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Reflections in the sun...

04:11 Oct 26 2008
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It doesn't take much these days to make me reflect on life.


Wasted days - wasted years...


Perhaps it is a bit unfair to others in my life to look at the time as wasted. Perhaps that is the wrong word. Maybe.. misdirected is a better term.


A lot of good has come out of that time spent. But as I move forward with this next stage I have to keep in mind my goals... what I want.


See, this has been the problem: I've spent too much time and energy worryiing over the happiness of others. Not so much foregoing my own happiness but not prioritizing it either.


How can I expect another to make my happiness a priority if I don't?


I consider this sitting beneath a palm tree near a hotel pool in Ft. Lauderdale. Why is this significant? Because I am here for me. Not for my responsibilities to others. I need to enjoy this time.


Still my thoughts revolve around others. It is a torturous trap. An impossible balance for me.


One I need to learn.


I have to learn it. Like any other habit, my self-defeating behaviors need to stop. The self-persecuting and self-loathing will only end when I can find that balance.


It has to be there, somewhere.


But my question remains...


Where is the balance?


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It all started from Gate 3...

05:07 Oct 16 2008
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...interesting one-day trip to White Plains, NY today...


I discovered finally how to use my cell-phone as an internet link... the irony being I'm all but done travelling...


I re-discovered the pain of car rentals... they gave me a car that smelled like sewage inside. Literally. I thought at first it was the area being New York City and all... but no, it was the car. Had to trade that puppy in.


It was a whirlwind day with a whole lot of boring work in the middle.


Now I get to go back to the politics of the job tomorrow... big time.


When it rains.. it pours.


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Shopping Victoriously

17:51 Oct 03 2008
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Nothing like getting a $6000 piece of hardware for $200.


Go EBAY!


And Morri thinks the current servers are loud... muuuhahahahahahaha!


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BlackTea
BlackTea
18:07 Oct 03 2008

w000t! What did we get?





Morrigon
Morrigon
18:23 Oct 03 2008

You owe me...



Still, you RULE!





birra
birra
19:46 Oct 03 2008

A quad Xeon IBM X-series server.



A year or so old off of corportate lease.



I'll probably have to rent a car to go drive and get it though... $290 to ship it... yikes!



I think the van would make it to Syracuse... I really do...








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