It seems that I always find myself being drawn to the darker sides of things, It's just that it always seems more interesting there. I seem to have found a nice little dank, dark corner here at VR. Who am I. Just another jaded individual that is looking for his place in the world. I have found that I like my solitude, for I don't suffer fools or idiots well. Here I have the luxury of simply blocking unwanted "guests" that come into my abode. I will endeavor to update you with my meaningless, meandering thoughts as time allows. Be forwarned however, thoughts are like viruses, in that they will take root in your mind and fester others like them. Soon you may find that you have become as sick and twisted as I! But, then again, perhaps that is the plan all along. Mmwwhahahahaha!!!
"There is a devil, there is no doubt. But is he trying to get in or trying to get out?".
"I have never made but one prayer to God, a very short one: “O Lord, make my enemies ridiculous.” And God granted it."
"Dignity consists not in possessing honors, but in the consciousness that we deserve them."
"Best to let the world believe you to be a fool, than open your mouth and remove all doubt."
Who keeps an arrow in his bow,
And if you prod him, lets it go?
A fervent friend, a subtle foe –
— Scorpio
Do you like your name?: It’s okay.
Are you named after someone?: Not that I know of.
Does your name mean anything?: It means manly. I swear I didn’t make that up.
How old are you?: Immortal
When is your Birthday?: That is buried in times long lost.
What is your zodiac sign?: Scorpio
Where were you born?: Houston, Texas
Where do you live now?: San Antonio, texas
What color are your eyes?: Brown.
What color is your hair?: What hair, I shave my head.
How tall are you?: 5ft 11in.
How much do you weigh?: 225 lbs.
What is your worst fear?: That one day I find that I am as big a fool as those that surround me.
¿Habla español?: Nyet.
Parlez-vous français?: What? Well I never!!!
Do you smoke?: No. Smolder a little though.
Do you drink?: Yes.
Do you cuss?: Way too often.
Do you play in a band or play an instrument?: I wouldn’t actually call it “playing”
Do you have any tattoos and/or piercings?: No. not yet, but I'm planning to.
Do you wear jewelry?: I wear a gold chain with a small cross.
Do you have any self inflicted scars?: Nope.
Do you stand for originality and creativity?: Yes, as long as I am not the that has to original or creative.
Do you skateboard?: No. Not since I almost broke half of the bones in my body as a kid.
Do you study martial arts?:Don’t have the time, but would like to.
Do you suffer from a depression disorder?: No, but I have been known to cause a few.
Do you ever get jealous of somebody else?: Why bother?
Do you take your anger out on other people?: Only if they are the cause of it.
Do you blame other people for your mistakes?: No, I take all the credit myself.
Do you watch wrestling? No, it dumbs you down. ( O.K. maybe once)
Do you watch pornography?: Have you been talking to my girlfriend?
Do you like biting?: Why yes, thank you.
Do you like candles?: Yes, scented ones.
Do you like incense?: I can live with it.
Do you like to write poetry?: I try.
Do you like to do your own photography?: Yes.
Do you like modeling and/or acting?: No.
Do you like to rave or go to clubs often?: Occassionally.
Do you go to many concerts?: The last one I went to was Tricky in Austin.
Do you like your handwriting?: No, that’s why I type.
Do you own a web cam?: No.
Do you own a thong?: You’re kidding right….
Do you own a pair of converse?: No.
Do you own a pair of dickies?: What are those?
Do you like being around people?: My friends.
Do you attend a church?: I think that worship is a private thing, not necessarily meant for groups.
Do you believe in god?: I don’t think we got here by ourselves.
Do you believe in vampires?: No. Of course not. Now let me get a closer look at that vein on your neck. It’s pulsing so rapidly, I think there must be something wrong there.
Do you believe in witchcraft?: I believe that there are things that we cannot explain.
Do you believe that you can be possesed?: Only if you allow it.
Do you believe in love?: Yes.
Do you believe in soulmates?: Yes.
Do you believe in love at first sight?: Yes.
Do you believe in love at first fright?:Not exactly sure shat that means.
Do you believe in forgiveness?: Yes.
Do you wish on stars?: No.
Do you want to get married?: With the right woman, maybe.
Do you believe you know the person you'll marry?: No, but you never know.
Do you ever get off the damn computer?: I’m symbiotically attached.
Are you dependable and/or trustworthy?: If I give you my word I will NEVER break it.
Are you evil?: Evil is such a big word.
Are you a paranoid?: Why? Whose asking? Who wants to know?
Are you obsessive and/or compulsive?: Nah.
Are you a violent person?: Only when there is no other choice and there is almost always another choice.
Are you a virgin?: No.
Are you kinky?: Why certainly, my dear.
Are you hyper active person?: Not really.
Are you religious?: To an extent.
Have you or will you ever steal?: Nah, I’d just get caught.
Have you ever tried to commit suicide?: No.
Have you ever purposely caused harm to yourself or someone else?: Not on purpose.
Have you ever dyed your hair an unusual color?: What hair?.
Have you ever played a ouija board or used tarot cards?: I did when I was a child, but I think I suppressed the memory for some reason. Couldn't have been good.
Have you ever had a song written about you?: Not that I am aware of.
If you had a favorite serial killer who would it be?: O.K. that’s a twisted question. (What do you mean I have to answer anyway. I’ll kill you, mwhahahaha)
If you had a choice about how you wanted to die what would it be?: I’d do it sometime next century.
Does pain turn you on?: No, but I am open to new things.
O.K. enough about me. You already know too much.
Love The Vampire
The level sands and grey,
Stretch leagues and leagues away,
Down to the border line of sky and foam,
A spark of sunset burns,
The grey tide-water turns,
Back, like a ghost from her forbidden home!
Here, without pyre or bier,
Light Love was buried here,
Alas, his grave was wide and deep enough,
Thrice, with averted head,
We cast dust on the dead,
And left him to his rest.
An end of Love.
"No stone to roll away,
No seal of snow or clay,
Only soft dust above his wearied eyes,
But though the sudden sound
Of Doom should shake the ground,
And graves give up their ghosts, he will not rise!"
So each to each we said!
Ah, but to either bed
Set far apart in lands of North and South,
Love as a Vampire came
With haggard eyes aflame,
And kissed us with the kisses of his mouth!
Thenceforth in dreams must we
Each other's shadow see
Wand'ring unsatisfied in empty lands,
Still the desired face
Fleets from the vain embrace,
And still the shape evades the longing hands.
Andrew Lang
By the way, if you're in need of a good laugh there is a very funny story in my journal under "stories". You just may hurt yourself laughing when you read it. I did.
