Facts about Me07:29 Oct 05 2015
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A lot of people tell me to be more open, so I could at some point feel comfortable of being "me" in front of other people. I have been trying that for a long time, and about 98% of the time i have lost the ones i have been "me" with. I'm not going to rant about how "i'm different","nobody likes me", "no one can accept me for who I really am cos i'm just an outcast rebellious little emo bitch". But in a nut shell, yes, I am a bit different.
I'm choosing to explain who I am the best I can without coming off to be just like everyone else when they say "I'm different so you won't like me". I just want to eliminate the handful of idiots on here that think they can talk to me any way they want even though I ask them not to in more ways than one. I'm also pretty curious as to how many people will read this and take it all into consideration.
SO, lets see. People are constantly asking the same question, be it on a website or a stranger you meet on the streets, "tell me a little about yourself". How do you do that? I honestly don't know how to just describe myself without any specific questions, tell me what you are really interested in knowing, it will save us a lot of time.
I come off as friendly, and I am, but I can also be a raging bitch, and I am very proud to admit it, I don't give in into any so called "temptation" when people are trying to be snarky or seducer to and towards me. I don't have very many actual friends for a reason. I've driven most away and i've eliminated the ones that lack any respect for me.
Like I stated in my bio on my page, "I am Numb but overly emotional. Picky but easily copacetic. Cold but caring. Careless but willing to help". Those are all true. I am a very numb human being, most times I lack a lot of emotion. Unless its anger or depression. I have been broken many times in my past, which has helped me become more numb than how I was when I was just a child. I am also very picky, about everything, but I do know how to cope, if I find it to be worth coping for. For the ones i DO love, I care to the point of where it hurts, which can be seen as a downfall, on my part, but it really isn't anymore, I mite care to where I would give my life for that person, but screw me over once and I will drop the friendship/relationship as quickly as it takes to blink your eye, and I won't have any emotion about it. So that would probably make me sound careless, no, just smart.
To me love used to be a useless emotion, just something chemical, something people did to not be alone. And most of my past lovers have shown me that it basically is just that. Which is why I say that I am emotionally and mentally unavailable. But I also do have someone in my life, and even though I question love, I'm not stupid, I won't go out of my way to ruin it. But even friendship wise, I will only become friends with people who I feel is worth my time, I don't like wasting my time on people. Especially ones that are just out to shit talk with me. I don't benefit from things like that.
I have my limits, I do have buttons that can be triggered, I have ruined people for a while just by my words alone, I really do not like to be fucked with, or lied to. I go off very easily, but I'm pretty classy about it. We could know each other 5 mins or 5 years, do me or someone I love wrong, I will not hesitate, that also goes for physically, I have never lost a fight.
I'm not saying any of this because I think I'm "hot shit", but people always think i'm so nice and sweet and wonderful, and then something happens and then I'm the worst person they could have ever met. I'm simply throwing out there that yes, i am nice, but i know how to shut off that niceness. And if any one wants to be friends with me, I just don't and won't tolerate certain things, and yes I do have an attitude.
Any "personal" things any one wants to know about, i'm more than willing to answer, personally. I'm open, but I don't throw my entire life story into one bio box for the world to know. I came back here (so yes, this is NOT my first account here), to meet people, make friends, chit chat, I enjoy good meaningful conversation. And i'm always willing to help and or listen to anything. But don't take my generosity and abuse it.
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TheVampyreNico
18:20 Oct 27 2015
I have read this and agree on your standards. I respect you as a person. An nothing will change that no matter what. I hope you enjoy it here. God knows I have. lol your friend Lord Nico
LeMaitre
08:45 Apr 04 2016
Well said and it is not hard to understand if someone is really reading this.