I am well aware that a great deal of pathworking spellcrafting and curses have been done around me or been sent my way & I have battled many who have attempted to make me in to their nonconsensual sex toy (quite literally).
Hell I was once in a gymnasium full of people but very few people were around me. I noticed someone just kind of appear out of thin air and when they noticed I saw them they backed up a couple steps and vanished. I knew the person well at least I thought I did. It became obvious to me that she had crossed a boundary of some sort which is why I saw her appear and when she backed up she crossed back over the boundary so I couldn't see her.
I don't really care anymore if they don't want me in their reality because they have made it abundantly clear that they don't unless it benefits them in some way. Unfortuantely so many use an increase to the balance of their bank account as a way to judge someone of somethings intrinsic value.
I've been banished more than once and after I rebuild there are those who think they can come in and take or do whatever they want. Often times my Journal entries or what I have recently published is a reflection of my banishment or battles with those who signed the banishment pact.
Anyway this is sort of old history & it's repetitve.
It's kind of like a vengeful Ouroboros if that is even a thing .
Drop the b-f-in-s & show yourselves!!!
Yesterday was a very strange day. I reached the part of a repeating story in which I am told someone close to me takes their own life. The thing about this story is that whoever wrote it wants it to be real but it isn't. I have experienced this repeating story at least 5 times. It's literally as if whoever wrote it is trying to replace reality with their version of it.
There are very specific words for what is occuring.
The first time I experienced this repetitive story attempting to replace reality I became extremely angry because of what it was causing to happen on more subtle levels. You might not see the actors including the bad actors but you know they are playing their parts. I also became extremely aware of individuals attempting to influence my thoughts and the more they tried to influence me the angrier I became. Eventually it all seemed to stop.
I thought it was over but sometime later I began hearing whispers and the whispers were talking about details of the story. Suddenly it was as if the story was attempting to replace reality again. Imagine a recurring nightmare of someone elses design and they want to make you a permanent resident within it and thats basically what is going on.
I'm really not sure if others notice the shift when this story begins attempting to replace reality but I do and I definitley notice how the manifestation of the story influences the people around me.
Again, I have been through the repetitive cycle of this story at least 5 times.
The absurdity of the 1-sided contract revealed itself like a horror story crafted by Kafka & Lovecraft during a particularly twisted game night.