for some reason i just dont feel happy right now. im down and there is no reason for it. i thought it was depression till i decided to write it here. why would a depressed guy write his emotions? would he b seeking help, or is he drawing attention to himself for pity points from the ladies, that in mind does that make him a despicable person who cant spell? By admitting it, what is there to gain? for no reason sadness and darkness. depression is a disease? or a way of being? a self-defence? or something unknown to anyone? y dwell on it? i write this and i bite my lip, i dont want anyone to know what i really am. I hate it sometimes. the emptiness comforts me. darkness is who i am, and i shall stay a while longer. no one can take it away from me. i'll hide here in plain sight, cause i know i can. i look so different to the populas yet no one looks. maybe its better that way. i dont want to die, i just want to b alone. this is the fate i chose, and i do this of free mind. i dare not cry. so instead i shall stay quiet, let no one notice what is wrong. how can anyone know my pain, my pain is the worst only because it is mine. so i end with this. i do not know ur pain how could i i am not u, and i am sorry u have it. but i know suffering and unlike some i will listen and understand. i am here. use me.
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