Hello, VR world! I have been absent for several months due to some personal things, but I'm glad to be back! If anyone has rated me, bit me, or added me to their friends list and I have not yet returned the favor, please be patient with me, I'm a tweak overwhelmed, but I promise I will not let any kindness done to me go unreciprocated. ;) The best way to be sure I will return any favors is to send me a message letting me know.
So, who am I? I am just a human being trying to find my place in life, but you can call me Kayla....or ShadowFlower......whatever floats your boat. I am here because I feel like I can be myself a bit easier and not be someone I'm not. Nobody wants to be ostracized...when I first started gradeschool, I had not yet been tainted by the idea of being 'what other people wanted'. When I was rejected time and time again, gaining friends only to lose them a month later because I was 'uncool', I started hiding who I was just so I could fit in...started doing things I never would have done just to have friends and be liked...but after I graduated highschool, I decided it was time to gain some balls, so to speak...I was unhappy hiding my passions and beliefs, my likes and dislikes...I decided I would rather have ME than THEM. So now, I still struggle with staying true to myself sometimes...the emotional scars run deep...but I am well and truly on the road and I'm much happier. But even still, if you get me to truly open up, congratulations. I find it very tedious to try and get along with most people, and if I feel like I have to try to get a person to like me, it's definitely not worth it. I'm not going to be someone I'm not just to gain popularity.
What are the specs under my hood (lol)? Well, I'm 23 and very small for my age, standing at an impressive 4'11" and weighing in at 90-95 lbs. I'm a brunette with long wavy and unruly hair and brown eyes and too much arm hair, in my humble opinion...but then, I do have a lot of Spanish, German, and Indian in me, so I guess it's to be expected. But it sometimes makes me a bit self conscious, though I try very hard to push that feeling away and not let it bother me. I have no tattoos yet, but hopefully I'll have one fairly soon. And the only piercing I have (besides the 5 in my ears) is my tongue. I got that done on my 18th birthday just because I could. You know, the typical rebellious phase....
I have definitely not lost the child in me, I guess I take after my mom on that. I just feel that nobody should take life too seriously. If you don't laugh and make others laugh, your life will be void of color and life. I enjoy reading and writing stories, and am actually writing a book right now. I also cannot live without music. If I'm not listening to some tunes on the stereo, I'm listening to them in my head. If I could go horseback riding every day, I would. My favorite color is purple. I love vampires and I find the Wiccan religion intriguing. I could live on cereal and brownies. I predict that even when I'm 40, I will still love My Little Ponies and Rainbow Brite. I think that if everyone lived by the philosophy of 'do unto others', the world would be a much nicer place to live and maybe, just maybe, fate would see fit to let us stick around after December 21st, 2012 - hey, the Mayans could be wrong...I love to sing, and sometimes I like my voice - depending on the song I'm trying to sing. If I wasn't self conscious of my voice, I might sing in the shower, but as it stands, I make do with humming to myself. I am told that I have a very pleasant voice, but that's usually by the customers I talk to at work (I have a special 'customer' voice that sounds all nicey nice). I have bags of stuffed animals and can't find it in my heart to get rid of them...it would hurt their feelings and I would miss them too much. I also still have my two blankies from when I was a baby and, just like with the stuffies, I cannot abandon them. I am never in just socks, it's either shoes or poofy slippers...the toe socks feel kinda funny on my feet, so I only own one pair of those. I love sweaters - they make me feel cozy like the slippers do....I get cold easily. I am anything but a morning person. Usually I'm not up before 11:00am. And I love my coffee!!!
I can be fairly grouchy if I don't have my coffee when I wake up...not to mention get a nagging headache.
My boyfriend and I have been together over four and a half years and will be celebrating our 5 year anniversary in June. He is the love of my life. I feel totally comfortable around him. He is the one person I can be 100% myself around. We are absolutely faithful to eachother, so please, no flirting and certainly no cybering. I am solely here for friends and to gather knowledge and insight.
I am a very proud ACM of this wonderful coven:
Protection Stamps from Some of My Fellow Coven Members
  
And I am a member of my Coven Master's mentorship: Fraternity of Dragons
And here's why. I love dragons and have for as long as I can remember. There's just something about their mystical quality that draws me to them.
 | What's your inner spirit? | 
Dragon
You feel free. You're loyal to your friends and family and you stick up for them whenever trouble comes about. | How do you compare?
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The picture above is an abstract dragon, pretty neat I think. And here is one I really like that looks like it was done with watercolors. Very wicked!
As I said above, I love My Little Ponies. I know, I know, I'm 23 and they are a children's toy, but, hey, some old habits die hard and just because I'm an adult doesn't mean I have to be uptight and boring, I like to cut loose and just have fun. And to me, My Little Ponies are fun.
Well, ok, enough about that.....moving along now.....
Yes, I am a Juggalette. That really is a shame if you don't like me for that. Anyone who dislikes me based solely on that fact and doesn't even TRY to get to know me first is not worth squat in my book.
The following is an article written by a fellow Juggalette, and I think it describes Juggalos and Juggalettes pretty darn well. I tried to send her an e-mail asking permission to use it, but both of her listed e-mail addresses no longer exist, so listing the website will hopefully be enough.
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Being a Juggalette (or Juggalo) isn't about how much merchandise you have or knowing every little detail about ICP. It's about being yourself- about seeing the world differently from normal society and not caring where your opinion fits in. Juggalettes don't take crap from other people, they know who they are and they accept it. They defend the family 100% because true Juggalettes know what it's like to be an outsider. It doesn't matter how many hatchetman tatoos you have, or how many ICP cd's you own, it's about being yourself and not caring if other people don't like who you are. It's about knowing that you always have the family to lean on when you need support. And one of the most important things is being a true believer in the Dark Carnival and knowing that when life fails you, Shangri-La will always be a place for you to go......"Truth is we follow God, we've always been behind him, the carnival is God and may all Juggalos find him."
Hero
Everyone knows what a hero is....a hero is someone who saves lives. We always picture them pulling people from burning buildings and bravely going where most others wouldn't risk going. But 'hero' has more than one definition. It's not just about selflessly risking life and limb. Heroes stands up for themselves and others - they don't take crap; they believe in themselves and others and have a fierce determination - nothing stands in their way; they don't judge others based on insignificant physical details, preferring to value a person's soul rather than allowing themselves to be blinded by the outer wrapping.....after all, a gift can be wrapped in the most gorgeous paper and tied with the most elegant of bows, but that does not mean it contains gold, and on the flip side, some of the best gifts come in a cardboard box.....a hero knows this. And a hero doesn't define who they are by looking at what everyone else wants, they don't mold themselves after society's definition of 'cool'. They understand that it is far more beneficial to flourish as the beautiful people they are rather than hold themselves down to the standards of others. THEY ARE BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE!!!
Big cats are my ultimate favorite animals, tigers being number one, jaguars being number two, and leopards being number three. Big cats are so majestic and regal, and you can't argue with a power like that. Purely lethal. And of course, gorgeous to look at. Like this absolutely breathtaking blue Bengal tiger:
and this equally stunning blue Maltese tiger:
And I have to include a tribute to my runners up:
A gorgeous black spotted Jag.
and a picture of a black jag cuddling with an orange spotted jag
This is why you don't want to mess with a big cat...
and this is one of the favorite pasttimes this leopard and I have in common
My little kitty, a chocolate and orange tortoiseshell who's name is Buffy (and NOT named after the vampire slayer!!! lol, the name just fits her), is probably my best friend besides my boyfriend. She's quiet and sweet, my little Valentine Kitty (born on Valentine's Day). I sometimes think she has more personality than I do and wonder frequently if she knows and understands more than she lets on.
Moving on....I love, love, love to read. It is my passion and one of the only ways I can tune out life and immerse myself in a world of my choosing. I just don't like Tom Clancey type stuff, I find it rather boring.....Writing is my other source of happiness. Currently I am writing a fantasy novel. It's pretty slow going, but I'll finish it eventually...I swear I will.....I have more than 100 pages typed up!
I like music of all kinds, just not jazz or classical, my fave is rock tho, hands down. My favorite song is 'Cry Little Sister'-every version is amazing. I really like Eminem's song, 'I'm Not Afraid', AVI's song 'Silver and Cold', and the song '1, 2, 3', by EarthSuit. Just some of my many favorite bands include: Korn (the entire Untouchables cd rocks), Disturbed, Avenged Sevenfold, All That Remains, Metallica, Atreyu, Smashing Pumpkins, Seasons After, AVI, System of a Down, and Tool (which goes hand in hand with A Perfect Circle), and for rap I enjoy 2 Pac, 50 Cent, LUDA, Little John and the Eastside Boyz, Ying Yang Twins, Eminem (I don't care what anyone says, this white boy CAN rap), Jay-Z, and DMX - just to name a few...I also love artists like Bob Seger, Brian Adams (he's one of my very favorites, and yeah, I'm the romantic type...hugely) ICP (MFWCL!), John Denver, Journey, Seals and Crofts, Ace of Base, CCR and so many more. I know it seems kinda weird to like such a wide variety of artists, but what can I say, both my parents have good taste in tunes.
I like horses.....see My Little Ponies above....I was kinda born in the saddle, but have never had the priviledge of owning one myself.
I have tremendous compassion for people and animals alike, my boyfriend tells me that I care way too much for my own good - half the reason my life is so miserable sometimes.
I am very against animal testing and killing animals for their fur. It is cruel and unjust.
Also, I do not care for Chinese food....or Mexican - too spicy - and I'm not a fan of sushi, lobster, or clams. Popcorn shrimp are awesome, though. But I much prefer a wonderful pasta dish or a sandwich of some kind....tuna melts are the bomb.....and grilled chicken subs....and I make a mean Breakfast Surprise... heeheehee. And I have loved spinach since before I can remember, I know, weird, huh? And then, of course, there is the SWEET STUFF!!! I LOVE BROWNIES!! Well, I like chocolate of any kind, of course, but what lady doesn't? And I can never turn down spice cake or carrot cake, as long as they are topped with cream cheese frosting....yum. My typical birthday meal consists of lasagna and brownies instead of a cake....hmmm, good thing my b-day's coming up in March, I would very much like for my mom to make me some of her lasagna again, and her sinful homemade brownies will put any box mix to shame. Hmm, my mouth is watering, time to move on..
Okay, some more stuff I don't like....I'm not a huge drinker, maybe cuz I'm small enough to blow away in a strong wind and maybe cuz my taste buds just hate the taste.....I tell ya, beer has got to be the single worst beverage ever invented, I swear. I do like mixed drinks, provided they have some kind of fruit drink in them and not soda. Fruit flavors mask the taste of the alcohol much better, in my opinion. Like everyone else, I don't like liars, thieves, cheaters, backstabbers, fairweather friends, people who are two-faced or stuck up, pervs, pigs, etc. I mean, who in their right mind WOULD like those kinds of people? That's what I want to know.....Anyhoo, I also don't like talking on the phone...I know, shocker - a woman who actually dislikes jabbering away with a plastic devise stuck to her ear, or stuck in her ear as the case is these days - ya know, I hate those hands-free phone things, I always feel like such an idiot when I start responding to people who weren't even talking to me in the first place. And I have vehemently refused to Tweet or use facebook - until now...my sister has been on my case about signing up, and I finally caved to make her happy. I won't be on there much, tho, cuz this has been my opinion of facebook, myspace, and twitter....
heehehee....lol
Well, now you know a bit about me, hopefully I will be able to learn a little about you, too. And I am periodically adding more to this compilation, so feel free to stop back every once in a while. Til next time, farewell friend.
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What Tarot Card Are You?
You are The Moon
Hope, Expectation, Bright Promises.
The Moon is a card of magic and mystery - when prominent, you know that nothing is as it seems, particularly when it concerns relationships. All logic is thrown out the window.
The Moon is all about visions, illusions, madness, genius, and poetry. This is a card that has to do with sleep, and so, with both dreams and nightmares. It is a scary card in that it warns that there might be hidden enemies, tricks, and falsehoods, but it should also be remembered that this is a card of great creativity, powerful magic, primal feelings, and intuition. You may be going through a time of emotional and mental trial. If you have any past mental problems, you must avoid drugs or alcohol, as abuse of either will cause irreparable damage. This time, however, can also result in great creativity, psychic powers, visions, and insight. You can and should trust your intuition.
What Tarot Card are You?
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 | What is the element of your soul? | 
Innocence
You are playfull and sweet. You are curious about everything around you and it brings life to those forgotten. You are passionate about the things you love. You are always the first to try new things, but haven't yet been open to the extreme. You don't quite yet see the world as it is in its moments of shame and maybe never will. You look for the good in everything. Maybe that is because there isn't really anything other than that inside you. You fall into things such as love, disappointment, and excitement easily because you are so eager to live life, the way you see others live life. You let the influences of people guide you, and it isn't always a path you will enjoy, so take it easy. | How do you compare?
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 | What does your soul look like? | 
Pretty and creative
In the afterlife, your soul is 'popular'. You are attractive and creative. You enjoy photography, drawing, writing...visual arts in general. People come to you for comfort and guidence. | How do you compare?
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