walked away from my life because of my getting married. I would honestly have to say if I knew then what I know now, I would not have changed a thing or done anything diffrently. I started thinking about my past, all the horrible things man put me through, all the things I've done to survive, to kill or be killed. I can honestly say I do not regret a single thing I've ever done in the name of survival. Without my past I would not be who I am today, and therefore I would be diffrent if things had changed. I like who I am and what I've become, and I owe it all to every single horrible thing thats ever happened to me. I am proud to say I have been tortured, and molested, and beaten physcally, mentally and spiritually. And through all of these things I have more heart then most. I have will a very strong one I have stregnth of will of heart and of mind. I am who I am and I bare my scars proudly. For I have conqured and won the battle as well as the war of my life.