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I am a hippie, punk, tweak, poet, capitalist, sarcastic pain in the ass. With a dash of stoner, Thrasher, mausher, socially defunct retarded white girl. Peace loving mindless thug, who just happens to be a philosophical anomaly. A skitso, with the same belief system as my other 13 personalities, needless to say we all get along great. I'm a pyro, clepto, so and so. The kind of girl who gets greeted by a flock of holy shits, and no fucking ways upon entering a room. I'm the last girl you'd ever expect to meet in a dark ally, and the only one to walk out. I'm a nerd, dork, geek, total fucking freak. A weirdo, stalkery ass mother fucker. Helpless romantic, frantic obsessive compulsive, with a corrosively addictive personality. Welcome to my reality. A fucked up world filled with jade eyes, utopian turmoil, ultraistic rhetoric, and jubilant fools. Some rules ignored as foible banter. Decadent to the point of looming illicitly over the troubled heads of children. A contagion born naturally within our own society, awaiting it's change to drain out our vim. And we don't even fight; we bend to the whim, fancy of mediocrity. Bellicose men with lack luster smiles, believe love to be taboo. Drug addicts merely staring blankly at the same diorama I'm painting now with words. Fluidly irrevocable and cliché, years fly by day by day. Second in, century out, the faces are the same, and the names repeat in complex patterns. And although we attest to the sins of civil propaganda, we only watch our lives become nothing more then a seven figure numerical code. The more we hate, the more efficiently it can erode our souls, and at an alarmingly accelerated rate. The story progresses along nicely. The death of honor and valor has brought forth a new moral system, social Darwinism. So fuck you, survival of the fittest and what not. You get one shot make it count. The last tear runs down the callous soul of the newborn cut-throat, just as it does the dying whore. But don't worry there's plenty of death left for you with the on coming war. So smile because you don't know me, you've only heard a bullshit sugar coated fantasy of what my life would be if it were just a little bit better
  
The heart may freeze or it can burn
The pain will ease if I can learn
There is no future, there is no past
I live this moment as my last
There's only us, there's only this
Forget regret, or life is yours to miss
No other road, no other way
No day but today
There's only us, only tonight
We must let go to know what's right
No other course, no other way
No day but today
I can't control
My destiny
I trust my soul
My only goal is just to be
There's only now
There's only here
Give in to love
Or live in fear
No other path
No other way
No day but today
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