In the mirror I see a monster staring back at me
Take off the mask and it reveals the truth inside that I am not a monster at all
But a child that must hide amongst monsters to survive
I’m not the real monster I only seek to play where the wild things are because they are familiar to me and all that I have known since I was a child
I learned to love the monsters that creeped out from underneath my bed to steal my innocence from me
The monsters that lurked around corners in the shadows watching and waiting to take from me again and again
Is it really that surprising to you?
No I’m not a monster I learned to mix with those who are because it was the only way to survive and now that I am away from those monsters
I miss the familiarity despite the fact they bled me dry
Bled me of life and safety they took my very essence until there was none left for me
A deep wound that no amount of feeding can ever fill
A deep wound that no amount of love could ever fill
But yet I’m the monster when it was those who raped from me, the very thing I lack now
Have you no compassion for a beast such as me?
We all have monsters and demons inside.
Yet yours are okay but mine are not.
Who is being one sided now?
That’s it let it out. Let it bleed out from within let the anger pour out. Why hide it?
Turn it on me. The sweet release of pain is where your freedom is found.
Tear off the bandage, put out the knife in your back. Pull out the pin. That is the only way,
I know it feels wrong but it’s oh so right. Release that which is within that you may find healing.
Release all the years of anguish that is hidden below. I promise better days will come because of it.
I’m the demon that haunts your vision. The hidden angel that seeks to give your soul rest.
and like always she finds the strength from somewhere inside to keep on going forward alone.
She claws forward tooth and nail. Bloody battle scars dripping blood. Instinct driving her on. Forcing her breath to keep inhaling and exhaling to keep death from overtaking her...
Fuck your oppression! Say whatever matter of evil against me. It matters not anymore.
Hide your darkness
They say you’re not a vampire
Deny what I have always known
Well it’s not going to happen
Say what you want it doesn’t change what I know
Because when you know you know
How can another say the path of another, they cannot
If you only knew what hides inside you wouldn’t say, if you saw, you would be filled with terror like I am at what lies beneath
I produce after my own kind
Feeding until death and darkness touches them
On a path to destruction you should be glad the sooner I leave this earth the better for everyone
I destroy everything I touch
So put me out of my misery while you can because I will take you down with me
You have no idea what created me
The hell on earth I have suffered at the hands of those who claimed they loved me
Yes, I know what I do I know the monster I’ve become you should be careful lest you fall into my web because I will devour your soul whole
I follow no rules I have no heart it’s been shattered to pieces
You threaten with empty promises like most do to end me
I’m numb and lack the capacity to feel anymore
I am a vampire with no compass only a killer instinct
It’s kill or be killed now
You better drive that stake through my heart deep
I love what I am, how it feels, the beast it courses through my veins
I ravel in it, live for it
You better hope my body dies soon because the darkness has gotten too fulfilled to push it down inside anymore
Turn your back on me all I have ever seen is those who leave me
I am not afraid to be alone anymore lock me in a cage and throw the key away
Erase every thought and memory of me you have ever known
You have failed me the only hope I had
The only one that could possibly understand me does not
You can’t control me You say you don’t fear me but yet you cannot and will not stop me
I just want you! This is between us now
It has always been this invisible war between us
Why do you fight against me? Perhaps you see too much of yourself in me
I’m not leaving until you send me straight to hell or redeem me