Second weekend in a row where I don't get to see Logan. Am I annoyed? Yes. Very much so. It's really irritating when his ex tries (and in this case successfully) disrupts plans he might have with me by using their daughter. I get so little time with him in person as it is, and to just have another weekend completely thrown away is fucking infuriating.
I could literally spend hours just running around the world of Elden Ring. I get sidetracked so easily. Like, I'll be heading towards where I'm supposed to go and then it's like, materials! Things to kill! What the fuck is that thing over there?! Investigate! And then I find myself way off course because I was off chasing mobs and shit. But, I'm loving it. I honestly have never been the biggest Souls fan, I love the difficulty of them, but I really have to be in a certain mood to sit down and play one. But with Elden Ring, I'm hooked, I absolutely love the game!
Went to the job fair today, and I was there all of five minutes. I turned in my application, and the person I was talking to looked it over real quick, saw that I had worked the tri-tip booth, asked if I'd like to work there again, and then said she would forward my info to Lisa. So, yeah. I just have to wait on Lisa's call now. I'm really hoping she gets in touch sooner rather than later, as last time she left it to the last minute. I'd like to be able to plan things accordingly. So yeah, it's just a waiting game now.
The Ren Faire job fair is tomorrow at 11. I'm pretty stoked about it. Working it for the first time in 2019 was a lot and I don't think I was fully prepared for all of it, but it was also immensely fun and an experience I throughly enjoyed, even if it did mean missing Easter with my family, and nearly missing my nephew's birthday. I'm really hoping I can talk to Lisa, the woman who owns like half the Faire, and see if I can work for her again in the same booth. And if not, maybe I'll go for tickets or try for a drink booth. They make bank on tips. Working it before is a big plus in their eyes, because I know what to expect and how to act. So, I'm really looking forward to it. Hopefully it goes in my favor.
I've only had the chance to play Elden Ring for a little bit yesterday. But holy fuck, what I played has me hooked. This game is gorgeous. I can't wait to immerse myself in the world once again when I get off work today. Logan has his daughter for the weekend, which is perfect for me since he'll be busy with her, I can be busy with the game.
I still haven't finished the campaign for Witch Queen. It's been really slow going since I've been running everything on legendary and running solo, so there's been a lot of dying and restarting. Plus, I just am not in a rush to get through it. I'm not really all that invested. I doubt I'll get much higher than 100 with the season pass. It's just not something I'm concerned with. Destiny has lost its death grip on me. I've gotten so bored with the game. And while Witch Queen adds some things I'm interested in, and has made some good changes with other things, I'm just not all that into it as a whole.
The Witch Queen dropped for Destiny 2 today. I've played only a little bit of it, running all the story missions on the harder difficulty instead of running them on normal then again on legandary. So, it's slower going since I've been running it all solo. But, I'm getting it done. The story is meh, from what I've seen of it. Oh no, the Hive are being baddies again. Go figure. It's nothing new. But, I'm really into the core game changes, Gambit, weapons crafting, and such. It'll make playing fun again, at least for a little while. I'm mostly just waiting on Elden Ring to drop. Logan got it for me, and I'm pretty hyped about playing it. Plus, Chris is getting it as well, so we'll probably team up on game. So far I'm not horribly disappointed with Witch Queen, but I don't think it's enough to keep me invested in the game like I used to be. I think it'll be like playing one or two days a week kind of deal.
It suddenly hit me at 2 in the morning that I should pull my Ren Faire garb out of my closet and see what still works. While everything does still fit and looks good, I realize I only have two skirts, one chemise, and one bodice that is on the cheaper side. I never got a belt or accessories of my own, since I used Donna's the entire run of the 2019 season. So, taking that into account, I was up until 5 looking for appropriate garb to buy. And it struck me that this is something I should have been doing slowly over the last two years. Because Faire season starts in April, and to get everything I need/want, it's going to cost me. A lot. Since I have to do it all in one go as opposed to just buying a piece at a time over the two year period where we had no Faire season due to Covid. But I am clearly not smart. So, here I go, dropping about $600 on some skirts, some tops, a belt, two pouches, and a tankard. I am a fucking idiot.
It's weird not having any plans with Logan this weekend. He managed to get himself sick, and I would rather him take a weekend off to recoup rather than demand that he spend time with me. But, this is the first weekend since we got together that we haven't spent time together. I don't like it. Next weekend he has his daughter, so we'll only have a half day on Sunday after he drops her off at her mom's and the morning on Monday together. It's hard. It's so fucking hard. Plus, since he is sick, we haven't really been talking much. I want him to rest, I want him to take care of himself first and foremost, of course, but I also want to be able to see him, to spend time with him.
There will be a time when we'll be together more, either he'll live closer to me, or we'll just flat out be living together, but that's a long way off. And right now, what little I get with him, it isn't enough.
Just got home from another weekend spent with mi amor. Despite me not being a fan of Valentine's Day, he did take me out to dinner at this cute little Italian place, got us ice cream after, and he got me a dozen beautiful red roses, a box of chocolate, and a little black dragon plushie. So, it's been nice. As usual though, the time went by way too quickly and I find myself back at home, where it will be a week until I can see him again.
Also, we didn't watch the Superbowl, as neither of us gives a shit about sports, but we knew LA won immediately. The thing about Hidden Hills is since it's an entire city that's gated and really off-limits to people who don't live there, they don't have their own police department. They pay the LA County Sheriff's Department when police are needed. So, while fireworks may be highly illegal in the city (and most if not all of LA County), it doesn't really stop people from having them. And it gets bad. Because there are really no consequences to the people who set them off. If someone complains and the cops are called, the parties setting them off are usually done with them by the time the cops are able to get past the gates. So... There's always fireworks. And that's how we knew the Rams won last night. Someone set off a whole bunch at the end of the game, it sounded like an explosion. We didn't need to watch the game to find out the outcome immediately. I just find that funny. It was the same on New Year's. At the stroke of midnight, so many fireworks.
Ren Faire season is coming up fast. Depending if I get this job with Knott's, I'll probably wind up going to work for the Faire again. I loved it when it worked in in 2019, and I was so disappointed when Covid kept it from happening the last two years here. Hopefully I can work it again. The job fair is at the end of the month, but I don't think I'll really need to do all that, since I have worked it before and they tend to prioritize those who have worked it over those who haven't. While it would mean having no days off again for 2 months or so, it's worth it. It's insanely fun to get decked out in garb and work in such a fun place each weekend. Plus, the cash I get in tips is always a plus. So, we'll see how things go in the coming weeks.
He pre-ordered Elden Ring for me, just because. He's amazing. Now I'll have something else to play when Destiny undoubtedly lets me down.
We were supposed to spend the whole weekend together, have me go home tomorrow morning, unfortunately things came up and killed that idea. So I'm home now. And... Fun stuff in the LA area, as we were grabbing dinner from The Habit, we got to see a homeless person dead on the ground. I assume they were hit by a car, though I'm not some gross monster who had to watch everything like everyone else. I've seen people die in front of me before, it's not cool and I am not that morbidly curious to sit there watching as the paramedics cover the body and such.
In other news, I have an interview with Knott's this coming Saturday. I love my current job, but I have had the last week and a a half off because Covid going around, and honestly, I can't get by on that. My bank account is suffering and will continue to suffer until I get paid Friday, assuming I even get to work this week... So, while I'm not super comfortable with working in places with big crowds, which is why I didn't do well at the casino, I am drawn to a regular paycheck. And, working at an amusement park could be fun for a while. So, we'll see how the interview goes. Fingers crossed.
It feels like I'm on a ship, that sensation of rolling with the waves, it leaves me sick. But, I have that sensation right now, have for about an hour now and I don't like it. As I'm on the phone with mi amor, naturally I'd tell him about it. He mentioned something I considered super far fetched and not a possibility, pregnancy. Morning sickness. But... It can't be. It would be too early for that, even if I were. Because if I were, it would only be between one and three weeks and I don't think morning sickness hits that early. But now that he's said it, I'm insanely paranoid about it. I don't want to vomit, but it's that weird sensation, that weird nauseated feeling. I'm going to give it a bit, see if I don't get that surefire sign that I am absolutely not pregnant. I've got around a week, and if it doesn't happen, well, a test will be taken. But fuck... I'm so scared at this point. I'm in no position to deal with motherhood right now. And fuck... Logan and I haven't been together that long to go welcoming a child into the mix.
My car's going back in the shop tomorrow for pretty much the same issues I had late last year. At this point, I'm just annoyed with everything. I'm pretty sure it's the heater core again, as fluid is leaking into the cabin on the driver's side once more. That means they didn't fix it properly the last go 'round. And if it's the heater core, it's only a matter of time before it starts overheating and stalling out on me again. I'm not having any of that. So into the shop it goes once more. More money thrown into an issue that should have been resolved the first time.
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