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Underneath This World
11:10 Feb 10 2005
Times Read: 598

Underneath this world

All faith has fallen

Decayed hope, this fear always creeping

Lying dead here in this dark, forever falling



Underneath this world

The stars have fallen

Decayed memories, return never-ending

The passage of time never healing



Underneath this world

The dusk has fallen

Decayed shadows, patterned obsessions spinning

They call to her in the darkness of her dreaming



Underneath this world

The night has fallen

Decayed elegance lies softly screaming

In the darkness she is drowning.

Time Storm
10:38 Feb 10 2005
Times Read: 600




The storm rises,

Stinging against the sorrow,

Pouring from her veins.

As she weeps

For the innocence

Raped by her youth

The grains of sand fall as time

Through her fingers

All her dreams faded

Like fallen stars

Left, exhausted in darkness

Out of reach beyond reality

On her knees crawling

Blinded by the storm of time

Hunting searching chasing

A memory, time erased

Lost to the screaming

With every last strength

She falls against the storm

Through times past, times forgotten

She searches

For the beginning of the time she lost

Shadow's Fight
10:36 Feb 10 2005
Times Read: 601

She can feel the shadows

Falling around her

Their sour sticky breathe

Soaking through her skin

As they fall through the darkness

Deep in her mind she turns for escape

Her body seizing under their weight

Her mind running further begins to take flight.



There she hides in the deep recesses of her mind

Lullaby’s and candy clouds dreaming

To cover the silence of her body screaming

The shadows angry stabbing

Brings her back to life

She must obey the darkness

On her knees

Begging for love and forgiveness



Dragging her down

Deeper under

The shadows sting

Across her face

She must swallow the darkness

Allow that shadows in

As far as they will go

Infecting the innocence

Under her skin



She can no longer hide

She’s along for the ride

They will play with her til dawn

When the morning light calls

Until then, she knows the pain will come

Blood falls, once again to the floor

To the darkness she begs

But the shadows still rule



Vicious and nasty

They tare at her dress

Deep into the skin

Once there they will rest

A little rag doll

She crawls to the light

They drag her back in

To start another flight

And once again her mind takes flight.

I was Eight
08:41 Feb 09 2005
Times Read: 608

I decided that I wanted to die today

Leave this world and float away

I sat on the window ledge

Wrote a note to my mom and this is what it said:



Dear mama,

I cannot undo what I have done

I just don’t have the strength to run

Please do not blame yourself

There were no choices left

I could not fight the monsters in my head

And the shadow men just wont leave me in my bed

I’m sorry I could not stay

God ignored me when I would pray

Some people just aren’t meant to breathe

This is way I had to leave

Please mommy, please don’t cry

It was my choice I wanted to die.

Ill love you forever, please don’t forget

I left this life, with hope, not regret



Then I signed it with my name

signaling the end of this tragic game

I slide it under her bedroom door

and sat cross-legged on the floor.

Gently pulled my daddy’s gun to my head

closed my eyes tight, happy now im dead.

Happy Birthday
08:38 Feb 09 2005
Times Read: 609

Today I will be five

Im little and alive

Tonight the shadows loving

Will separate me and the living



Today I will be six

A party with candy and tricks

Tonight I will be breathing

My body painfully screaming



Today I will be seven

I wish that I were in heaven

Tonight I will be pretending

The shadows are part of my dreaming



Today I will be eight

I wish I could stay up late

Tonight I know there coming

I can hear their merry singing



Today I will be nine

The blood falls in a funny line

Tonight I will be dying

I can hear the shadows crying

Mama
08:37 Feb 09 2005
Times Read: 610

I thought I was going to die

When you left me here without the strength for goodbye

Should have known that something wasn’t right

When they stopped me seeing you

Locked you away in that tiny room

I thought there would be no end to my night

Waiting for you outside, watching the light in your window

Willing you to the door, but you never came

What was I suppose to do, you were mine

Early morning came and went

But there were no signs

Sitting there outside your door

Waiting for the sound of your cries

But all there was the man on the radio

Playing the songs that reminded me of you

I wanted to shout go ahead and look inside

But something stopped me in my mind

Days turned to nights and then someone came

Slowly she held me to her face,

Whispered slowly, its okay dear

But I knew it wasn’t I couldn’t leave without you

I ran to your door, you were there

Lying on the bed, cold, I tried

I tried to make you warm but I was too small

She took me by the hand and we left you on your own

I hope you weren’t scared mama

She said that god took you, but I saw you there

I miss you everyday I wanted to say goodbye

I didn’t even get to try.

Cruelity Of An Animal
08:34 Feb 09 2005
Times Read: 611

Back her up against the wall

With her fingernails she claws

Weak wounded animal

She whimpers in the darkness

Her innocent eyes betrayed by fear

As she begins to shed a tear

She opens her mouth to pled

Her veins screaming in pain

Her mind racing

What if? Could she?

Escape

To late

The hunters see her

She crumples in fright

Her screams

Fade in to the night

Her strength betrayed

As they bind her

Teasing there pray

Rough skin

Smothering her flesh

Exposed

Humiliated

Bound with a collar and chain

They take there turn

Circus tricks

Dancing bears

Play the clown

In circles she turns

Beg like a dog on the ground

Whip her and beat her

Whip and thrash her

Blind she dances

Forcing her to the floor

The make her beg for more

I need you

I want you

I love you she whispers

Obeying their commands

She complies with their demands

The fire burns

As the warmth of her blood

Meets her skin

The damage is done

She knows it’s to late to run

Limbo
08:32 Feb 09 2005
Times Read: 612

There’s something wrong with her in her head

The voices scream and she wishes she were dead

She doesn’t want to be this way

But she cant breath she has nothing to say



She never asked for this

The craziness, her life, this is all there is?

She’s been fighting them her whole life

Kicking and screaming and cutting herself with a knife



They **** her and ***** her and took her soul

And now everything around is nothing but cold

She wishes and wishes that it was a different way

But she has no control over what they do or say



She drinks her poison morning noon and night

Praying for the day she would give up the fight

Her pride is strong and makes her stay

But her strength is tired and doesn’t want to play



She’s angry with herself for letting them do what they did

The memories play, round and round dirty and sordid

Living in a world where no one sees

Only in crimson rivers does she believe.



So in this world she continues to exist

Surrounded by depression, clouded in a mist

Lost in a limbo, between happiness and death

Determined to survive

But to dead to be alive