00:59 Jan 13 2025
Times Read: 50
I haven't been on Fallout in... 3 weeks. I haven't turned my PS5 on in 3 weeks. I don't think I even remember how to play. I'm going to get back on, and everyone is going to be soloing Raids, and I'm still on the fucking sentry bot💀
When you're in the hospital for a week it feels like a year. I've been in the hospital three times within the last two months. So I feel like I've lost the last five years of my life. The good news is that I'm actually very healthy despite how it sounds xD I survived sepsis, and covid one after the other, and my organs are clean. My creatinine is at a 3.5 which is low for me, down from a 7. So actually, wide scope, I'm miraculously pretty good~
Now I'm just waiting for this rash to clear off completely which is pretty much down to my ankles. It's weird because it's not really itchy or painful, it's just the peeling constantly, and the more it peels the better I feel. It's interesting that even the hospital didn't really know how to handle it. I'm a medical mystery, what can I say. I'm definitely not human xD To put this into perspective... my parents, oldest sister, brother, and all their kids also got covid from the trip, all got the same nornal respiratory symptoms, all are over it now, totally fine. I'm the only one with Scarlet Rot, no respiratory symptoms, covid positive though. What the fuck is wrong with me?
22:06 Jan 04 2025
Times Read: 299
It feels like there are great nurses, and awful nurses, no in-between. Like that obviously enjoy helping people or they seem to resent your existence as their patient. While I was in the ER I got Big Baldy as a nurse, and he was just plain mean. I understand that it's protocol to not give patients any liquid when they're in the ER in case of surgery. But ya know... when I've been there 7+ hours without a drink, are you really gonna fucking tackle me if I lunge for the sink?
I believe he would have xD
Plus, getting into an altercation would have been foolish because there were about 10 cops outside of my door. They wheeled up some Hannibal Lecter lookin bitch, screaming her head off. The ER was packed, no fucking wonder with 7+ hour waiting times, so they parked her right outside of my room with heavy security. So... punching a nurse would probably also get me face-masked, especially just for doing his job. I get that. I'm usually the favorite patient of most nurses, very low maintenance, but thirst leads me to delusion very quickly. They mentioned sending me home today, but I think that's off the table. I'm stable enough, they did three different scans on my lungs that all showed perfect. Isn't it strange how a virus can manifest so differently in people? Some it kills, some it gives life-long breathing problems to, some it simply makes them look like they have the plague. I guess out of the three a week or two covered in spots is getting off easiest. I'm pretty sure I got it on vacation, I noticed my face had started to break out probably around Christmas so it's possible I've already had this manifesting over a week now. Everyone was coughing on the way home so I'd say we all had it at some point. Turns out going on a 2000+ mile road trip a week after getting out of the hospital was... well, it was just bad timing, but it was a year already planned. I could've not gone, but the kids would've been disappointed, and with my health the way it is... it's better to spend the time I can with them. I feel bad for my parents, all their children are struggling right now. My brother is massively in debt/on the verge of losing everything, my oldest sister's kidd are sending her pictures of their dad's empty refrigerator because he refuses to buy them food, and my other sister, who has always been their golden child, well... On the way home she called my parents, and announced that she's done with Texas, and is moving home which is great because no body wanted her to move two years ago in the first place, everyone told her she'd regret it. Awesome news, we're getting her, and my 14 year old nephew back. However.... she calls our mother the next day to... get into a little more detail about what's happening. About how horrible her marriage has been, how she told her husband she's moving back with or without him, and most shockingly how my 100% pure vanilla, white bread, picket fence, perfect sister has been having an affair. She's been seeing a guy in town every time she's come up to visit us. Now... she says it's depression, and trust me I know, depression can definitely cause you to do things you would never normally do, and you have to understand... she moved to Texas because it's what her husband wanted, and she was trying to support him, and his happiness because that's the person she is. You wouldn't think that with the cheating, and all, but like I said, that's shocking, that's extremely out if character for her. But when he moved them to Texas he took her, and their child 1000+ miles away from their entire family, and support system. And this scumbag, because don't feel bad for her husband he is absolutely a scumbag, straight up blamed my mom for not feeling like a part of the family. Told her to her face he can't be himself around us because she in particular is too sensitive. My mother is the kindest person in the world so... And my brother-in-law in an inconsiderate, loudmouth, foul jackass who we merely tolerate for my sister's sake. My mother is the least of why he's not welcome, but no one has gone out of their way to make him feel that way except my brother. And apparently, while I've been laid up, said jackass called my brother, and they're all made up now because he's trying to keep his wife. Smart move on his part. She can do better, he can't.
And then there's me, and we already know how that goes. So yeah. I feel bad for my parents xD I don't know how they handle it💀
01:18 Jan 04 2025
Times Read: 340
Well. Apparently the Scarlet Rot I have crawling across my body is a rare side effect of covid. Because of course when I get the side effects, it's the rarest most pain in the ass ones. Hey, at least I don't have covid toes because that's a thing. As far as covid, I'm actually getting off pretty easy. My lungs are completely clear, no trouble breathing, not a single breathing treatment. I have a cough, but it's pretty light. Actually, the main symptom of it, for me, seems to be this rash. So I guess that's probably better than not being able to breathe. I think we all just need to accept that this body does not belong on this planet. My entire life it has tried to destroy me. There's a point where it's like, just do it, you fucking bitch, come on, I want you to, hit me xD I must have done something... catastrophic in another life to deserve this kinda karma💀
03:25 Jan 02 2025
Times Read: 392
Well so far 2025 can kiss my ass. Back in the hospital. Not for my kidney though. In fact, my creatinine IA down to 4 from 7 since I restarted the immunosuppressants. Still high, but better than it was. No, covid finally caught me. Imagine, I go back on the immunosuppressants, almost immediately get covid after years of evading it... That's why they admitted me, covid + weakened immune system, probably keep me two weeks. I'm also having a severe allergic reaction to... something. Let's just say, I'm covered in spots. And I've had chicken pox so they don't really know what it is. Very comforting to hear from your doctor that they have no idea what freak thing is wrong with you.
But hey. Kidney is good.
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CuRsEdToDaRkNeSs
03:31 Jan 13 2025
Yeh, I have seen this issue a few times from a specific member. I'll go rate you again and have a couple others so it will fix your profile back to normal. :)
Cadrewolf2
03:58 Jan 13 2025
Sorry