My entries in my journal have been few and far between. Months of a gap. A year gap. One section, I haven't written in in 2+ years. Mainly because there's nothing to put there. Nothing remarkable. Nothing that is truly gold, and the last gold I thought I found turned out to be as fake as the guy waving the rubber chicken around.
Maybe I should just wipe this clean, eliminate all traces of what used to be, and move forward.
Maybe I should just leave this place altogether.
Maybe none of it matters, so why put any thought or energies into it?
I got riled at her last night, because she continues allow people who don't care about her, or her goals, use her to advance their own. No compensation or appreciation, not even in the slightest ways, and she would rather passively allow it than stand up for herself and what she has rightfully earned.
The little things. It can always be seen in the little things. Pay attention to how people treat the little things that matter to you and you'll understand their true intentions.
That's a tough lesson, and a tough one to keep in view all the time, but necessary to understand.
And someone who uses you, will always use you, until they have no use for you, then they'll leave without caring how they leave you.
A lesson I learned all too painfully in the past. But do we listen to those with experience? No. She certainly doesn't listen to me. So I guess I'll keep working at showing her that she should....