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when I die I want to transition into part of a nebula...

01:46 Dec 30 2010
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hydrogen, helium, dust, it's all good. When I'm dead I'll be dust anyway right? Maybe I'll score a fortune someday and I can pay to have my remains rocketed into the Omega nebula, or the Eagle nebula. I find staring at the Pillars of Creation very soothing.





I had no intentions of logging on to vr before the start of 2011. I feel the need to blaaaaaargh (blogish venting) and lack the privacy to do it elsewhere.





I'm going slightly crazy. The xmas holiday sucked for me. I don't recommend spending it entirely alone. I feel like I have a better understanding of why the mortality rate of the solitary person is higher during this time of year. I don't see it as worse than any other time of year from a personal standpoint, but once again society has created a monster. So much emphasis is placed on spending time with family during xmas, that it really almost alieniates people who can't.



It was really hard to bury myself in my work this year. I was surrounded by people spouting off their holiday cheer, and plans with their loved ones. Good for them. It didn't bother me until people started asking what my plans were. I know they all had good intentions, but it still seemed like having lemon juice squirted in your eye... repeatedly. I soon grew tired of constantly responding with 'My plans are to work a 13 hour shift on xmas', 'no my family won't miss me', 'no I don't have anyone here', 'everyone I spend time with is not in CO'. It gets old fast. It sucked. But it's over now. On with the future.



In a sleep deprived, over worked, overly emotional state I managed to piss off someone close to me. My only saving grace is that someone else made a much bigger ass out of their self, and eclipsed my minor breakdown. I almost want to send them a thank you note for acting like a big enough douche to save my ass.



I'm stressed to the max with work stuff. EoM always sucks, but I have year end breathing down my neck as well. Not to mention the NYE shit storm that always ensues. I'm not looking forward to babysitting 2,000 drunk people.



I have a self assessment to complete, that my pay increase for 2011 (or lack there of) depends on, documentation to scan and file in perperation of a city tax audit, a promotional account to audit for the accounting department, I have to verify and correct srew ups that my employees have missed this month on another promo account, and I have to load a years worth of rates into the computer system. No biggie right? Did I mention I have 8 work hours to do all of this in, in addition to my other daily tasks? I think I'll be sneaking in on Thursday (my night off) after the department holiday party to go balls to the walls on all of this shit.



I've only had 3 hours of sleep today. I need to try to take a nap again soon. I couldn't focus at work last night. I think it was a combination of the 17 hour shift I had put in the night before, and the stress of one of my friends from work being in the hospital. I had a hard time keeping my espresso down while I was waiting to hear the results of her spinal tap. I had urged her to go to the ER two days prior, but she was being stubborn and waiting until her day off... crazy bitch. If it had been muscular, or a nerve problem I might have been able to help. I could tell when I rested my hand on her spine without applying pressure she needed medical attenion. I've never seen someone in that much uninstigated pain before. It was really scary. Luckily her meningitis is viral and not bacterial. I'm slightly relieved now that she had medicine, but I'll stop worrying when she's back to normal.



Ok.. that's plenty of purging from me. I have to try and nap again before work tonight. Fun schtuff. I'll catch you all in 2011. I'm sure I won't be on vr again before then.



Have a happy and SAFE new year. Party responsibly!

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MooniePie
MooniePie
01:48 Dec 30 2010

-big hugs- I adore you, hun. =]





Raina
Raina
03:14 Dec 30 2010

Please be safe and take care of yourself. *hugs*





Mystic
Mystic
03:45 Dec 30 2010

Hugs ! and more hugs and gigantic hugs and oh ya did I forget hugs. yes you are adored, and had I been able to I gladly would have come and spent Christmas with you and we could have gotten silly drunk and watched your demon cats, do crazy things lol





 

15:20 Dec 25 2010
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I'm going to fuck off for a while.

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LadyDarkRayne
LadyDarkRayne
18:04 Dec 25 2010

sounds like a great paln ! ♥

I made my self eggs fro breakfast and am watch snow buddies lol





 

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11:02 Dec 25 2010
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In 15 minutes, I'll have 5 hours down and 8 more to go. That almost halfway through the shift right?



I'm drinking 2 shots of espresso mixed with hot chocolate and french vanilla and hazelnut creamer. I'm eating fresh fruit, and a bag of sodium in the form of beef jerky. I don't think my meal was well planned out. *shrugs*



I can do this. I just have to locate my lost motivation... wherever it went. It's self assessment time for me. I picked the wrong day for this. Maybe I'll process tax exemptions, or reward redemptions, or promotional accounts audit. Better yet, how about I pay one of you schmoes $10 to do my self assessment for me? Anyone out there know how to blow enough smoke to get me a raise, but not so much that I look like an egotistical asshole?



Anyway back to the grind. Work doesn't do itself no matter how much I procrastinate.








My earlier journal was purely informational. I have no complaints about my life. I've seen people close to me endure much harsher traumas than I have. It was purely informational to help those who have to deal with my flaws understand the source of them.








I wish you all love, happiness, and inner peace my friends.




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LadyDarkRayne
LadyDarkRayne
18:03 Dec 25 2010

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥





 

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23:39 Dec 24 2010
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Nice

22:17 Dec 24 2010
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Don't mind me.



I'm just going crazy.







That is all.

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MooniePie
MooniePie
22:19 Dec 24 2010

going?



I thought you were already there and have the t-shirt to prove it. :P



LadyDarkRayne
LadyDarkRayne
22:30 Dec 24 2010

And here i thought she already had the magnet lol Well if you going, I'll go with ya =} ~





 

Know what I'm sayin'?

19:02 Dec 24 2010
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So, why mow the lawn when no one is playing in the yard O_o?

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Mystic
Mystic
19:08 Dec 24 2010

isn't that what the weed wacker is for lol =}





 

I have a parrot on my shoulder!

14:48 Dec 23 2010
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Oh wait it's just my pussy.









All of the gifts mom sent me are shoved under the tree. I don't think I have to wait to open them except for the big one she marked 'from santa'. She said she wanted to make sure I had something to open on xmas.



My sister got some expensive jewelry for xmas from her beau. Well they way it went is, she went out and bought it herself, and gave him the option of paying her back and calling it xmas. Hahaha whatever works. He jumped on the easy out. No shopping for him.



I should get the box from my sister today, I'll add that to the pile. I'm not sure when I'll tear into them. I'm a bit pissed that WC hasn't received his package yet. I paid $30 to have that damn thing sent priority, and it was supposed to get there Tuesday or Wednesday. Note to self: next time add tracking, it's well worth it. At least I insured it. Hopefully insurance covers disappearing boxes. =/ I wouldn't be so stressed about it if he had actually received the letter I sent him 2 or 3 weeks ago.



I'm sitting here nibbling a snickerdoodle, sipping a hot chocolate, french vanilla cappuccino concoction I made. The only thing that would make it better would be to snuggle with my love (and the monsters) next to a blazing fire place, watching our favorite movies.



Id be lying if I didn't admidt that long distance relationships suck ass. It's horrible pining for someone all of the time. I have little desire to eat. I hope that by forcing lots of water in me it'll keep my stomach from eating itself. It seems to be working so far.



The kitten that I'm the most allergic to is the one who loves me the most. She rubbed on my face last week, and I broke out into instant hives. I don't think she understands when I push her away after about 10 minutes of affection it's not her fault. She always comes back for more though. Maybe she'll learn to be a loving lap cat, and less of a parrot. After she grows out of that crazy kitten phase of course.









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MooniePie
MooniePie
19:34 Dec 23 2010

Awwwwww.. You are making my hopeless romantic side weep.



Do NOT tell anyone I have this side.. or I will cut you. :D



xoxoxoxox





Mystic
Mystic
19:14 Dec 24 2010

awww, yes I think we all have that side in us , some of us just show it more often. I used to be like that. But this isn't Helpless in Seattle and your man LOVES you ! -- Man don't make me get all mushy --- Or I'll have to sacrifice you and bury you with Moonies Bunnies .... hehe Loves you Guys !





 

Thank You WildChild!!!!

00:49 Dec 23 2010
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OMF YUUUUUM!

We sent me hazelnut pancake/waffle mix, and a bottle of Oregon marrion berry syrup. It is the BEST syrup I've ever had.



Thank you, thank you sender of deliciousness!

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I was also able to snap a pic of the cats not being assholes for once. When they're good I adore them. When they're bad... I yell at them and tell them they're the reason that people abandon animals. I tell them to knock their shit off before they end up homeless. (I don't really mean it.)



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Alright, I'm going to run upstairs throw the ham in the oven, and open the 23 lb box my mom sent me. w00t!!!

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KattrinaK
KattrinaK
01:18 Dec 23 2010

I know, isn't it INSANE?



Loves me some marionberries...some of my Family is from the Klamath Falls area.



Anywho, Merry Christmas/Happy Yule!





LadyDarkRayne
LadyDarkRayne
01:40 Dec 23 2010

Oh they look so evil lol lol





LadyKrystalynDarkstar
LadyKrystalynDarkstar
02:11 Dec 23 2010

That one with the glowing eyes is contemplating world domination. I'd watch that fellow closely.





PhoenicianDream
PhoenicianDream
02:37 Dec 23 2010

We = WC



Ill be damned if he didn't actually notice my typo. =l





The glowy eyed one actually happens to be Meanie. The growling tree climber.





PhoenicianDream
PhoenicianDream
02:38 Dec 23 2010

We = WC



Ill be damned if he didn't actually notice my typo. =l





The glowy eyed one actually happens to be Meanie. The growling tree climber.





 

20:09 Dec 21 2010
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Spaghetti. Fucking. Sammiches.











Hells to the yes.

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LadyDarkRayne
LadyDarkRayne
20:17 Dec 21 2010

yum I think we are gonna have hot turkey sammies





WildChild
WildChild
20:58 Dec 21 2010

NASTY





PhoenicianDream
PhoenicianDream
07:45 Dec 22 2010

You just say that because your a spaghetti hater wc :p





 

11:56 Dec 21 2010
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The back is hurting again today.



My supervisor is refusing to work Christmas morning because his girlfriend is in possession of his balls, and not actually him.

Did I mention his girlfriend is our employee? Yeah, so everyone at work knows what a pussy he is when it comes to his woman. I was hoping to be off by 9 am christmas morning, and come back earlier in the evening like about 7pm. Instead I'm stuck working until noon. Joy. Adding hours to the end of overnights seems to suck more then adding them to the beginning.



I need to clean, and rearrange more stuff. Go to the grocery store and get carpet shampoo. I used the last of if up the other day when fatass puked all over the place 6 different times. He finally yaked up a hairball while I was at work last night. I got the joy of stepping on that barefoot in the dark.



On a plus side, I got some firewood, and a ham. I'm going to get taters, veggies, and maybe sweet potatoes later today too. I'm thinking about picking up a prime rib. Mmmm beef. I'd never last as a 'veggie peeps' as I call them.



I snuck out on the roof tonight and watched the lunar eclipse. Lunar eclipse on a solstice. I won't see that again. Had circumstances of my life gone differently I'm sure I would have actually been celebrating somewhere instead.



Alright, back to work with my lazy ass. Back pain makes me not motivated at all.



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LadyDarkRayne
LadyDarkRayne
18:31 Dec 21 2010

what an ass he is. Mmm what a yummy dinner that sounds like prime rib mmmmmmm loves ya

Blessed Yule





 

omf full belly

18:04 Dec 19 2010
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German sausage, saurkraut, buttered bread.

Mmmmm it was good.



Kittens are pigs, they ate the kraut I dropped on the floor before I could bend down and clean it up. O_o wtf?









I have successfully consumed 3 liters of water in the last 16 hours. I'm still not sure how I feel about this. Check back with me later to see if my bladder gave out, and I wet myself in my sleep.



Goodnight peeps!

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MooniePie
MooniePie
20:08 Dec 19 2010

hahaha Dude, your kittens are little furry fucks.

Plus, they are probably going to be smellin' up the house with their kitty kraut gas of doom.



Just wrap your lower half in a garbage bag. It's cheaper than rubber sheets. hah





LadyDarkRayne
LadyDarkRayne
23:00 Dec 19 2010

hahaha omg --- and i thought my cats were devilish ! loves ya nini





 

effin tard

20:33 Dec 18 2010
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I can't take anymore of these a-holes.

I'm going to bed. Lord knows what I'll find when I get up tonight.



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proof they're monsters

20:22 Dec 18 2010
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Just see for yourself.





Peanuts

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More Peanuts

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Monster In Tree

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Fatass Eating Tree

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And then as if they're not BAD ENOUGH! I left to go to the post office to mail gifts for my mom, sister, and WC. While I was gone they took my cookies I brought home from work out of my purse... CHEWED THROUGH THE PLASTIC and ate them! They didn't just eat them, or just eat one or two. No, they partially ate every single one. Did I mention that I fed them.. RIGHT BEFORE I LEFT! WTF!??? Little butt licking furry ass terrors. -.- I don't have cats. I have imps disguised as cats.



Anyway I have to go. I need to go to sleep still, and it seems fatass got his head stuck in the handle of a paper sack. I have to chase his stupid ass down and rip off the piece of paper sack he's now wearing. =/ I should have named him rainman.



*sigh*

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LadyKrystalynDarkstar
LadyKrystalynDarkstar
20:48 Dec 18 2010

Ok I sincerely can relate to this. My two cats are INsane when it comes to wrapping paper and ribbons. I needed this laugh however I do share your pain.





Deity
Deity
21:21 Dec 18 2010

Wow. How do you deal with this insanity? I would have donated those fuckers to science long ago.



You're so sweet! LOL





Bones
Bones
07:15 Dec 21 2010

Snake food?





 

-.- fuck-ing-cats

16:17 Dec 18 2010
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They got into the packing peanuts when I was sleeping yesterday. They are all over the damn place. From the laundry room to the kitchen to the bathroom, and everywhere in between. I'm half tempted to hog tie the cats, rub a blanket on them so they're statically charged and use their butts to hoover up the peanuts.



Did I mention that one of them barfed while I was gone last night? In three different places. I'm sure it was ding or dong. Fatass would have left a much bigger pile of yak for me.



Speaking of fatass... he's taken to chewing on the xmas tree. I can't bring myself to plug in the lights cause his stupid fat butt would fry himself like that damn cat on National Lampoons Christmas Vacation. I think he chews it because he's mad that he's too fat to climb it like the twins do. Or maybe he's really trying to eat it.

Who knows?

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LadyDarkRayne
LadyDarkRayne
16:30 Dec 18 2010

oh yes i like that idea rub them together and static charge them lol





Deity
Deity
17:28 Dec 18 2010

This is the BEST journal entry. EVER.





 

10:28 Dec 16 2010
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Too much drinking. Too little sleep. Too many hours spent @ work, and on work related things.



I miss WC. I didn't get to see him today, or talk to him for very long. That makes me sad. =( maybe later today I can talk to him more.



Now to catch up on long overdue much needed sleep.

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Mystic
Mystic
12:26 Dec 16 2010

aww I'm sorry Girl, Get some sleep though - I know you miss him just as much as he misses you. ♥ya





 

03:09 Dec 12 2010
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another baby is born still





tonight I light a candle, and mourn silently for someone so very close to my heart





who wanted nothing more desperately than to be a mother







I love you my friend.

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Deity
Deity
03:45 Dec 12 2010

I am so very sorry for this loss. :(





Mystic
Mystic
12:25 Dec 16 2010

hugs you tight- ya that is very hard I'm sorry to hear about that PD - Lights a candle for your friend.





 

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11:17 Dec 11 2010
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One of my mothers bosses appears to be quite the douchebag. He wrote a very unprofessional letter belittling his staff, and distributed it to them.



I may not act professional outside of work, but at work I'm held to different expectations. Funny how different things can be when there's a paycheck involved.



I think I'll see what their corporate office has to say about this douchebag and his letter.



I hope he loses his fuckin' job.

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atyourwindow
atyourwindow
15:06 Dec 11 2010

just tell the HR dept that the letter makes for a hostile work enviornment and he will probally lose his job.





 

*le sigh*

00:55 Dec 10 2010
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It is one of lifes strangest cruelities, to have you hearts deepest desires granted while you sleep...





..only to have it all ripped away from you when you wake.

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Deity
Deity
01:19 Dec 10 2010

I know. It's so unfair!! :(





LadyDarkRayne
LadyDarkRayne
16:00 Dec 11 2010

I couldn't agree more. I have had some pretty *out there* dreams the last few nights. ♥





 

omg

16:56 Dec 06 2010
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I'm in love with a storm trooper.



O_o

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Deity
Deity
17:04 Dec 06 2010





Fizbop
Fizbop
18:02 Dec 07 2010

What happens when Vader needs him to do stuff that may end up well not well.





BubbleGumClaudia
BubbleGumClaudia
13:27 Dec 08 2010

AWWWWW Cuteness!





 

conflicted

03:55 Dec 06 2010
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I sometimes wish I knew the proper thought process for figuring things out.

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22:12 Dec 05 2010
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I was here and you were not.

Now you are here, and I am not.













Better luck next time.

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LadyDarkRayne
LadyDarkRayne
06:02 Dec 06 2010





 

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