I am torn and broken
But no one really cares
All of those that cared for me
Were never really there...
I'm filled with love and filled with hate
I never know quite what to say
If I continue at this rate
I know where I will surely stay...
I've fallen again
And again I will fall
And with me I
Will bring you all...
I do not know what I am saying
But every now seems like a lie
I do not care what others think
But right now I would like to die...
I'm lost and confused
I doubt I make sense
But the grass is always greener
On the other side of the fence...
I'm Lost and I'm Broken
I'm Hidden. as well
And all of my names
This surely will tell...
Who am I now?
I lay here dying.
What to do now?
I'm almost crying.
I know who I've been
But who will I be?
The answer will come
Just wait and you'll see.
My thoughts just rage on.
I wish you were here.
For when you're around
There's nothing to fear.
If you left for good
Don't know what I'd do.
All that my world is
Consists just of you
Secrets to be shared
Of new and of old.
But if you did know
My heart'd still be cold.
Frozen in time
My life seems to be.
If you knew my life
Would you, too, dear, flee?
Just give me some time
But don't wait too long.
For life is so short and
I'll feel it is wrong.
To burden one's life
The pressure too great
Unless it so happens
We're together by fate.
My love I do send
To those who may care.
I'll be here if needed
And I hope you'll be there.
For if the day comes
And my time is at end
I hope you will be there
My dear and true friend.
The face was covered with shadow
Who it was I all ready knew
From now until the end of time
That voice will belong to you
My hatred then began to grow
I felt I would be ill
The thought of you right here with me
I knew I had to kill
That horrid grin upon your face
It made me want to wretch
You chose right then to speak your words
My breath then chose to catch
"What has happened is now behind"
Your icy voice did say
The words were not meant for my ears
But the one across the way
My best friend is to whom you spoke
And until this day I swear
That look that crossed my allies face
Showed he would never care
"The past is the truth to who you are
And it can never change"
Those bold words fell from his crimson lips
And in your eyes I saw rage
Your voice, it never wavered
As you just stared him down
But he just chose to smile at you
And then you chose to frown
What happened next was all a blur
All I know is you lost
You chose to make a small mistake
And with that comes a cost
Your neck was grasped between his hands
Your life slowly slipped away
And then the ties within my friend
They all began to fray
His shoulders then began to shake
And then he went deathly still
The laughter erupted from his soul
It was so loud and shrill
I slunk back into the shadows
The shadows from which I came
I left him to fall into his mind
I've completed my twisted game
Hidden behind the mask,
A bright and happy face,
Lies a face of sorrow,
Of pain and deep disgrace.
Those around have naught to fear
For this mask hides it all.
But pain and despair will reign
If this mask is to fall.
The job was so simple
Just one life to take
The time the mask slipped
Thank god for his sake.
Those emerald eyes flashed deep, dark green
The fear was all shown beneath.
The assassin fled in deep despair
When he saw all that hidden grief.
That silvery blade slid sharp and smooth
The action one could not retake
The arm was sliced from left to right
And red blood ran, not nearly fake.
The killer returned that night
And saw the blood at the beauty’s feet
He stared in horror, too shocked to move.
Then, up to the body he did creep.
In a voice soft as an angel’s
The assassin then did speak.
“Hold on, now. Its not your turn to go
Suicide is for the weak.”
The green-eyed beauty gazed up at him
Though pain did fill his eyes.
The words the killed said to him
Had cut him down to size.
“Suicide is not the way
But it is all I had.”
His voice was fading, dark and grim,
Thought it was all but sad.
“Death comes with life, that is its gift
That we all must accept and learn.”
His green eyes closed, to look again
Upon a face he did not earn.
“Hush now, child. Don’t waste your voice”
The black-haired man then did say.
“Relax, for all things will be fine
If you understand then nod, okay?”
The green-eyed man lying on the floor
His head nodded just a tad
For as he looked at the man above
He knew it was not his dad.
The black surrounded his every bone
The man above did weep
For the beautiful man, lying on the floor
Was not his alone to keep.
He lay the man upon the floor
And then rose to his feet.
Stealing one last glance at the man, now gone
He turned and then did retreat.
I'm transfering some of my other poems here from one of my other sites... These poems are kind of old so be sure to brush the dust off befor you read them...
Is being lost and alone so bad?
Or does it just make you sad?
To know that I am on my own,
And you, too now, are all alone.
Though you miss me
You have "his" arms to run to.
Will you come running back?
And it just be me and you?
Life is always full of pain.
Or is my life just lived in vane?
Tell me now before I'm gone
For I'm not sure I'll last to long.
Goodbye my friend
We've been through it all.
I'll see you in the end
When you, too, fall.
Though sadness will come
It too soon will pass
So do heed my words,
They may be my last.
It may not seem fair
But nothing in life ever is.
As our chapter is now closed
And is the start of yours and his.
I feel really pathetic putting this up here but I will anyway... I ran across this poem... It is one that I wrote in my freshman year... Uhg... Anyway, tell me what you think...
The fire now surrounds me,
Consuming all in its path.
You'd think it'd all be over,
The fire, done unleashing its wrath.
But, woe, I can't say that is true
As the wall burn to sinders and ash.
For the building erected around me
Will soon and most certainly crash.
Down upon the ground it will go
In an ugly and blackened old heap.
But me, when the house does fall down
No, I can not say I will keep.
Death isn't truly the way
And deep in my heart this is true
But feeling this pain in my heart,
It was all that I thought I could do.
This feeling then started to grow
It started from deep, deep inside.
There was only one thing it could be
And that was, it had to be pride.
As I stepped from the house and onto the street
I saw a spectacular sight
The walls of the house just fell to the ground
Like a man who had just lost a fight.
Watching the smoldering ashes
Some which still burned bright, bright red
Something then did occur to me
Right up in this now twisted head.
"If walls are small barriers,
What is the need?"
And then to the world,
"My warning do heed."
"For into the night
Will descend a great craze
And all in the world
Now, will be set ablaze."
The world did not heed
The warning I gave
For think if one had
The lives they would save
Now all is consumed
And no life will be spared
But none would have passed
If but one had dared.
To save those in danger
You surely should do
For in the next house
It just might be you.
As I now pass on
This tale of the past
Remember above all
The smoldering red ash.
I turn my head and smile
I know I will be here a for while
I hide behind all of my lies
So that only I will have to cry
The only time I forget my pain
Is when I'm standing in the rain
The rain covers up all my tears
That I have hidden all these years
I cry for the Past
I cry for the Present
I cry for the Future, too
There is one more thing that I cry for
Something much worse than the rest
I cry for the things that can never be
Those little things that could set me free
As I stand in the rain
I pray to a god
It doesn't matter which one
The prayer is always the same
I pray for the life that can never be mine
I pray that everything in my life will be fine
I pray I will find the ones that I lost
And I really don't care how much it will cost
I'm writing this now
Without altering my words
Only two will understand
What I mean by this poem
My writing's not great
But it does the trick
It takes me away from this world
To the one place that I am free
I wish I could rhyme
But I know that I can't
I should keep on trying
But I know that I shan't
Goodbye is for now
And I know I may not be back
I will remain broken forever
For the qualities I lack.
Part of this poem is form a story that I wrote that I will transfer here. One of you know what I am talking about and soon the rest of you shall too... This is the first poem that I wrote here that I didn't alter at all so I hope it is alright... BC~~~