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- carpe noctem - Seize the night
I am BACK !!!
It took some time to get things done as i am in my separation year.
It might be strange to some people here but it´s better to deforce after 12 years
when you have found the love of your life than living with someone you did not really love.
Welcome to the insane Asylum of BLUTDURST
me
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About me
My oggicial VR Name is BLUTDURST.
Well thats the german meaning for bloodthirst. If anybody want's to know more about that, just drop a message into my box.I live in Meckenheim, a suburb of Bonn in Germany. I am a undertaker working in my fathers company. It might sound strange, but i love my job. Having the ability to recreate a defaced corpse and seeing the mourners not recognizing it has been deformed is the greatest gift to my profession. Well i started my intensive training as gardner in a large market garden in Bonn. I had to stop this in case of mobbing and allergies. My outfit did not fit to the company policy. The occupation as gardner - with creating plans for flowers on graves etc.and accurate conversion to reality made me use the PC for more than solitaire: I use my knownledge to create virtual reality. I use the PC,to build real or fictitious objects on the PC. This made me become professional Modeller using programs like "3D-Studio Max 4", "Poser" and the ability to programm in HTML and VRML.What i did before i became a vampyr
:As i ´ve been a member of cybertown (a VRML-World)i have had my own -as here called "House"- a own suburb with 250 members living in it.I know how much work it takes to keep it running. Maybe someone was/is member there too - my name has been cyber1973 My mentor into VRML is Mr. Phillip Hansel II,one of the creators of Spazz3d by Parrallelgraphics. He teached me VRML from the beginningand i am getting better every world i create. I hope i can add my knownledge to Vampire Rave itself.
QUIZZELS
The Ultimate Anne Rice Vampire Character Selection brought to you by Quizilla
YOU ARE LESTAT
You are Lestat, the brat prince.You do not follow any rules, mortal or immortal, you follow your own ideals in the world that have found yourself in. Watch out though, you might get bitten. YOUR STILL HOT THOUGH!
Are You Kinky? Quizzes by myYearbook.com
YOU ARE ONE VERY KINKY PERSON!
You are ONE VERY KINKY PERSON! Rock it baby! Neither age nor gender will keep you from getting some. You enjoy the wild side of life and trip the light fantastic as often as you can. True, you may wait until the weekend to let your kinkiest side emerge but it is well worth the wait! Your partner undoubtedly thinks you are the absolute. You enjoy a playful yet exciting sex life. You get it on as often as possible and you never let fatigue be a determent. Work never comes first, life is for the living. You love sex and enjoy it often! Nothing will stop you from getting some. Not even your mama. Knock boots, baby. Take it where you can get it!
Which Vampire: The Masquerade clan do you belong in? brought to you by Quizilla
You would belong to Clan Toreador
The scintillating, complicated unlives of the Kindred of Clan Toreador are an incomprehensible mess of pleasure-seeking and subterfuge to many others of their kind. Most Toreador are creatures of passion and feeling, embracing art, literature, or even outright hedonism in search of something that truely gives unlife beauty and meaning. Many of them become great creators, with all eternity to hone their arts, but most of them learn to appreciate, even envy, the tragically fleeting works of the mortal masters. Cultivating some of the best (and sometimes worst) aspects of humanity, they wield powers of great social and physical grace. However, many fall prey to their own quest for beauty, their senses growing so easily ensnared as to make them easy marks for more "practical" Kindred.
Which Vampire the Requiem Clan do you belong in? Quizzes by myYearbook.com Your Requiem Clan is Daeva
What a silly thing to say, my love. Of course you can't live without me Emotional and sensual, the Daeva cultivate both desire among their prey and physical perfection among themselves. Sexual predators and sensual hedonists alike populate the ranks of the clan. Nickname: Succubi Weakness: The Daevas cursed blood enslaves them to darker passions. Parent bloodline of: Toreador
Which Incredibly Scary Clown Are You??? Quizzes by myYearbook.com Pennywise The Clown From "IT"
You are Pennywise!!! You are by far the scariest clown EVER. You are the exact definition of evil and that's soo normal that people cower in fear when your around. You claws and bloody teeth can make grown men cry. GAH!!!
What kind of goth are you? Quizzes by myYearbook.com Romantic goth
You are romantic. Your truly know how to appreciate love and the good things in life that normal people would not see. You know how to treat your spouse or partner. Many people would love to be your friend for you are true to your friends and lovers.
What Color is your Vampire Cloak? brought to you by Quizilla Your Cloak is Black The Darkness has consumed you.
What type of kisser are you? Quizzes by myYearbook.com Playfull kisser
You and your girl/boy friend will have a very fun relationship
Should you be aVAMPIRE? Quizzes by myYearbook.com ..Yes.. You are perfect
WOW! we have a regular Dracula on our hands! You have everything the sins, the girls/guys, the blood, and the mystery!yay! how i envy you...just joking.
Are you a skeleton, zombie, vampire, demon or dark angel? Quizzes by myYearbook.com You are a demon
DEMON! my favorite!!! You are the evilest and deadliest there is! (besides satan of course). You hate religion and often scare people. You crave seeing people in pain... inflecting pain upon yourself isnt in your best interests but its ok. You are much better then skeletons and zombies.. you learned that metal and punk are a awesome team.. and enjoy any hard music no matter what genre it is. You are either constantly pissed off or sad.. and wanna take it out on a pour defenseless being. In your eyes vampires are pretty good but they really need to learn to like day. Kick ass!
Which vampiric angel are you? Quizzes by myYearbook.com Jayde, Angel of Immortality
Jayde, mistress of Dusk Red, walked through the Nether Realm fearlessly. The gift of seduction and vampirism combined kept her will alive, while mortal light could have devastated her.
How long can u last in bed? Quizzes by myYearbook.com Over 60 minutes
Damn...u really know how to work it and keep the heat up for a long time. U prolly experiment and tease a lot. Your partner thinks you're a kinky bitch and loves doing it with u. U keep it coming and know how to make it fun. You really know how to pull an all-nighter and make it extra special. You get the caressing, teasing, and experimenting in all in night. It makes u even more irresistible and the sex even more intimate.
What piercing are you? Quizzes by myYearbook.com Surface
the dark one... mysterious, you keep to yourself and dont mix well with others, but you dont want to either. you like to be alone and dont like to go out clubbing and having fun (thats not a bad thing - im like you!)
What Halo Character Are YOU??? Quizzes by myYearbook.com Master Cheif (SPARTAN-117)
W00t! You're the Master Cheif!! Youre an AWSOME leader. You are very brave! even when you are scared to do something you tough it out and do it anyways. You are loyal and dependable, always getting the job done. Your friends mean alot to you, and the respect you! Youre an all around kick ass dude!
AND THERE WILL BE MORE SOON
Me in cross-examination
Name:blutdurst Birthday: Oct 19/73
Your Fears: loosing my daughter.
Your Perfect Pizza: cheese, pepperoni, green pepper and Tabasco.
Birthplace:Hamm Üntrop, NRW, Germany
Current Location: Meckenheim, NRW, Germany
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: survive and stay cool
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: lol
Eye Color: pure toxic green
Hair Color:darkblonde
Thoughts First Waking Up: hmmm... SEXXX -DRUGS N ROCK´N ROLL - IN THIS ORDER !!!
Your Best Physical Feature: agility, speed, sexual stamina
Height: 7' 8"
Right Handed or Left Handed: i swing my weapons left handed
Your Bedtime: depends who is waiting in it -else: what is bedtime???
Your Most Missed Memory: the birth of my daughter.
Your Heritage: German,
The Shoes You Wore Today: good italian shoes
Pepsi or Coke: Coffee
MacDonald’s or Burger King MC Donalds
Your Weakness:females
Single or Group Dates: depends on where we are going
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:Lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: Coffee at home Cappuchino at friends
Do you Smoke:not while flying but else sometimes
Do you Swear: No, i am not rude. wtf???
Do you Sing: all the time
Do you Shower Daily: Sure who not? i like to taste and smell clean and fresh shower sometimes more than ones
Do you Brush your flangs? Always after Dining
Have you Been in Love:yeah
Do you want to go to College: been there done that.
Do you want to get Married: i am married happy in Reallife and here with Vampireslayer
Do you believe in yourself:i beliefe i can change all things i want to change only if i want to
Do you get Motion Sickness:hmm sometimes
Do you think you are Attractive: Most of my friends say i am Hot and handsome.
Are you a Health Freak: Freak yes, health no
Do you get along with your Parents:not always
Do you like Thunderstorms:love them i run out into the wood and watch them smashing their power into the ground
Do you play an Instrument:i do piano.
In the past month have you drank Alcohol: hmmm.... yes BAILEYS
In the past month have you been on Drugs: NEVER .
In the past month have you gone on a Date:yes unfortunatly not with my wife
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: yes i was awesome
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: i don´t steal
Ever been Drunk:yes, by 4 bottles fine old chaddonay wine at friends - remember me not doing that again, and never forget the Vodka parties, Oh My
How do you want to Die: quick and dirty
What country would you most like to Visit: America, Transylvania again
Favorite Eye Color: Green
Favorite Hair Color:Black or Blonde
Short or Long Hair: long
Height: about that *showing* high
Weight: Favorite wieght? wtf? uhm... less than 280 pound
Best Clothing Style: black n white - not to intensive styled
Number of Drugs I have taken:illegal or prescribed?
Number of CDs I own: 250 or more.
Number of Piercings: 1
Number of Tattoos: 0
Number of things in my Past I Regret:I regret cheating my wife but i learned from all my mistakes.
What is your favourite car brand? HYUNDAI
Do you like your name?: Yes, but only when called Karsten or Igel.
Are you named after someone?: Yes, my names a short form of Christian
Does your name mean anything?: Yes, it means "close to christ and being anointed." in latin.
How old are you?: 32
When is your Birthday?: Oct 19, 1973
What is your zodiac sign?: Scales
What color are your eyes?: I have "mood eyes" - normally they are brown, but they change to green when I'm angry. When I'm sad they're almost black.
What color is your hair?: Dirty brown which is starting to find grey mixing within.
How tall are you?: 6ft 2in
What is your race?: Human... though often debated. Oh, I guess you mean european.
¿Habla español?: No.
Parlez-vous français?: Oui, on petite.
Do you cuss?: Almost f'n constantly.
Do you have any tattoos and/or piercings?: Nope, but this is a) because there's so many cool tats I wouldn't know where to start, and b) I'm a wuss.
Do you wear jewelry?: I wear 2 silver Rings and a necklace with a Jerry mouse sign (my angel Claudia
Do you have any self inflicted scars?: Nope.
Do you stand for originality and creativity?: Absolutely. I've been known to sit for it, too.
Do you skateboard?: No, but I like to watch the sk8r dudes crash and burn.
Do you study martial arts?: Yes.
Do you suffer from depression disorder?: Nope.. I enjoy every minute of it. Err...
Do you ever get jealous of somebody else?: Not really, no.
Do you take your anger out on other people?: I'm usually only angry with myself.
Do you blame other people for your mistakes?: Nope, I'm really good at blaming myself.
Do you watch wrestling?: Yes, i love those drama on steroids.
Do you watch pornography?: I have been known to view certain cinematic flights of fancy, mmmyes...
Do you like biting?: When the occasion calls for it.
Do you like candles?: Yes, all kinds, but especially lilac scented.
Do you like incense?: Not as much as scented candles, but yes.
Do you like to write poetry?: Yes, I do.
Do you like to do your own photography?: Preferably, yes. I had my own studio.
Do you like modeling and/or acting?: Yes, i love people staring at me.
Do you like to rave or go to clubs often?: I don't like clubs; I enjoy hearing music, not drowning in it. And there's only one rave worth going to... VampireRave.com!
Do you go to many concerts?: Yes, seen Rammstein, OOmpH, GWAAR,Metallica, Slayer, Iron Maiden, Fear Factory, Slipknot,etc.
Do you like meeting new people and hanging out?: I enjoy meeting new people, and I'm not very reserved at first.
Do you like your handwriting?: Yes, but I write like a sick doktor, so I prefer to type.
Do you own a web cam?: Yes.I use it for Supervising others
Do you own a thong?: God no... yes but most of the time I wear boxers.
Do you own a pair of converse?: Nope... brand names are evil.
Do you own a pair of dickies?: What'd I just tell you? Eeeevvil.
Do you like being around people?: Friends, yes, others too.
Do you attend a church?: I have gone to church, but I do not feel comfortable there, because people try too hard to make you feel welcome. BUT IT is MY JOB to visit them sometimes and see their stupid Theater to hypnoze the mindless mass.
Do you believe in god?: If he exists he must be a pedophile sadistic asshole - look how many children get raped and actually we have more than 42 small wars on earth
Do you believe in vampires?: Yes, blah.
Do you believe in witchcraft?: Yes, boo.
Do you believe that you can be possesed?: Yes, but I still don't think that explains half the crap that happens to me.
Do you believe in love?: Yes.
Do you believe in soulmates?: Yes.
Do you believe in love at first sight?: Yes.
Do you believe in love at first fright?:Yes funny crap
Do you believe in forgiveness?: Yes. Though I believe it is harder to forget than forgive.
Do you wish on stars?: Yes
Do you want to get married?: I am married. at this time it´s hard for us but will get better.
Do you want to have kids?: Already have one, I'm done.
Do you believe you know the person you'll marry?: I guess i can do some things she never recog..-.. yes
Do you ever get off the damn computer?: Yes. Sometimes. You know, when I'm sleeping.
Are you dependable and/or trustworthy?: To those that earn my trust, yes.
Are you evil?: No, I'm just drawn that way.
Are you a paranoid?: Nope, but I've got this pain in my right brainhalf of my body wich is telling me to kill you.
Are you obsessive and/or compulsive?: I obsess about my compulsions, actually.
Are you a violent person?: Only when I'm pissed off, kapisch?
Are you a virgin?: Nope.. not even a Rocky Horror virgin!
Are you kinky?: When the occasion calls for it.
Are you hyper active person?: Does worcaholic count too? I was a hyper kid though.
Are you religious?: Spiritual, yes, but by nature I'm an undenominational.
Have you ever tried to commit suicide?: I have commitment issues.
Have you ever purposely caused harm to yourself or someone else?: Not on purpose.
Have you ever dyed your hair an unusual color?: nope- its so scary enough.
Have you ever played a ouija board or used tarot cards?: I have used both.
If you had a favorite serial killer who would it be?: Pedro Alonso Lopez - search for him effective guy.
If you had a choice about how you wanted to die what would it be?: Heart attack while making love.
What is your favorite game?: Board: Carcasonne; Cards: UNO; PHASE10; Computer: ZUMA; RPG: Vampire:The Masquerade.
What is your favorite movie?: Underworld, Blade, FD1-3.
What is your favorite band?: I have an ecclectic taste in music, but when I'm online I love listening to Vampirefreaks.com
What is your favorite song?: have none, switched daily
What kind of books do you read?: I enjoy vampire, gothic, erotic ( LOVE ROBIN SCHONE), and humor.
What is your favorite color?: blue
What is your favorite food?: WAX BEAN SALAD
What is your favorite drink?: a good old Wine
What is your favorite animal?: small dogs and big ones
What is your favorite part of your physical appearance?: My eyes which change colors with my mood.
What is your favorite part of your emotional being?: My mercy.
What song makes you cry?: "when Suzanna cries" by Espen Lind.
What song makes you happy?: "Duality" by Slipknot.
What do you like to listen to before bed?: I need white noise to fall asleep, like the sound of ultimate nothing.
What do you like most about life?: The fact that no matter how good or bad one day is, there's always another day to try again.
What do you dislike most about life?: I hate people who treat females and kids- they should get killed ... can i do that ??.
What is on your pillow cover?: red satin/black satin.
What is on your coffee Cup?: I have many, but the one I usually love it the "don´t talk to me- i had no sex yesterday" and "all stupid but me" on it.
What kind of cologne/perfume do you wear?: I wear Blue water or Old Spice
What kind of clothing you're wearing now?: White shirt, a tie, black pants
What is your job?: Undertaker and hobby gamedesigner
Which finger is your favorite?: Left hand, thumb.
When did you last cry?: Can´t cry my eyes to dry anyways
What kind of car you drive?: Hyundai Accent 1.3 Tuned by myself, and a Hyundai MaTriX
Would you ever kill yourself or someone else?: Only if the live of my daughter or my life was threatened... and yes, that applies to the "yourself" part of the question.
Something you wish you could understand better?: Why people have to find reasons to hate each other.and PHP
Miss someone you haven't seen in a long time?: my dead granny and grandpa they died in 2005
Are you the center of attention or the wallflower?: center of attention - i donno why
Are you a daredevil?: yes i dare if you care
Do looks matter?: nope
Ever liked someone you had no chance with?: Yes, she´s not so hot but i am married yet
Ever lied to your best friend?: Nope
Ever wanted to get revenge on someone b/c they hurt you?: yes, been there, done that
Have a certain 'type' of person you go after?: colloquial blondes with a passion for life.
Rather be dumped or dumper?: dumper.
Rather have a relationship or a hook-up?: A relationship or friendship.
Are you happy with yourself?: I'm happy because I know I am true to myself.
Are you happy with your life?: Things could be better, but they could be worse, so yes, life is good.
If you could change one thing what would it be?: I wouldn't change a thing.
Four words that sum you up?: Unique, Crazy, Gentle, Attractive.
BY my beloved friend •DRAGONKEEPER49• visit her profile, rate her 10 and get this selmade quizzle yourself
*You have a strong desire for and/ or stimulation by blood (sexual reviatalizing or otherwise) SOMETIMES | *You have a nameless craving that can never quite be filled. YES | *People you get close to tend to become tired, weary and upset a lot around you. YES | *People tend to find you interesting at first, then begin to avoid you. YES |
*Even when surrounded by others you always feel alone. YES | *Sunlight/bright-light in general hurts your eyes, but you can still go out in it so. YES IT HURTS BUT I LOVE MY SUNGLASSES | *You tend to be a night person by nature because you feel more comfortable and alive at this time. YES THERE ARE MORE INTERESTING PEOPLE TO MEET | *You have had a strong interest in Vampires or any aspect of the genre since puberty and onwards. YES SCINSE THE AGE OF 9 |
*You had a strong interest in Vampires since a traumatic event accured in your life. NOPE | *You don't get sick often, and if you do the maladies are often strange or severe. YES | *You are a fast healer. YES I HEAL VERY QUICK | *Sex tends to make you feel revitalized and full of energy. YES - FIRST SEX THEN PARTY ALL NIGHT |
*You have drank blood before or would like to if you could. SOMETIMES | *You enjoy imbibing sexual fluids because of the vitality they contain. YES - I LOVE THE TASTE OF FEMALES | *Electrical appliances and you don't generaly tend to get along well...(watches stop often, comps malfunction for no reason, microwaves start up by themselves, etc..) YES - ANTIQUE CLOCKS STOP IF I'M ARROUND | *You prefer rich frabrics, taste, scents, etc.... YES |
*You are very sensitive to sensory extreams, strong scents, rough textures, sour tastes, etc. YES | *You feel totally different on some elemental, intuitive level to most other human beings. SOMETIMES | *You feel you don't belong in this century maybe even this world. SOMETIMES | *You believe in reincarnation and maybe have had past life visions. YES,THIS MIGHT BE MY 5TH LIFE ASK ME, WHAT I DID BEFORE |
*Your dreams are often extreamly vivid and sometimes resault in cases of deja-vu. SOMETIMES | *You easily trance out or find yourself detached from the world. NO | *You posess an ability similar to ESP or are highly intuitive in general. YES | *People often find you very empathetic to how they feel. SOMETIMES |
*People either often trust you completly or think you are very dangerous. SOMETIMES | *Your style of clothing tends to be more on the dramatic side. SOMETIMES | *Your relationships tend to be very rocky and emotionaly unstable.NO | *Your relationships tend to be very intence and passionate. YES |
*People tell you that you are to intence/an enigma/ a dark hole/etc.... YES |
Life is a waterfall
we're one in the river
and one again after the fall
swimming through the void we hear the word
we lose ourselves
but we find it all....
cause we are the ones that want to play
always want to go but you never want to stay
and we are the ones that want to choose
always want to play
but you never want to lose
aerials,
in the sky
when you lose small mind
you free your life
life is a waterfall
we drink from the river
then we turn around and put up our walls
swimming through the void
we hear the word
we lose ourselves
but we find it all...
cause we are the ones that want to play
always want to go
but you never want to stay
and we are the ones
that want to choose
always want to play
but you never want to
lose
aerials,
in the sky
when you lose small mind
you free your life
aerials,
so up high
when you free your eyes eternal prize
aerials,
in the sky
when you lose small mind
you free your life
aerials,
so up high
when you free your eyes
eternal prize
http://www.absolutelyrics.com/lyrics/view/system_of_a_down/aerials/
Dust In The Wind (Kansas)
-I close my eyes, only for a moment, and the moment's gone
All my dreams, pass before my eyes, a curiosity
Dust in the wind, all they are is dust in the wind
Same old song, just a drop of water in an endless sea
All we do, crumbles to the ground, though we refuse to see
Dust in the wind, all we are is dust in the wind
Don't hang on, nothing lasts forever but the earth and the sky
It slips away, all your money won't another minute buy
Dust in the wind, all we are is dust in the wind
http://www.absolutelyrics.com/lyrics/view/guns_n'_roses/dust_in_the_wind_(kansas)/
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