I turned down a job offer today to wait on the official offer from the job I do want. A part of me of is wondering if this is a big mistake. What if the company that selected me never makes the official offer? Can they do that? Call me and tell me I have the job, but never send out the official employment application. At the very least, I know the retail store will take me back. But that's not at all what I want.
Tomorrow is my last day at the retail store. Is it weird I feel attached to my co-workers there after this short time? I am going to miss them.
I GOT THE JOB! MY DREAM JOB! I'm officially a scientist! Heck yes! It's going to take 2 to 8 months for HR to onboard me, but I can wait. I won't put in my 2 weeks notice at the retail store just yet. Speaking of the retail store, I've only been there a month and they are promoting me to assistant manager. I feel kind of bad I plan on leaving soon, but I have to follow my dreams (and the money). Obviously, I would want to enjoy the work I'm doing, but a fat paycheck would be nice. Something I never had before. I can get my own place, replace my cell phone that's on the last of it's 9 lives, and start really saving for retirement and future travels. I am on top of the world!
These rounds of interviews had me feeling like I wasn't good enough for anything. Now I feel like my education and experiences have been recognized. So I guess, to anyone reading this, don't give up. I've been chasing this dream job since...I want to say 2011. A long time, okay?
Went shopping for an interview outfit. And then another outfit to wear once I get a new job. Is this how manifestation works?
Two interviews today. One in-person interview Wednesday. One interview Friday.
And one job is currently reviewing my references "in anticipation of an offer."
Sooooo....all in all, I'm feeling pretty good.
I got a job offer pending a successful reference check.
So the job saga is continuing on with 2 more interviews scheduled for next week and 2 rejections from prior interviews. It's getting tougher and tougher to deny the feelings of "not good enough." I acquired a part time job, but it's more labor than I'm used too. My feet are in a constant state of sore. I bought new shoes, athletic compression socks, and take an Aleve before each shift. When I am at work, I time moves slower, and I count the hours until I can leave again. I straighten rows of toothpaste that become disarray within a matter of minutes by someone's unruly child who doesn't understand the words "no." I take things from shelf to shelf, restoring order in the wake of chaos. Then I enter a mad sprint to the front of the store because someone screwed up the self-checkout again, and I'm the only cashier on duty. Then I come home, shower, and go to bed...and fight the will to just never leave the bed again. Because if someone asks me where the moth balls are again, I'm going to pull out my hair. We don't sell moth balls. This is not the hardware store. I am not cut out for retail.
On the bright side, I'm getting interviews for places I want to work for, so maybe it's a matter of time?