I received the stylus today :). It's now charging. It's a day I really need to be happy... so I overjoyed.
ALSO, drunk off my ass.
And so... when the new stylus comes in the mail I shall be trying my hand at some drawing lessons and learning Procreate. I really need to take this plunge. I want to do something that makes me happy and feel accomplished in a new and different way.
That sounds really exciting! I look forward to hearing more about this adventure!
I want to work so hard and do so well. There’s something I wanna draw for someone and I don’t know if I’m going to gain the skill necessary in time, but this one instructor I am looking at seems to be able to teach very well. And as long as I put in the effort… I think I might be able to do what I want to do. I want to be able to draw in general, but specifically I want to draw something for a friend of mine who is retiring from the military. And it would be a very special piece of artwork.
I'm just looking forward to continually improving.
I have things in the works- stuff that takes time - I am putting all my efforts and mindfulness into believing all will work in my favor.
Today is a shit day- too hot plus lawn maintenance all over the place blowing grass everywhere in military housing where I live. So yeah, that's how to screw my day up- ensure I cannot exercise the way I need to for my best mental health.
Days like that where a treadmill would be nice, right? Not the same experience but a last resort substitute. I feel like I would exercise more if I had one simply because I do not do heat.... I would rather walk in the cold any day.
I have a treadmill and it is zero replacement. What I need is to be outside. Personally- I have dealt with 6 months of being homebound- not leaving my house at all due to side effects of medications. I need to be out of here.
Hate to bitch about the same things all the time... but man, I hate our weather here in NOLA :(
I was still able to squeeze in 5 miles, and kept the strength against the heat with the help of a trusty caffeine pill. Tonight I will get another 5 out there or ride 5 on my indoor recumbent bike. I'd just rather be outside.
Got 5 more miles in outside :D
I know its miserable here and I KNOW it is hotter there... I can not even imagine! You are a stronger woman than I that is for sure!
I am giving it 100%. I am determined.
I can't wait until I am not longer pissed off at the New Orleans weather. This time of year is just the worst down here. Either constant rain or insufferable heat. If your plan is outdoor exercise- this place will fuck you over for several months straight.
Just picked up my dog from the vet- he got neutered today. He's so pitiful :( Has to wear a cone for 10 days. Well, I got him this very comfy inflatable travel pillow-like one for dogs that works the same way. I can't wait for him to feel better and be all healed up.
I am not good for people right now. I am not a reliable friend at this time. I am doing what I can to get by after a period of great darkness. I'm going through the motions and just doing my best each day... I'll get better, but it's not where I am right now. Don't count on me for anything that regards emotions. I am trying to persevere with my own.
Emotions can be hightened or void when you are in a dark place. That darkness consumes you and draws you into a void where you feel like your the only one in a world others cant comprehend. You feel this disconnect from things that used to make you feel alive and thriving now it seems like a duty to even get up in the morning. The reality is you are in a world only you can escape, there is always path lit for you if you chose to see it.
I have walked a path into my own hell, only to be told I don't belong THERE. Familiar voices will come within signs to bring you strength to keep going forward but never look back, you will find your way home.
I am hear to lend an ear if you ever need it. hugs
Today is my 9th day on a keto diet. I have not cheated. I am actually doing "dirty keto/lazy keto"- not counting macros and crap... just not eating carbs or sugar... no processed foods :) It still works. I feel great. I doubted I'd stick with this at first, but now? I can see this being a complete lifestyle change. Not that I won't someday eat a dessert or something with bread/pasta/rice/whatever - but it won't be a reintroduction to my routine. I am appreciating the positive changes too much.
Just feels great to not even crave those things.
I love to pipe dream. Now, if only I would become a millionaire so I could make them true.