HELLO AM Tabitha nice to meet yea, & welcome to my portfolio nothing but fantasy art & dark poetry.
Myth
endeoring marvel in those eyes closed,
a thousand dews, deep sea it holds.
oh!don't open yet's no rise 'n' shine,
i glared not ample, i need an endless night.
how pure is you while you sleep,
an unthought smile, finger's feelin your cheek.
what's crave is craving to feel that skin,
pleasuring to glare, rising a sin.
still ain't there your moon of dreams,
so innocent untouched can't hold that weep.
hair lying else, as ice on oak's,
beholding care, on eyes those brow's.
wondering to dawn with ain't a touch,
i suck a toe, of feet tryin' a watch.
widening arms, shining from a dream,
hold me always, like a child so keen.
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Still Mourning
now i lay me down to sleep
on a pillow where i weep
i think of my best friend when i sleep
she left me 3 years and still i weep
the only time i see her face
is when darkness fills my place
3 years its been since she left me here alone
and still i just want her to come home.
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*still*
still listen for the sound of snow
as the flakes brush against me
still look over my shoulder
at the trail of blood i leave
i take a step forward
just to hear you think
two steps back
from every word you speak
.still struggling
while you dont seem to see.
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+ In Darkness +
In the dark we turn back time, as we crawl
closer to yesterday.
See the girl with the night time heart, listen
to her laughter for just one last time.
How strange it seems that even in laughter her
tears fall as rain and touch my pale divine.
In her dark caress she fools them all, as the
shadow prophet takes her by the hand.
Come live through me, read of my wisdom and
take a chance on crimson glory.
See into her eyes and realize that she is you
and I.
She tries so hard to laugh the pain away, is
it all a dream. And I ask you one more time,
come and look into her eyes and see the
suffering servant within her dimlit soul.
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Evolution
Pull you down
and deeper still
ill use you life
my soul ill fill
this empty hole
with you in its place
i can see the fear
upon your face
but do i care
scared so many times
all of us with brain-washed minds
we have all been desencenceatized
all of us
we just do see what weve become
each man reins on anothers death
soon there will be nothing left
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In my own dark corner
I sit here in darkness and wonder about you
If your as real as you say you are
Or as real as I think.
The way you touch me, or say my name
In your quiet and lonely voice
It echos in my mind, haunts me through the day
I live in fear
Fear that is devoid of all color
In a state of diluded paranoia
Yet I take comfort in my corner
Where the shadows hide
And the spiders weave their games
In this orgasmic darkness
Safe from the sun
Each ray a different hell
Each glimps of its brightness kills me a little more
This wretched and ugly nepenth
That rapes my ideals
And diminishes all that was once pure
And these blistered smiles
That I thought once meant something
Are now washed away
Down the drain of my life
I dont need anymore of this diluded happiness
This teasing of memories, once joyful now bleed
Creeping through my mind, peering into every creves
Of each dream and fantasy
All worthless, now obsolete
Burned in my brain is the feeling of you...
Ah, yes, it will haunt
For I am locked in this horror house
Bound and barred, trapped within
I dont have the courage to leave
Awash with every sin
I accepted my hell with a certin pride
And as I gaze in the Caretakers eyes
I see an image of myself
The hidden self I am scared to show
That glimmer I'm afraid of
I grew cold and tired waiting here for the sun
So I took the blackness as my blanket
Protection from all devotion
This bleak and ebony depth-it comforts me
Yet chills me to my very core
And in this dark
(The tomb of my life)
I see your eyes, just a glimps
Those obsidian globes surrounded by thorns
Blood are the tips...and I know I'm not the only one
And in that one stare
I am carried off to another sky
Lifted to the portals of heaven
Then...I am sinking back down
And drowning in this gaze.
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SoulLights
Phoenix and Fire
bathe in my souls
redemption
thoughts & feelings
birth of a new soul
awash in a sea of
RED hate, anger and hurt
soul screams
frustration & pain
even as it revels
in these new feelings
rising slowly
out of the sea of torment
screaming
screaming
screaming
higher and higher
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Vacation
When the ears run red with
the blood from the screams,
when four lights collide,
when darkness covers all,
we're there.
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Unknown
The cloud of smoke from his blackened lungs
shields his eyes from the truth
Distance as far away as the gates of hell
but within his aging reach
A lonely man thrice over
discarding the happiness of himself and others
A hypocrite's offspring: unknown, unwanted,
embarrassing!
Repercussions extreme enough as to
lessen life
and able to manipulate the mind,
body, and soul of annoyance.
Silent frustration overpowers the thoughts
to create painful open sores: eternal,
excruciating, bleeding.
Visions of the elimination of life
flash through the mind of the unknown
as the demon takes another puff.
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These years of pain and suffeing bring me closer to you,
every night I bleed for you every night when I call your name.
I long to hold the dream of you and I is it a fairytale that comes to
mock me only just the thought alone drives me insane.
And every night I fall, every night I lose just a little more of my
life, every night I fall, every night im finding out its only a lie.
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I used to want you so close to me, a guardian a fantasy, let me hide
inside of your soul I need you now then ever more,
With my hands I sketched my name in your heart and promied you forever,
seems forever is but temporary only in your eyes, and now every night
when I fall I still think of you every night that I fall.
Every night I fall, every night you steal my life, every night I fall,
every night brings me close to the lie, every night that I fall...
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Masochistic Angel
rip away at my heart
take everything you want
cause i wont say a word
not this time
not the next time
never agian
cant cry over fools
wont cry over you
never tears
always blood
youve made this angel cry
youve made this angel bleed
dont want this anymore
cant take this anymore
never agian
never agian
not your little rag doll
just your precious masochistic angel
stapled to a million crosses
in your fuckin night sky
so wish on a star
just wish for forgiveness
for everything you are
but im fuckin serious when i say
dont you ever wish for me
never agian
never agian
no matter how close i come
you will always be
coming to close to me
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* This Beautiful Mess *
Another day goes by
and still you gaze into the mirror and ask the reason why
Another passing face in the crowd, detached and on the way to oblivion.
Dream dancers on the stage like assembly line actors waiting for the
curtain to fall
Welcome to this beautiful mess we call life so fragile and yet so special
in the eyes of Heaven
For every tear drop that falls from saddened eyes
a thousand oceans fill not even one soul
