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Feelings
03:47 Mar 19 2006
Times Read: 478

A light shines on

Even tho the heart is unoccupied.

Lets us not forget

why we come here and cry

with tears full of joy

for ones who will change your life for the better or the worst

A poison kiss like yours I can't describe

The feeling deep down inside

when your close in my heart

you belong with me till death do us part

To feel your pain deep down inside

and to touch your skinso cold and pale

and know your mine

To have you close and love you so,

my vampiric love I shall never let you go

Leaving it all Behind
03:08 Mar 19 2006
Times Read: 480

I'm going down a dark alley

I see things i've never seen

How can people be so cruel and mean?

I just want to be me.



I sit alone from day to day

And wonder to myself

When is it my time to play?

When is it time for me to be happy?



Things running thru my head

"Go for it, end this life,

No one will care if your dead!"

These thoughts, their driving me insane.



Here I sit alone once again

With a blade within reach.

Crying,wondering, worrying, bleeding

Waiting for death itself to embrace me.



I grab the lighter off the table

Light it, and burn my flesh.

As it starts to burn and bubble,

I then tell myself, "I will no longer cause trouble!"



I now sit in a puddle of blood,

It's color is so soothing.

Knowing the walls are now caving

I'm leaving this place.



No one can stop it

It's too late, it's now left to faith.

The room begins to spin,

This is the end of my pain!



written by: gothic_gurl c 2005

Pushed Away
09:34 Mar 18 2006
Times Read: 481

I dont get it,

i try and try to help people out

they just throw it back in my face

god i just want to dissapear with no trace.



Trust is something people have to earn

in order to get some we must do the same in return.

What have i done to deserve this?

Maybe nothing.



I care too much sometimes

maybe i should just go back

back to the way i was before

Where i was once cold, and had no feelings.



I dont want to go back,

Down the path i once walked

It was dark, and i didnt care about anything,

But I now know what love is, i dont want to go back to the hatred.



I'm holding on to the hope that you,

you, will come back to me and continue our friendship

we dont have to be alone and fading

and this i know is true



We deserve better, you deserve better!

I want to help you get out of that place i was in for so long

Please reach for my hand,

Take my heart along with it, and let me help you.



You might not have known me long

But you know me more then alot of people

who have tried to know me from the inside, and failed

I opened to you, why? I dont know. Just don't shut me out.



I feel Like i am being pushed away

Maybe i should just turn and look the other way?

Give up on trying maybe?

No i am not gonna give up ! I refuse to!



Just please embrace what is being offered to you

and not push it away,

Get to know what you can benefit from another



Use it to get out of that dark place

Just move towards a new beginning, maybe a new face.

Change is good, not bad.

Embrace it, I have...

Save me Now
09:33 Mar 18 2006
Times Read: 482




I just can't wait,

Until you hold me in your arms so strong and true

I wish i was there right now...

Cause i really can't figure out why,

i have these tears,

born in my eyes,

running down my cheeks

and where they die on my lips

But one thing i really know is,

these tears are for you

I just wish you were around

to catch them,

before they fall to the ground

where i often find myself picking up my pieces

and putting them back together

these pieces keep falling they will soon all be in their places.

three weeks from now...

All i need will be at arms length

where i can reach out

and have a strong hand to respond

one i have been looking for, for so long

i just know that we belong together

i will never leave when times get rough

i shall always be tough

i want to be with you forever

i need a savior... one thats real

one that i can hold and feel

your the one, my one and inly true love

if i had to live without you,

i dont knwo what i can be that strong

So please babee,

will you stay with me for now

and forever more?

For all eternity i would be most gratefull!

Giving up
09:32 Mar 18 2006
Times Read: 483

The world seems to keep spining,

I sit here listening, wanting, waiting

For death itself to embrace me

Maybe then, and only then, will I be free.



I sit here thinking

Knowing that if i slit my wrists

I can bleed to death

And how sweet that feeling would be.



Death, an easy way out,

A road i am not afraid to take

No one will care, at least, i think

And that, I sometimes doubt.



But as I sit on my bed

with knife at arms length

I grab the knife and bring it to my flesh

Then think about you, my only reason for life.



My grasp loostening as i drop to my knees

Crying out in pain

But not physical pain

more like the one i feel at the moment.



But I can't do it today,

my will to live is a little stronger

but i know it wont last long

i'm gonna snap any day now.



I just pray for comfort

to the person that is going to find me

to the unlucky person to smell the decaying of my flesh

When it's too late to help.

My Thoughts
09:31 Mar 18 2006
Times Read: 484

The days are numbered

flying away, unlike time

that seems to drag on and never end

and my days is coming

no one cares anyways

i'm just another problem child

"she will grown out of it"

they say these things

as if they were the ones controling everything

but the thing they dont know is

it's not hard for me, sharp objects

pills, drugs, alcohol, it's not hard to get

i used to ask myself how long it would take

before i turned to one of those things

didnt take long, i've started off pretty good

they can't know how hard it is to be alone

to be rejected, laughed at, threatened

i've been there, i'm still there

no one wants me

i'm too much trouble

i should know, my mom could care less

can i make it on my own?

Only one way to find out

and if i cant

someone will find me in an alley way

probably raped or dead

whatever i can care less now

if people dont want me around

they should just tell me

then i will leave this world

with one sharp movement

that will let my blood flow freely!



written by: gothic_gurl

Life in my Dark World
09:29 Mar 18 2006
Times Read: 485




Feelings of hatred and dispare,

in my twisted world are not rare.

The sight of blood takes me to a place,

Where no one would ever dare to face.

My world is black, as is my heart,

give me yours and i shall tare it apart.

As so many have done on to me,

i shall do on to them, to me they will plea.

to stop the pain, i have no mercy,

The pain shall always go on.

As long as this world exists,

I shall continue on and slit their wrists.

As they bleed to death,

I linger over their dead bodies,

singing my dark sweet melodies.

I take their souls to hell,

Where they shall be tortured for all of eternity...

God can't even save them....

For I am the devils spawn

And to their poor souls,

they will feel so drawn

Drawn into the depths of my cruelty.

They shall never escape, nor will they be free.

Black is my soul and black it will stay,

For the one they call God has givin up on me,

And I on him...

I have learned to embrace the darkness,

instead of pushing it away...

The power i have over s many,

Is the same that shall lead me to my destruction.

I slit my wrists just to feel pain

The blood so red, so soothing to my eyes

Is to many people, quite a surprise.

Inflicting pain upon others and myself

Often causes me to wonder,

how i ever did without.

Feelings of weakness i often hide,

Over time i have perfected ways

To keep it locked inside.

My pains and pleasures will not be in vain,

Individuals will die along with me.

But only i shall be reborn

In order to destroy what others have built,

I will leave them in sickness and in guilt.

The dark world i live in shall continue on

As satan himself wills it so.

Pain and torture will fallow in great waves upon mankind,

To satan's wishes we will no longer be blind.

So now i lay me down to rest,

And pray satan,

To rip the heart from my chest...



written: by gothic_gurl

Saturday, August 13th 2005 @ 4:30 am

copywrite 2005

Freedom is the End
09:27 Mar 18 2006
Times Read: 486




This world keeps us caged

like animals we try to be set free

anything we do is never good enough

i hate this place

i just feel like leaving without a trace

with no one to care

i sit alone and scream

hoping this is all one bad dream

that i will wake from any minute

but the nightmare goes on with no end

all i need is a friend

but even that is too much to ask for

greed takes over

all they want is more and more

never content with what they have

they drag me down with them

i'm falling... falling

into the neverending dark hole,

the one they call life...

so i grab a knife

thinking about ending all the pain

the suffering i can no longer bare

this world never was and never will be fair

so i leave this hell hole with a wuick slash

my blood flows freely seems as i cant

the room begins to spin

as i fall into unconciousness

and turn my back to the light that appears

i choose to walk down the dark tunnel to hell

wher ei was born and now dying to be

where i belong and where i know...

I CAN and will be FREE!!!