How hypocritical is it to talk about people stealing when one has been caught plagiarizing.
But, convenient that we forget about that, right?
Gifts, no matter how small, mean the world to me. Because it's not so much the importance of the object being given, more so the fact that I was thought of at all. I'm not used to it, because I so rarely get things from people. But, pocky and a favorite drink... Remembering that I even liked this drink because our adventure in Downtown LA was so long ago... That means everything to me. To be thought of. To be remembered. This made me smile the biggest smile last night.
So sleepy. Might just blow off the plans I have tonight with a friend. I'm in bed now, and it's too comfortable to say goodbye to.
And tonight, the sky just seems a little darker. The stars, ghosts caught up in a blanket of black. Everything feels desolate, empty, including me.
I spent the last week and a half going through my journal and marking the vast majority of it private. In the end I probably should have just deleted the whole damn thing and started over, saved what I wanted to a word document, but, meh. Just know, don't ever expect me to be as open as I once was here. A lot of things I write will be made private from here on out. VR is just going to get the smallest glimpses into my life from this point on.
Can't seem to trust anyone these days.
It's a girl! I'm going to have a niece!
We went to the house and gave Lucas his birthday presents. He seemed to like the remote control cars I got him. He and Kevin will have lots of fun with those, I think. We also got to see the ultrasound pictures of my little niece. I'm so excited to have a little girl. Boys are fun and I love Lucas with all my heart, but girls, man. I think I'm so excited with the thought of buying pretty dresses and clothes and cute toys and such.
It's Lucas' third birthday tomorrow. I swear, where did the time go? My mother and I are going to stop by the house and drop his present off, then sit in the car and watch him open it. Because, you know, social distancing. It sucks, because I miss him and I want to just give him a big hug, but this is the world we currently live in. Tomorrow Liz and Kevin are also going to do a little gender reveal party on Zoom. They found out the gender yesterday. I'm so excited to find out if I'm going to have a new nephew or a niece. I'm really hoping for a girl, but that's because I want to buy the cute dresses and all that stuff. You don't get to do that with a boy. So, tomorrow should be fun.
Platonic cuddling while watching the Office, it's the best medicine.
I give people more chances than they rightly deserve. I'm willing to look past a lot of wrongdoing and give people the benefit of the doubt. My fault. Clearly that was stupid of me. But, trust when I say it won't happen again.
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