CrimsonSmiles's Profile at Vampire Rave.

Intro.

CrimsonSmiles is just a user,
my vampire name: Trindy (nickname) --Ask me for full name--
some of you may hear that sounds familiar and some may not..
I have an angel part too. her name is Trinity

and my human carrier, the human name's Monica

Have respect, we are all but in one body.. Monica's..
we love her dearly and she is the owner of her own body, We chose her. She is us, we are her.. it's quite difficult to understand.. but there are others just like me... in a similar situation..

	Monica -- [noun]: A touch that feels feather like
'How will you be defined in the Sexual Dictionary?' at QuizUniverse.com

About Me:

I love Astrology also, and Three of my main astrology signs: Capricorn, Gemini, and Libra.

Favourite Color(s)= Black, Red/Crimson , White, Silver, Midnight Blue, and Dark Velvet Green.But I love all colors in general.
Likes:polite people LoveFamilyFriendsChurchSingingHelpingArtsMusic Boys/GentlemenModelingFlowers AnimalsBlood & more..
Dislikes:Rude peopleExtremistsDramaLiarsPeerPressure Fake FriendsRacistsBulliesJudgemental people Gross foodHorrid ScentsBraggers & etc..
Hobbies: PaintingWritingSinging Playing musical Instruments: Violin, Cello, Piano, My voice, and I want to learn the guitar.Paintballing(Love it)ATV RidingHikingDancing(choreography ,but I want to relearn social dances, ie: Tango, Ballroom, Salsa, etc.)Modeling (been too busy with school lately but I'm going to get started soon hopefully)GardeningVideo GamesInternet & etc..etc..

Music = Rhythm to Life
Bands that I like -( I like all genres of music, cept for some rap, it's too much sex and money.. tis like wtf? idiotic fuggars that have no point.. but i would agree that some songs are fun to dance and party to :P)

Currently listening to: Say(All I need) by One Republic (these bands are all out of order some I like more than others)
Atreyu
Linkin Park
The Used
Senses Fail
Imogen Heap
Frou Frou(is Imogen Heap)
Gackt
Rihanna
Trey Songz
Ne-Yo
Hawthorne Heights
Bach
Beethoven
Vivaldi
Disturbed
Korn
The Streets
Three Days Grace
Family Force 5
Kerli
The Beatles
311
Debussy
The Killers
BrokenCYDE
Sum 41
SuperChick
Jimmy Eat World
Avenged Sevenfold
Armor For Sleep
The Postal Service
Does it Offend You, Yeah?
Natasha Bedingfield
Alicia Keys
Mudvayne
Incubus
Red
Relient K
Saliva
Savage Garden
Simple Plan
Snow Patrol
Metro Station
Cartel
We The Kings
Bob Marley
Destiny's Child
Hedley
Death Cab for Cutie
Flyleaf
Mariah Carey
Ciara
Ingrid Michaelson
Jordin Sparks
Jem
Coldplay
Rob Dougan
Staind
Switchfoot
Hoobastank
Yellowcard
System of the Down
Corinne Bailey Rae
Fall Out Boy
Common
Combichrist
Leona Lewis
and more.. seriously lol I have more music artists that I like xD;

In My Opinion..

I would call myself... Poision ~ Why, you may ask??
.. I am like a venom that brings extacy when taken into any experience- a simple conversation, a simple day out, or maybe just to steal a few exchanging glances- and you're infected... I am like Poison .. Many men have been blinded.. They forget commitment and sometimes forget devotion,.. Once within their thoughts I spread like a deadly toxicity..

Truth is.. I don't want to be this poison, it has even caused my own reputation to slowly grow it's cracks and faults. People start to believe that I am unfaithful and am cheating whore, but you know what .. I am NOWHERE near that! The guys that I have met are my friends, but even when they have girlfriends, if they get too close to me they can't but help to forget and only end up nearly wanting to cheat on their girlfriends. They've stolen kisses from me, straddled me to the ground, pinned me against walls.. and me? I don't do jack shiet. and I get all this blame from people saying that I do things, well! I DONT! I'm sick of shit some people can't back up.

*** AS A NOTE***: I am truly in love and have found my one in only, he is truly one in a million. He is like the air I breathe, and the blood that runs through my veins.. and more, We're both are deeply in love and fully committed. He's almost perfect, no one is perfect, but I accept his flaws and love his for who he is, character, personality, and intelligence is first then will come the looks, but I believe that he's got them all ♥
**GIST OF THE NOTE**: If you want to become my friend I will gladly and warmly accept. I love making friends and helping others. But please! NOTE! Do not tempt yourself with such thoughts and desires, because.. I'm not interested.

New update:.. the love of my life has left me.. and he doesn't really know why.. because he says our relationship is not advancing.. yet he doesn't even know exactly by what that means.. What did I do wrong?! Please... *cries* I need to know.. was I not there for you enough?? I was supportive for you and caring.. was it not enough?? I tried my best to be perfect though I do admit I have a lot of flaws.. and my clumsiness and ditzy moments are just sort of natural for me.. Am I too much to handle?? Am I a kid to you?? Don't you understand that.. I wrapped my heart in those promises you made? and that you broke.. the night of my July 31st and the early morning of your 1st August.. My world seems to grow dark and lonely.. it hurts.. I've never felt so much pain, yet.. I've never felt stronger.. because, without you, I'm pulling myself together.. again, for the third time, you left me three times now, but you came back the first two times.. I took you back, because I love you, and I still love you (lyrics from Car Underwater by Armor For Sleep)"I didn't care that you left and abandoned me, what hurts more, is that I would still die for you.." Thing is babe.. well not anymore, Sam.. I sing those lyrics now.. not you, you left me and.. sad as it is,.. but meaningful, I do care.. i wont force you not to leave me.. but I'll accept that you want to leave me.. Though I want you to know.. if you come back again.. and want to try again.. I'll take you back.. ♥

I drew this for you,.. with all my heart and my love for you in every line and every crevice I shaded with my pencil.. what I thought would last forever, and all the promises you made me.. I'm a fool, to have believed you.. and now this picture is probably meaningless to you.. and having to have drawn this and my vow to never destroy my arts.. Every time I see this.. my heart feels impaled.. and at a loss of blood.. I wonder if the heart arithmia will ever come back.. heh.. ITALYWML ♥.. eventhough.. you don't feel the same anymore..
& i put this colored one up for you, because you liked this one more~ The one full of color.. *smiles remembering back*.. -sighs- *walks into the darkness dropping dark red rose petals.. trailing behind her as she vanished into the distance*

If you add me to your friends list, please inform me, so I may do the same also.

These are 3 of my amazing and wild friends. The Bad Girls ;D I have my good friend girls and then I have my bad friend girls.. and here they are ^_^ They're all gorgeous.
(the left)Veronica , (the middle- is my best friend in the world) Taylor, and (the one on the right) Anastashia
They are my fun party girls, we rock it hard, drink it down, dance it up and know how to have a fantastic time even without all that jazz of alc or drugs, s'like! Screw that! I'm my own drug ;D

------------------------The favourites of my Poetry----------------------------
New poems:

7-31-08
Short poem fest.. by Monica (there is an entry at the bottom so please read on if you already started the first poem, you must read through them all once you read the first words of the first poem)

FOOL by Monica

For you I'd do anything, I'd even die for you.
One and only, you are to me. & to think I trusted your word.
On my own, I'm pulling myself together.. "I'll buy you a wedding ring"..
Liar,.. I feel like shit for saying that. I was a fool to trust you yet I still love you

PAIN by Monica

Pure bliss showered my heart, true love lifted me high
And now, it had been shattered, and worse by the one I loved most.
I never dreamnt of a moment like this.. or you saying you were a fool..
Now I know.. you weren't serious, I guess I fell in love with a joker.

INSOLENCE by Monica

I trusted you with all my being, I loved you for who you are,..
No one ever gave me this much happiness & no one ever gave me so much pain
Sam, you are the one.. well I truly believed in every word you said until
One day, this day.. you told me again.. that you couldn't see it anymore..
Let alone that.. I still love you.. so much, yet you say you acted like a 6 year old
Everything I believed in.. now is crushed.. to think that I fell in love.. when ,
Now it's a joke, you think back & say.. I wasn't serious but how do you know?
Clearly, through the 1.5 years we've been in love and together.. I gave you..
Everything I could,my faith & chances.Twice,yet I still hope for a third..

LOVE by Monica

Love is what is indescribable, as so they say, but I believe I can say..
One and only, a true love you found, thinking of you first and holding their word.
Vanishing all those pains is what lovers do, they make you happy again and new
Everytime you hear them every time their on, you heart flutters, yet that's not all.

CHANCES by Monica

Crushed twice, the first you disappeared without me knowing.. but I,
Heard your apology in that letter, and I want to let you know, I cried.
Another time was when our distance made it seem dim, the future..
Never did I think you would come back again.. though you called me once more
Changing those words of yours in lyrics and song.. my heart gave in.
Everything I gave.. was for you. Have you not noticed .. my sacrifices?
Still my love for you was present, so for the second time, I took you back,
still loving you as I ever would..

an ending to this poem and all the rest of the short poems here, as an entry to my heart and secretly to Sam, if you ever read this.. You let me go this third time.. my night of July 31st and the early morning of your 1st August.. If you came back to me and apologized.. I want to let you know.. I would still give you another chance, I would still love you eventhough you left me again..

& to think.. I even wrote the poem Desire for you for Valentine's Day..

Desire by Monica

A stare as deep as the ocean
a view that speaks a thousand words.
The scene is silent no sound, no motion, breathing only heard.

Caught in time,
no interruptions-only thoughts consuming-not even a stir
I am yours & you are mine.
She only for him & He only for her.

Intensity builds, an invisible force pulls,
a sudden yearn emerges.
Moving so slow, so sensual, & graceful,
smoothly the lover caresses,
enforcing new and lustful urges.

Incessant silence- no words,
Body language speaking loud,
as a storm wanting to be heard.

Their fingers linger on each other’s skin,
as soft as silk, they delicately skim.
Every breath to intake, every second they cherish.
Lips brush against the lover's body,
her breath held like a gasp for air.
As the receiver- she intakes, blank mind but bright abyss
Just for her?... No, it is fair.
As the giver- each kiss he savors, sweet undeniable bliss.

Information About & Their Opinions: ---- ask me my name, but I'll choose to tell you----, Trinity & Monica

Hey Hey!!! Well this part is still under construction and in my mind about what I should put down.
ALTHOUGH! :D I do have an opinion and thought to say..:

Blood:
.. these days.. doesn't taste the same anymore.
Only the purest taste sweet and pure. And mine as well.. thickened by my confusions in the soul and mind and heart.
Yet.. at times.. it is the most delicious thing I've ever tasted.

Mutts don't taste very satisifying.. their blood tained with disgusting thickness and sickness. Their plasma levels at an all time high.. Yuck. But.. I must admit.. their have been mixes in blood line that taste like perfection.. rich like wine but texture so define, with iron that tingles your tastebuds.

I could go on about blood for much more.. but I'll leave it at that~ *Smiles , licking her lips.. and then dazes off into the distance*
" .. Oh.. how the taste of good blood is rare these days.."

Quizzes

What would you look like if you were a vampire?
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You scored as Loving

Your the loving type of vampire (You should already know this). The picture is what you look like. You want to spare as many human lives that you can. Your also possibly a hopeless romantic!

What type of beauty are you?

You are Pretty!
You are just natually pretty! Your look is sophisticated and classy. You have a glow about you, and you attract people everywhere you go.

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What kind of lover are you?

Passionate
You're a very intimate lover who makes love rather than just has sex. You can't get going unless you are head over heels in love with the person you're with. For this, your lovemaking is very intense, producing multiple orgasms for both you and your mate. You are very tender and emotional when it comes to sex and are often praised for how good you can make it. It's very easy for you to feed off of what your mate wants and you never have a problem giving it to them.

How do you compare?
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I took this test twice because on one of the questions I could not choose between two answers. But even as I just made one change, the card turned out differently. So I wanted to put up these two results (:

You are The Lovers

Motive, power, and action, arising from Inspiration and Impulse.

The Lovers represents intuition and inspiration. Very often a choice needs to be made.

Originally, this card was called just LOVE. And that's actually more apt than "Lovers." Love follows in this sequence of growth and maturity. And, coming after the Emperor, who is about control, it is a radical change in perspective. LOVE is a force that makes you choose and decide for reasons you often can't understand; it makes you surrender control to a higher power. And that is what this card is all about. Finding something or someone who is so much a part of yourself, so perfectly attuned to you and you to them, that you cannot, dare not resist. This card indicates that the you have or will come across a person, career, challenge or thing that you will fall in love with. You will know instinctively that you must have this, even if it means diverging from your chosen path. No matter the difficulties, without it you will never be complete.

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You are the World

Completion, Good Reward.

The World is the final card of the Major Arcana, and as such represents saturnian energies, time, and completion.

The World card pictures a dancer in a Yoni (sometimes made of laurel leaves). The Yoni symbolizes the great Mother, the cervix through which everything is born, and also the doorway to the next life after death. It is indicative of a complete circle. Everything is finally coming together, successfully and at last. You will get that Ph.D. you've been working for years to complete, graduate at long last, marry after a long engagement, or finish that huge project. This card is not for little ends, but for big ones, important ones, ones that come with well earned cheers and acknowledgements. Your hard work, knowledge, wisdom, patience, etc, will absolutely pay-off; you've done everything right.

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