A love-hate relationship...
23:54 Jan 28 2007
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Once again I have a decision...to hand in two weeks notice or not...
I really love my work..at times. And other times, I want to quit on the spot.
Take last night for example. I hadthe most wonderful examples of both extremes last night.
I had to work my regular shift, from 10:30 PM to 3:30 AM. No biggie. When I was going to take a nap before work, I got a call from my boyfriend, and we talked for a couple hours which was so awesome. I went into my work, and there is a strange girl working there. And she looks like a filthy hippy. Long dirty dreadlocks, hippy clothes, and on each arm she had these tattoos that were part tattoo, part brand marks. And she was the most unproffessional person I have ever worked with. Needless to say, I was not overly happy about having to work with her.
I start shift, and the only thing she says to me in the first hour is, "this this and this need to be cleaned. Now."
Ok. I cleaned the entire backroom, bathroom, and I always end up cleaning the front at closing every Friday, so as far as I am concerned, I am done cleaning for the weekend. So I say, "Ah. mm." and shrug.
At this point, one of my friends walked in and stole me outside. Thank God. If she had said anything else to m e, I would ave quit on the spot. And I don' think I am overreacting. I don't take orders from people who stink of old pot and no ethics. *twtch*
Anyways, the niht progressed, and it actually went really well. I didn't talk at all to Tannis, and I saw a bunch of my regulars that were happy to see me.
But then, at about 10 minutes to closing, these two guys came in and ordered food then proceeded to ask me for my number, what i was doing after work, if I wanted to go out for drinks (at 4 in the mrning? yeah right). Anyways, they were very sharp as far as drunk people go, and they were entertaining, but by the end, I was so happy that they were gone. I know I could handle myself if a belligerent drunk asshole came in and started causing trouble, but I cannot handle myself against guys who want to flirt constantly. And they didn't even tip very well. F***.
Ok. I am tired. Time to sleepies...I was supposed to go see a movie, but my movie date got called into work. So that isn't happening today *cry*
And I miss my boyfriend. I wanted to go see him during my reading week break from school, but I can't afford it. Shyte.
G'nite.
iBlue08:07 Jan 18 2007
Times Read: 548
I am lonely. My boyfriend is in the next province over, and I have no idea when I am going to get to see him again, and I mis him so much. Sleeping by myself is so incredibly hard, because I got used to waking up and seeing his form lying next to mine. It isn't even about me missing the sex (though that is part of it). I just miss him. I want to be with him all the time, and I can't, because he has to work and I have to be in school.
I don't know. This is as close to a cry for help as I am going to give out, and I am making sure it is on the website he doesn't know my nickname or even that I am part of it. I am so scared that if he found out how bad I missed him, he would start worrying about me, and I don't want him to worry.
But I can't help it. I am so scared I am going to start crying when I talk to him on the phone...
Shit. I am out of control. For the first time I am out of control...And I don't know if I like it very much...
yeah...
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