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today i feel like shit, depressed like always

but i took my pill hoping it works fast

draining all the things i hate,but not the things i love

god have pitty on me, for my life is about to end

overdosing on pills seem painless........but its not

its far more painful then it is

life doesnt seem to make sense anymore

or is it because im crazy and stupid

unknowing of the life i live before

the stweetness and sorrows have passed

nothing left but a fading soul

do i mean anything at all

questions like these often hunt me

the nightmares are headaches to me

leading me to my demise

but i grown qiuet fond of it

the things i love means nothing to me anymore

so im i a broking soul

bleeding my way to hell

darkness that already consume my soul

but something in my mind is telling me its gonna be alright.........when i know its not

lurking in the darkness and not knowing what to do

my love why did you lied to me

when we said we'd be together ever

lost in love in this unperfect world seem..........senseless

why did you left me in the dark

unknowing that you were cheating on me

wasnt i the one for you

to hold you,protect you when it seems that the world had turn against us

but was it true when you said that you love'd me and that you'll never let me be alone

i was happy with you, you were everything to me

but you turn'd your back

wasnt i loving enough,caring enough for you

but now you lead me to my own demise and

my only question is.......................why?

ashley

the one i fell in love with in the begining of the year of 2005

left me to be by myyself for the rest of my life

she said she didnt want to hurt me

so she left alone in the dark

to watch her walk out of my life

and never saying anything

she broke my heart the day she left

the pain i felt was unbelievable

is this how love was supose to be painful

im still in the dark hoping that one day she'll come back into my arms and not in the ground

the skys darken where ever i go and every time i walk in the light the black clouds are my only protection against it when i step into the light i can only feel the pain and suffering that they have aflected upon me but now that the sun is blocked your going to feel my pain and sufferings that i kepted in for so long

the way i am is the way i should be. the way it will be . it is my choice, my life my will . so accept me for who i am and not what i may not be. so dont change me and accept me for who i am

when i walk in the light i only bring darkness to the skys in the realm i live. day by day my hatred for this world only gets stronger. god dispites me because im not created in his glory. so let it be im doom for ever. so it is the darkness i live in and not in the light.