Fuckedie,fuck fuck,fuckatash..... Well it seems I'm on Vampire Rave for a little bit longer because I have nothing else to do and I think the best when I'm writing. Well happy New Years to everyone on Vampire Rave,I'm saying it early in case I'm not on tomorrow to say it. Shit, another new years eve where I'm just sitting at home with nothing to do and no booze to drink,of course there will be some idiots drinking and driving on new years, I lost a friend in a drunk driving accident so I say this full heartedly: please think before drinking and driving,it's not worth it,it's not worth the loss of life or any other outcome.anyway,I will be writing three more journal entries before I disappear off of Vampire Rave for a little, then soon or later I'll pop back up again.
Merry Christmas Eve to everyone on Vampire Rave, I hope everyone has a safe and Merry Christmas tomorrow.
Well,with Christmas being only 7 days away, I'm tidieing up stuff on here before I go black on social media,this site included. My life has been off track since 1997, I've been on a dangerous ride of self destruction since I was born,I've basically been trying to kill myself since I was nine years old. But something has got to give,I've got to get my life straightened out,I've got to fix the broken me. I can't continue living the way I have been, I must transform myself into the person I don't want to be but I have to be.theres another side of me that I keep hidden , another personality that I keep locked up,it's about time I let it out to play, I try to not be that person but now I have no choice, it's ride or die for me. I'll be of for a good while while I'm trying to transform myself, hopefully I succeed in changing my life for the better.
Well damn,I haven't been on here in a good long while,it seems kinda dead on vampire rave.I almost forgot about this website all together,I've just been real busy in my personal life to even get on here anymore.Well,I hope everyone had a happy thanksgiving and I hope everyone is having a wonderful holiday and because I probably won't be on here during that time I hope everyone on VampireRave has a merry Christmas and a happy new year.Its hard to believe I turned 30 years old last month,I been alive for 30 years,I never thought I'd live this far,well heres to making to 40 if I can.Nothing has changed in my life,I'm still battling depression and diabetes,my nephews cancer has gotten worse,I went back to the mental hospital in October for trying to kill myself again,its just one of them never ending cycles,somedays I'm content with life and other days I'm just barely getting by.Sometimes I wonder about the mysteries of life and somedays I just don't give a flying fuck about anything.One thing is for sure: I have to get my life together,I plan on going dark and just stop using social media for a while,I don't plan on getting back on until I have made aa transformation in my life.