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Hello, my name is Alex. I'm quite friendly, and have helped dozens of people through all kinds of problems all my life. But I stumbled onto this website looking for help myself, after doing research into psychic vampires, as I (reluctantly) believe that I may be one myself. I've been obsessed with vampires all my life, but never claimed to be one. Despite being darker than most people I've met I used to be extremely social. The events of the past year have led me to isolate myself from almost all human contact. And over the past few months have been progressively becoming more ill. I thought perhaps I had some form of malnutrition or extreme vitamin deficiency or something. I've known I've been an empath, as well as having experience in energy manipulation, and after talking to a friend of mine and telling her that I was an empath and explaining my situation, she told me I may be a psychic vamp. I didn't believe her at the time because since I've always loved vampires I didn't want to falsely believe I was one as my mind has done similar things in the past. But it has gotten to the point that it's difficult to leave the house because I am so weak a lot of the time, I can do nothing but sleep, and after doing research I have a lot of the other 'symptoms'. And after much thought, everything in my life adds up to this.. So the point is.. I have come here desperately seeking help. I'm new to the site so if anyone reads this and can help me, you have no idea how grateful I would be. I have one friend I can tell, named Isa, and she agreed to be my donor. Not knowing what I was doing but having experience with energy manipulation, I attempted to 'feed'. I went overboard and made her sick. I feel so bad so I need to learn how to get this under control. I have so many questions and no one to turn to. Please if anyone can help me please message me. I feel stupid if this isn't the place to be writing something like this, but like I said I am new to the site and also very desperate. I would be more than happy to divulge all the details if someone would help. I don't know what I could do in return, but I would do anything at this point and I can't seem to find many sites that I can get in contact with anyone. So like the broken record I must be starting to sound like :D if you can aid me in any way please contact me.